...Damian?

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Hello my friend. I am so sorry to hear of your recent events that

have compounded your situation. I really am.

As I read your post and others as it relates to Damian and your

situation, I could not help but feel compassion for both of you.

Why?

Because my daughter acts similar. Since my diagnosis 10 years ago

she has never been able to totally accept it. Sometimes are more

difficult than others. She mostly pretends that it doesn't exist,

and blocks it out. By doing this, (ignoring it) she hopes that it

will work itself out our eventually go away. However, she does have

her moments when she breaks down.

But back to you and Damian. Perhaps Damian is in denial also.

Perhaps he is even afraid of losing you. You mentioned that you

adopted Damian. Well, can you imagine the fear of losing a parent

after waiting so long to get one and a stable home environment? Poor

kid. He must be asking himself, why me? Why can't I be happy like

other normal kids and have a normal home life with normal healthy

parents? Then imagine the guilt he must feel for even thinking this

way. I know its hard, but try to put yourself in his shoes and how

his life has been plagued with disappointment after disappointment.

Just when things seem to be getting on track then all of a sudden

another bomb is dropped on him.

Yes, I know, " what about me? " I feel the same way too at times when

it comes to my precious (my daughter). I have cried many of

nights for her love and affection. But I remind myself of how our

Father feels when we neglect Him and pay Him no attention. Then I

find strength in this, and then He comforts me through it all.

Parenting is not for cowards. So suck it up and be " strong and

courageous " my dear sister.

My prayers are with you and your son.

Love, Your friend,

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