Re: last pictures of (Tamara)

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Tamara...

I so relate to so much of your email. I think the best moms are the ones who are knowlegable about what is going on with thier child...I dont' understand people who aren't, so don't feel bad about this!

We got some of those same things...people thought I was being overly negative, in fact, we found out the leadership of our church was shocked when died b/c they always thought I was exhaggerating. I just dont' know why those things happen. For me, I had never given them a reason to doubt my trust before so they had no right to think I wouldnt be completely honest/realistic about something so important and devestating...of allt he things to lie about! That hurt me a lot...because even if they didnt believe it, they should have trusted me! My mind just doesnt' compute these sorts of thoughts. Relationships are so important to me, I dont' understand how people can not be willing to walk out the hard stuff.

I described it once as looking in the sun...it hurts, but you still are compelled to do it sometimes...same with something tough in a relationship...staying there even though its hard. I have only had two people do that for us that are local...and we literally had hundreds and hundreds of local friends, so I don't get it. Our church just disappeared.

hang in there and my thermometer on these things was if I knew God was pleased with me then it didn't matter about anyone else!

deb...mom to three great adopted kids... (07.04.96-05.26.03) with Mitochondrial Disease, Gaige age 5 with High Functioning Autism & dysfluency and Bliss age 2 with very very mild Cerebral Palsy.www.HeartLiftersGallery.com