Guest guest Posted March 16, 2004 Report Share Posted March 16, 2004 I never knew that something like this would be so painful. I keep asking myself was it something I did wrong, did I get too over excited, did I clean up to much did I do this and did I do that wrong. I am trying my hardest not to question my God because i know everything happens for a reason. And all I keep hearing from every1 is that awww I am sorry to hear that but ure 24yrs old u can have more. They just don't know where I came from and what I been through to get to where I was 2 1/2 weeks ago when I found out. My head has been killing me all day from the crying. I started cramping yesterday and I just ignored it until I got up to use the restroom and noticed I was bleeding around 5p.m and I went to the E. R with my husband and ended up being there until 2 o'clock in the morning and after blood tests, urine tests and another ultra sound, they said that the baby would not grow to be normal. She told me she didn't know as of right now whether I was miscarriaging or had an ECTOPIC pregnancy. I am sorry to say but at this moment, (hate is a strong word and I try not use it, and I don't mean ALL military doctors but most) I hate the military doctors cause they seem to not know sh**t excuse my language but I am hurt. I have been a pin cushion for the last 3 weeks almost for them trying to find out if I had an ECTOPIC pregnancy. Not to mention the at least 6 ultrasounds I have done. My blood work showed that my hormones was going up but not doubling like they should and that wasn't normal. So she said I had 2 choices, I could go into surgery and they can take the baby out (IF) its in the tubes, but I may end up losing a tube or I can take some kind of shot that they use for arthritis to go head and help me pass the baby and get my hormone level back down to 0. I told her I wanted to go ahead and get the shot but she wanted me to come in this morning at 8:30 to get it. Before I left the hospital they took more blood and when I went to see her for the shot she showed me that my levels were going down on there own so I wouldn't need the shot. I asked her is there any chance they she could be wrong and my hormones would go back up and she said no. So I guess this is the end of my pregnancy. I am so hurt and I wouldn't wish this on my worse enemy. On top of all this, she told me that I should wait between 4-6 months before we try again because I probably would lose my baby again. My husband is living for Iraq between June and august. I have been trying for 4 years to get pregnant and for me to have to wait longer is even painful. But anyway, I want to thank evry1 for their support and prayers everytime I complained about something concerning my pregnancy. I want to thank all the women who were or are trying to conceiver for accepting my apology but also understanding my excitement towards my pregnancy when i was emailing about the wic and diaper cakes. Life will go and has to go on but life will never be the same for me Mrs. Sexy Divine Diva Demika " I'm not conceited, I'm convinced " Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 16, 2004 Report Share Posted March 16, 2004 In a message dated 3/16/2004 11:46:41 PM Eastern Standard Time, Ndeatopanga@... writes: Life will go and has to go on but life will never be the same for me I truly am sorry for your pain. I had a m/c at 14 weeks in July... and I still remember. I still have the pregnancy test with the due date on it and teh baby name boy/girl choice on the ziploc bag. It is good to greive.. it is okay to be sad and angry. I know you are hurting so much inside and feel as if your insides have torn in 2. You are in my prayers. - Open Rny 12/2/03 257/210/110 -47 lbs and counting! mommy to: Noah 10/14/02 - 31 weeker - 3lbs 11 oz - 16.5 inches long edd 10/28/04 - Jonah or Isabella Marie ^i^ 7/4/03 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 16, 2004 Report Share Posted March 16, 2004 In a message dated 3/16/2004 11:46:41 PM Eastern Standard Time, Ndeatopanga@... writes: Life will go and has to go on but life will never be the same for me I truly am sorry for your pain. I had a m/c at 14 weeks in July... and I still remember. I still have the pregnancy test with the due date on it and teh baby name boy/girl choice on the ziploc bag. It is good to greive.. it is okay to be sad and angry. I know you are hurting so much inside and feel as if your insides have torn in 2. You are in my prayers. - Open Rny 12/2/03 257/210/110 -47 lbs and counting! mommy to: Noah 10/14/02 - 31 weeker - 3lbs 11 oz - 16.5 inches long edd 10/28/04 - Jonah or Isabella Marie ^i^ 7/4/03 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 16, 2004 Report Share Posted March 16, 2004 I am ssooo very terribly sorry for your loss. I know that painful feeling only too well. I had 2 miscarraiges before this one and it was ssooo painful. My doc only had me wait 2 cycles though, i have NEVER herd of waiting 4 months or so to try again. I too think military docs suck. I would wait 2 cycles and if everything looks normal with them I would try again. I know your time is very limited if your hubby is leaving later in the summer. Try to heal right now, try to rest and then if all goes with your cycles try again before hubby leaves. If you are not on folic acid right now go ahead and get yourself some. They say it is best to start taking it before you become pregnant. I take 800 mcg daily. Good Luck and we are here for you if you need us. God Bless, Robin, NorthEastern, NY EDD- July 27th, 2004 IT'S A BOY!!!!!! Mommy to: & (twin boys 7 1/2), Madison, daughter, 5 years and Wife to Pup 15 years (October 31, 1988) Gastric Bypass Surgery- October 18th 2002 Start-378, current- 246(pregnant) goal 170 after baby Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 17, 2004 Report Share Posted March 17, 2004 I am very sorry for your loss. I know your pain having had 6 miscarriages before I had my son 4 years ago. But please don't give up. A baby will happen for you. Big hugs, Chrystal Wife to Jace - together 6 Years! Happy Mommy to - 4 Years Old! New Baby Swenson Due July 28, 2004! Zookeeper for 2 big dogs and 5 cats who let me feed them! http://chrystallife.50megs.com/ http://members.ebay.com/aboutme/seeswensonauctions/ I LOST MY BABY I never knew that something like this would be so painful. I keep asking myself was it something I did wrong, did I get too over excited, did I clean up to much did I do this and did I do that wrong. I am trying my hardest not to question my God because i know everything happens for a reason. And all I keep hearing from every1 is that awww I am sorry to hear that but ure 24yrs old u can have more. They just don't know where I came from and what I been through to get to where I was 2 1/2 weeks ago when I found out. My head has been killing me all day from the crying. I started cramping yesterday and I just ignored it until I got up to use the restroom and noticed I was bleeding around 5p.m and I went to the E. R with my husband and ended up being there until 2 o'clock in the morning and after blood tests, urine tests and another ultra sound, they said that the baby would not grow to be normal. She told me she didn't know as of right now whether I was miscarriaging or had an ECTOPIC pregnancy. I am sorry to say but at this moment, (hate is a strong word and I try not use it, and I don't mean ALL military doctors but most) I hate the military doctors cause they seem to not know sh**t excuse my language but I am hurt. I have been a pin cushion for the last 3 weeks almost for them trying to find out if I had an ECTOPIC pregnancy. Not to mention the at least 6 ultrasounds I have done. My blood work showed that my hormones was going up but not doubling like they should and that wasn't normal. So she said I had 2 choices, I could go into surgery and they can take the baby out (IF) its in the tubes, but I may end up losing a tube or I can take some kind of shot that they use for arthritis to go head and help me pass the baby and get my hormone level back down to 0. I told her I wanted to go ahead and get the shot but she wanted me to come in this morning at 8:30 to get it. Before I left the hospital they took more blood and when I went to see her for the shot she showed me that my levels were going down on there own so I wouldn't need the shot. I asked her is there any chance they she could be wrong and my hormones would go back up and she said no. So I guess this is the end of my pregnancy. I am so hurt and I wouldn't wish this on my worse enemy. On top of all this, she told me that I should wait between 4-6 months before we try again because I probably would lose my baby again. My husband is living for Iraq between June and august. I have been trying for 4 years to get pregnant and for me to have to wait longer is even painful. But anyway, I want to thank evry1 for their support and prayers everytime I complained about something concerning my pregnancy. I want to thank all the women who were or are trying to conceiver for accepting my apology but also understanding my excitement towards my pregnancy when i was emailing about the wic and diaper cakes. Life will go and has to go on but life will never be the same for me Mrs. Sexy Divine Diva Demika " I'm not conceited, I'm convinced " Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 17, 2004 Report Share Posted March 17, 2004 I am sorry for your loss. I have had 5 miscarriages, but I have 3 healthy children. Hang in there and keep trying. I will add you to my prayer list! Korta Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 17, 2004 Report Share Posted March 17, 2004 I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. There are a few of us military wives here in the list and I'm sure that we can all relate to worrying about our husband's going or possibly going away, that combined with your loss, I can understand your hurt. I'm pretty sure I know what shot they were talking about and I'm glad you didn't have to get it, did they call it methotrexate? It wouldn't have hurt you but it may have made you feel yucky for a day or two if I'm correct. Methotrexate is a form or chemotherapy. I'm sure that others have told you this but know that YOU DID NOTHING WRONG! Know that the list is here for you if you need us. I'm sending prayers your way. Axelrod I LOST MY BABY I never knew that something like this would be so painful. Mrs. Sexy Divine Diva Demika " I'm not conceited, I'm convinced " Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 17, 2004 Report Share Posted March 17, 2004 I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I know exactly how you feel as I lost triplets in September. There are no words to make you feel better and nothing will make the pain go away except for time. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. DE RNY 10/16/02 Katelyn 6/94 Miscarriage w/triplets 9/03 EDD#2 8/2/04 Ndeatopanga@... wrote: >I never knew that something like this would be so painful. I keep asking >myself was it something I did wrong, did I get too over excited, did I clean up to >much did I do this and did I do that wrong. I am trying my hardest not to >question my God because i know everything happens for a reason. And all I keep >hearing from every1 is that awww I am sorry to hear that but ure 24yrs old u can >have more. They just don't know where I came from and what I been through to >get to where I was 2 1/2 weeks ago when I found out. My head has been killing >me all day from the crying. I started cramping yesterday and I just ignored it >until I got up to use the restroom and noticed I was bleeding around 5p.m and >I went to the E. R with my husband and ended up being there until 2 o'clock >in the morning and after blood tests, urine tests and another ultra sound, they >said that the baby would not grow to be normal. She told me she didn't know >as of right now whether I was miscarriaging or had an ECTOPIC pregnancy. I am >sorry to say but at this moment, (hate is a strong word and I try not use it, >and I don't mean ALL military doctors but most) I hate the military doctors >cause they seem to not know sh**t excuse my language but I am hurt. I have been a >pin cushion for the last 3 weeks almost for them trying to find out if I had >an ECTOPIC pregnancy. Not to mention the at least 6 ultrasounds I have done. >My blood work showed that my hormones was going up but not doubling like they >should and that wasn't normal. So she said I had 2 choices, I could go into >surgery and they can take the baby out (IF) its in the tubes, but I may end up >losing a tube or I can take some kind of shot that they use for arthritis to go >head and help me pass the baby and get my hormone level back down to 0. I told >her I wanted to go ahead and get the shot but she wanted me to come in this >morning at 8:30 to get it. Before I left the hospital they took more blood and >when I went to see her for the shot she showed me that my levels were going >down on there own so I wouldn't need the shot. I asked her is there any chance >they she could be wrong and my hormones would go back up and she said no. So I >guess this is the end of my pregnancy. I am so hurt and I wouldn't wish this >on my worse enemy. On top of all this, she told me that I should wait between >4-6 months before we try again because I probably would lose my baby again. My >husband is living for Iraq between June and august. I have been trying for 4 >years to get pregnant and for me to have to wait longer is even painful. But >anyway, I want to thank evry1 for their support and prayers everytime I >complained about something concerning my pregnancy. I want to thank all the women who >were or are trying to conceiver for accepting my apology but also >understanding my excitement towards my pregnancy when i was emailing about the wic and >diaper cakes. Life will go and has to go on but life will never be the same for me > >Mrs. Sexy Divine Diva Demika > " I'm not conceited, I'm convinced " > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 17, 2004 Report Share Posted March 17, 2004 Honey, you're in my prayers. This is a sad and probably angry time for you, but take your time to grieve as you must and lean on those who love you. Toi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 17, 2004 Report Share Posted March 17, 2004 April, I just noticed where your family is stationed. My brother and his family is stationed there as well.... well, my SIL, niece and nephew anyway... my brother is in the 4ID, and is currently in Kuwait (just having left Tikrit). I wish your husband a speedy and safe trip home, and soon! Niki ----- Original Message ----- From: April Cason April Fort Hood Texas Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 17, 2004 Report Share Posted March 17, 2004 April, I just noticed where your family is stationed. My brother and his family is stationed there as well.... well, my SIL, niece and nephew anyway... my brother is in the 4ID, and is currently in Kuwait (just having left Tikrit). I wish your husband a speedy and safe trip home, and soon! Niki ----- Original Message ----- From: April Cason April Fort Hood Texas Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 22, 2004 Report Share Posted March 22, 2004 I am so sorry to hear about all this. I know God will be with you. And may he bless you also. My hubby has been Iraq for a year, except for R & R when he came home for 2 weeks and I got preggo. I am very sorry for your loss. God bless, Bunny Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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