Guest guest Posted July 24, 2004 Report Share Posted July 24, 2004 Ah Jo -- No need to apologize - you have had a really " crappy day " . We all have them and that's one of the reasons this group is here - to listen when those " crappy days " strike. Sometimes it just like that old saying -- when it rains, it pours. There's nothing we can do but grit our teeth and hang on. I am so sorry that you have been going to so many awful things lately, and now your knee! I can understand why you don't want to go to the hospital, but it certainly sounds like that is the place to be, especially where your leg is cold from the knee down - that does not sound good. I worry about you, ya know -- and I wish I could be there to give you a hug and you could just let it all out and be as nutty as you had to so you could feel better (or at least get to the point where you could see some " humor " in it). I hope that you can at least get some rest tonight - I'll be sending healing prayers and hugs your way. (I do hope you will go to the ER sooner rather than later, though) Take care and rest well, Love, Patti Not a good day :-( I am so sorry for sounding so down tonight, but I am just at my wits end and completely exhausted with everything my body has thrown at me this past two weeks. I just can't take any more pain and fear and feel totally drained after all that has happened already. I feel so guilty for complaining as I knew there are so many people with much bigger issues than me, but tonight I just don't have the energy to be brave. I need to cry and admit I hurt and I am so very, very scared. Please forgive me for indulging my weaknesses, I promise I will regain my fighting spirit soon... Love and hugs.....Jo xxx To learn more about EDS, visit our website: http://www.ehlersdanlos.ca Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 24, 2004 Report Share Posted July 24, 2004 Ah Jo -- No need to apologize - you have had a really " crappy day " . We all have them and that's one of the reasons this group is here - to listen when those " crappy days " strike. Sometimes it just like that old saying -- when it rains, it pours. There's nothing we can do but grit our teeth and hang on. I am so sorry that you have been going to so many awful things lately, and now your knee! I can understand why you don't want to go to the hospital, but it certainly sounds like that is the place to be, especially where your leg is cold from the knee down - that does not sound good. I worry about you, ya know -- and I wish I could be there to give you a hug and you could just let it all out and be as nutty as you had to so you could feel better (or at least get to the point where you could see some " humor " in it). I hope that you can at least get some rest tonight - I'll be sending healing prayers and hugs your way. (I do hope you will go to the ER sooner rather than later, though) Take care and rest well, Love, Patti Not a good day :-( I am so sorry for sounding so down tonight, but I am just at my wits end and completely exhausted with everything my body has thrown at me this past two weeks. I just can't take any more pain and fear and feel totally drained after all that has happened already. I feel so guilty for complaining as I knew there are so many people with much bigger issues than me, but tonight I just don't have the energy to be brave. I need to cry and admit I hurt and I am so very, very scared. Please forgive me for indulging my weaknesses, I promise I will regain my fighting spirit soon... Love and hugs.....Jo xxx To learn more about EDS, visit our website: http://www.ehlersdanlos.ca Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 25, 2004 Report Share Posted July 25, 2004 Oh Jo, I am so sorry to hear of this latest incident and all the pain you are enduring. I was thinking of you this afternoon too and sent a number of prayers your way, while laying on my daughters bed when she played her computer games. I'm just going to have to send a whole lot more prayers your way. Wish I was there to hold your hand and give a gentle hug. Sounds like the pain meds have made you tired. Do try to rest and get to that hospital in the am. {{{{{{Hugs}}}}} Bernie Not a good day :-( Today has just been such a crappy day. I guess I should have expected to pay the price for having fun yesterday though. It sounds paranoid, but I honestly believe that there is always a pay of for the good times these days. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 25, 2004 Report Share Posted July 25, 2004 Oh Jo, I am so sorry to hear of this latest incident and all the pain you are enduring. I was thinking of you this afternoon too and sent a number of prayers your way, while laying on my daughters bed when she played her computer games. I'm just going to have to send a whole lot more prayers your way. Wish I was there to hold your hand and give a gentle hug. Sounds like the pain meds have made you tired. Do try to rest and get to that hospital in the am. {{{{{{Hugs}}}}} Bernie Not a good day :-( Today has just been such a crappy day. I guess I should have expected to pay the price for having fun yesterday though. It sounds paranoid, but I honestly believe that there is always a pay of for the good times these days. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 25, 2004 Report Share Posted July 25, 2004 Jo, I would look into that Knee of yours. The sooner the better! My prayers are with you!!! HUGGLES, Grace EDS, It's a Life Thing http://www.ehlersdanlos.ca/whateds.htm Not a good day :-( Today has just been such a crappy day. I guess I should have expected to pay the price for having fun yesterday though. It sounds paranoid, but I honestly believe that there is always a pay of for the good times these days. It had been a lousy enough day with the cold, wet weather, my geeky neighbour revving his bloody bike all afternoon and then subluxing my wrist whilst inside the cast but tonight things just spiralled completely out of control. As I was dropping to the floor in order to go down the stairs in my bum (as is my usual method these days) my left knee gave a huge, sickening pop accompanied by a searing pain. I was completely stuck on the stairs and sobbing with pain for a while as I simply couldn't move my left leg at all. I eventually dared look down at my knee and found that my knee joint had shifted apart and the knee cap had dislocated completely medially and had also rotated through 90 degrees too - meaning the bottom was now sticking out of the inside of my leg. It's a good job I don't have a weak constitution that's for sure. I've tried several times but I just can't get it to go back properly, it's still sticking out of the side of my leg at a weird angle and still hurting like crazy too, even though I'm drugged up to the eye balls.The whole knee joint looks very odd and " wrong " to be honest. I can just about straighten my leg, but can't bend it much at all and weight bearing is agony so I'm stuck shuffling around on my bum again as I can't use two crutches because of my shoulder/wrist. The fact that I can't get it back into place, the pain I have when trying to bend it and the fact that my leg from the knee down is icy cold has my worried I have messed up ligaments and nerves this time. I know that I should go to the hospital but I just can't face another visit. I know it is going to be long painful and sleepless night but I just can't handle spending another night in my casualty department. I have promised to go tomorrow if it is no better though...not that much can be done for the poor uniquely messed up little thing :-( I am so sorry for sounding so down tonight, but I am just at my wits end and completely exhausted with everything my body has thrown at me this past two weeks. I just can't take any more pain and fear and feel totally drained after all that has happened already. I feel so guilty for complaining as I knew there are so many people with much bigger issues than me, but tonight I just don't have the energy to be brave. I need to cry and admit I hurt and I am so very, very scared. Please forgive me for indulging my weaknesses, I promise I will regain my fighting spirit soon... Love and hugs.....Jo xxx To learn more about EDS, visit our website: http://www.ehlersdanlos.ca Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 25, 2004 Report Share Posted July 25, 2004 Jo, I would look into that Knee of yours. The sooner the better! My prayers are with you!!! HUGGLES, Grace EDS, It's a Life Thing http://www.ehlersdanlos.ca/whateds.htm Not a good day :-( Today has just been such a crappy day. I guess I should have expected to pay the price for having fun yesterday though. It sounds paranoid, but I honestly believe that there is always a pay of for the good times these days. It had been a lousy enough day with the cold, wet weather, my geeky neighbour revving his bloody bike all afternoon and then subluxing my wrist whilst inside the cast but tonight things just spiralled completely out of control. As I was dropping to the floor in order to go down the stairs in my bum (as is my usual method these days) my left knee gave a huge, sickening pop accompanied by a searing pain. I was completely stuck on the stairs and sobbing with pain for a while as I simply couldn't move my left leg at all. I eventually dared look down at my knee and found that my knee joint had shifted apart and the knee cap had dislocated completely medially and had also rotated through 90 degrees too - meaning the bottom was now sticking out of the inside of my leg. It's a good job I don't have a weak constitution that's for sure. I've tried several times but I just can't get it to go back properly, it's still sticking out of the side of my leg at a weird angle and still hurting like crazy too, even though I'm drugged up to the eye balls.The whole knee joint looks very odd and " wrong " to be honest. I can just about straighten my leg, but can't bend it much at all and weight bearing is agony so I'm stuck shuffling around on my bum again as I can't use two crutches because of my shoulder/wrist. The fact that I can't get it back into place, the pain I have when trying to bend it and the fact that my leg from the knee down is icy cold has my worried I have messed up ligaments and nerves this time. I know that I should go to the hospital but I just can't face another visit. I know it is going to be long painful and sleepless night but I just can't handle spending another night in my casualty department. I have promised to go tomorrow if it is no better though...not that much can be done for the poor uniquely messed up little thing :-( I am so sorry for sounding so down tonight, but I am just at my wits end and completely exhausted with everything my body has thrown at me this past two weeks. I just can't take any more pain and fear and feel totally drained after all that has happened already. I feel so guilty for complaining as I knew there are so many people with much bigger issues than me, but tonight I just don't have the energy to be brave. I need to cry and admit I hurt and I am so very, very scared. Please forgive me for indulging my weaknesses, I promise I will regain my fighting spirit soon... Love and hugs.....Jo xxx To learn more about EDS, visit our website: http://www.ehlersdanlos.ca Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 25, 2004 Report Share Posted July 25, 2004 You never have to apologize, Jo. We all have them, and we all need to share them... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 25, 2004 Report Share Posted July 25, 2004 Thank you so much for your thoughts, wishes and advice both here on the board and privately. As ever my wonderful family have helped me through the clouds again! I honestly don't know what I would do without you all. I do still feel guilty for whining, but I know that I wont be blamed or judged for needing to - thank you for that very special, kind gift. My knee is still in a huge mess and very painful, but thankfully I have managed to reduce the actual knee joint enough to ease the coldness in my leg. The knee cap is still rotated though and I'm unable to bend my leg very much. I spoke to the duty Ortho surgeon who advised me to keep it splinted if I can and make attempts to get into the hospital tomorrow for x-rays and discussion with my regular OS, Mac. I have an appointment with him on Wednesday for my shoulder and wrist anyway, but if my knee if no better I will head up to get x-rays for him to view beforehand and if needs arise talk to him sooner. Not sure what will happen as my leg just isn't fixable...but I can always hope. At least I will get a giggle form the whole event as my poor surgeon hates my complex knee after several failed attempts at stabilising it before I was diagnosed and turns positively pale if I so much as mention it. Poor bloke will probably pass out if he sees where my knee cap is sitting right now lol. Thanks again, for your thoughts and support - it really does mean the world to me. Take care and know that I am always here for you too. Love and hugs.....Jo xxx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 25, 2004 Report Share Posted July 25, 2004 Oh Jo, What a day you've had. It's been much more then that though, more like a bad year. Please hang in there, I know it's hard. Jill Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 25, 2004 Report Share Posted July 25, 2004 Oh Jo, What a day you've had. It's been much more then that though, more like a bad year. Please hang in there, I know it's hard. Jill Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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