Guess I know its the right decision

[Guest guest]

Eventhough I am going through all this pre-surgery jitters with

surgery less than 10 day away, I know it is the right thing to do.

ur comment were insightful and encouraging I can really

relate to the joy of the end result which is a bite and a jaw that is

in the right place and functions correctly. If I am honest with

myself I still resemble a cow chewing it's curd when I chew on some

foods, not as bad as before I had braces but it still looks funny. I

was showing that to a friend of mine this evening who was trying to

talk me out of surgery. He admitted the way I chew is not normal. He

is one to give advice, he never takes risk or make changes he is a

typical Gemini male, sorry but it has just been my experience with

men born under that sign. That is why his life is going in circles.

My right side of my jaw is always sore. Who knows how I wearing down

my joints. I can look at my face and see how my jaw is crooked and

receded. Eventhough a lot of people don't see anything wrong or think

it is minor ur the one who lives with it and knows it out of balance.

I believe when ur jaw is out balance it can cause a lot other body

parts to be out of whack. My surgeon described it in the following

way. If you constantly walked on the side of your foot you would

start to have knee problems and then hip aligments etc. I am very

much looking foward to having that Hollywood smile instead of say to

the person taking the picture, I really don't like to smile with my

teeth, I don't like the way I look when I do.

Bottom line is I am very excited about the end results but like many

pre ops. when I read what many of the post-ops are going through it

in recovery such as numbness months later not being able to talk

right, swelling. I don't like to go out of the house if my face looks

swollen. I am kind of vain that way. Not feeling like one's self for

a couple of months I get those second thought doubts. I think this

surgery is really going to put my social life and career on hold for

a couple of months. The idea of parents coming over to take care of

me and baby me as they always do dosent thrill me either.

Cammie, it is certainly not the most difficult thing I have ever went

through emotionally. It probably is most difficult procedure I evr

had to go through medically. I never had any surgery before and I

never get sick. Ur right I will get through it and be stronger in the

end. Ur right in that every time I have taken a difficult risk that

would utimately benefit my life I was always so I glad I did and

wished I had done it sooner.

Ur right you have to focus on long term end result not short term. I

wd have made so many wiser decisons in my life if I kept that in mind.

Finally to thanks for the encouragement and keep the faith. I

have been amazed on how the power of pray does work. You do get help.

Regards to all,