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Thanks to everyone who responded to my post. I have decided not to

terminate my pregnancy, as I knew I wouldn't. I got scared. Anyone

who knows me, knows that I am not vain. But there is not enough room,

nor enough time, to have gone over my history with this group so you

would better understand why I had lingering doubts. It is very normal

to go through these emotions when you first find out you're pregnant,

and a variety of reasons will go through your mind. The big picture

is that I'm not vain, and weight gain is not at the top of my list of

worries; my goodness, I've been morbidly obese for the better half of

my life, so vanity is not an issue with me!

Anyway, this will blow everyone away, especially those who disagreed

with me terminating my pregnancy...I lost an infant daughter 5 years

ago in a terrible car wreck overseas. It was the most horrible thing

that's ever happened to me and my family. Almost a year to the date

(7 days shy actually) of Aminah's birthday, I gave birth to my third

child, a daughter named Jannah. She is the joy in our lives. I am so

grateful for her and the life she has brought back to me.

Contemplating abortion was fleeting, however, in the days I wrestled

with this issue, I kept thinking of the worry and fear of not only

gaining weight (which is something every woman does, whether or not

she has had WLS), losing control of her life as she knows it, but

also the " what if's? " . What if I lose this baby too, what if it

doesn't get enough nutrition, what if it is born with something due

to the low nutrition, what if...?

In the end, I believe that God will take care of me and my baby. I'm

excited about having another child, my family is over the moon about

it, and I'm going to leave it up to God to guide me in everything I

will go through for the next nine months.

Thanks again to everyone who responded, both positively and

negatively. I wish everyone the best!