Shopping

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I have to admit, I am a shopaholic. Even larger I was...just everything was

from Lane cuz that was the only store with clothes I could wear it

seemed.

Unfortunately, my shpping has gotten worse, but its just because I really

need new clothes..hehe. My friend had a breast reduction, tummy tuck and lipo

about 2 weeks before my surgery. She weighed about 260lbs at her highest weight

and lost all the way to 180 on her own. (I don't know how, girl never eats

veggies or anything healthy and she has 3 kids! hehe) Anyways, she was a

godsend..she had clothes from size 22 to 18, and quite a few at that. I am now

happy to say she is in a size 11 and looks fantastic! Anyways, I have been able

to get by mostly on the clothes she gave me, and of course I bought some new

stuff...just b/c I could I'm kind of happy to say I am getting to the point

where i HAVE to shop because I am out of clothes that fit me. (just wish I

had the $$ to keep it up...lol) I'm actually smaller than all my friends (with

the exception of my friend Shanna..hehe) and they are loving it, because

well...I have LOTS of clothes! One of my coworkers has come on two separate

occasions to " go shopping " in my closet. My friends have all reaped the

benefits

with several trash bags full of clothing, and now we are having a yard sale in

a few weeks and I am going to again have more clothes to add. Its so

exciting. I have not been this small since highschool... I actually went into

the Gap

the other day, which only has to size 16, and bought a denim mini skirt.which

fits! Sunday I went to Old Navy after my eye appt and tried on a skirt and

some slacks, and I just grabbed the 16's to see (i never know, some 18s are

tight, others are huge) and they both fit perfect! I couldn't believe i was in

a

size 16! Coming from a 26-28 this is very exciting. The past six months

have certainly brought about a lot of changes for me, and I see the confidence

in

myself that is building and find myself wondering, who is this girl?! This

has truly been a wonderful and amazing journey of self discovery for me. I'm

learning to love the person i see in the mirror, not in a vain sense, but just

removing all that self hatred and shame....Believe it or not, I have recently

been considering joining the military (if it is even possible with having this

surgery I don't know). Since I have a college degree, I will be going in as

an officer, which is somewhat easier To qualify, I have about 50lbs more

to lose, and of course I got to learn to do some push ups and sit ups! I've

talked to a personal trainer and I am going to meet with her this week and start

working on a regimen to get me to my ultimate goals. (i must admit, i have

not been exercising like i should) For the first time, I feel like I am being

proactive in my life and making things happen, rather than being reactive only

responding when forced, and it is so liberating! LOOK OUT WORLD!

Chrissy

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