Thanks for all the hugs prayers and positive thoughts!!!

[Guest guest]

I am overwhelmed again, but this time it is for something positive.

Thank you everyone for your responses, positive thoughts, prayers

and cyber hugs. I am feeling emotionally stronger today. My husband

had to work and I felt good. I was able to take my kids to dinner

and a movie. We had a good time.

My husband is having a hard time with dealing with our illness and

he does not want to accept the fact that out daughters have problems

too. His verbal abuse can get out of hand however and he has a long

history of it. He has been to angermanagement...court ordered,

counseling and marriage counseling. He did not like spending the

money. He knows that i willnot tolerate much anymore, it is not good

for mine or my children's health. I will go to the battered woman's

shelter and seek there assistance as needed. It will be an ugly

battle. He will behave for a while, because he is afraid of losing

us. Iwould like to go to Mayo and also have a fresh biopsy while

still on his insurance. I ultimately would like the marridge to

work, but I am very skeptical it will. I just do not want to live

like this anymore. I do not want my daughters marrying someone like

him. All I can do is take it one day at a time.

My mom has heart disease, had a stroke, interstitual cystitis and

fibromyalgia. Now she has ptosis gait difficulties, and muscle

weakness. She has a lot of psychiatric issues and is extremely

difficult to deal with.(I feel so bad for my ill stepfather)Sounds

like possible mito to me. She went to urgent care and they feel it

is the lipitor she is on????Her ammonia was slightly elevated and

thyroid low. I have talked to her about trying the mito cocktail.

It feels good to vent. THanks everyone for listening.

Oh, one more thing. I started counseling 2 years ago for having an

abusive husband. I have become very close to my therapist. To top

things off, two weeks ago she was arrested for child abuse. eleven

years ago she took in her drug addicted clients son and has had him

since. She took in his sister a few years later. THe girl has caused

her nothing but problems. She went back home a few times, but always

came back to my friend who considers herself their mother. Turns out

the girl is psychopathic and has made up many lies regarding scars

on her body, because she wants to move in with her friend. The girl

is now in a detention center, but willnot give in. Fortunaely my

counselor has witnesses and medical papers to back up most of the

scars. However, she faces a jury trial and possible lose of her

career and of course she is deeply hurt. She has never received one

cent to raise these kids, even though their biological mother

promised to. The boy is relieved to have his sister out of the

house. He is a good kid. This has been very emotionally upsetting to

me, I consider them to be my family. The girl has sleep at my house

many times. I call my counselor mom, we have a strong emotional bond

and she means the world to me. She ahs a strong faith in God and

feels the truth will be revealed. But I am very afraid for her. If

anything happened to her I would fall apart.

This all sounds like a soap opera like I am making a story. It is

one big nightmare and I can not wait to wake up. Sorry to ramble!!!!

Hugs back,

dawn