late night

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Well, it's late..or early. I think it's one am. I have been trying

to sleep for hours, my first night since surgery a week ago without

the help of narcotics. And I just can't sleep. Took three hot

showers, played with the cat...my legs are ancy, like I need to run,

but the most irritating thing is the shooting nerve pain through my

face and jaw. My teeth all feel like my braces are soooo tight. And

there's also the hunger, the nausea..sigh. See , now you're

glad your surgery was postponed I bet after reading this! I just

don't know what do to to sleep. Tried camomile tea, am presently

sucking on a cracker that I slipped through my teeth, hoping it will

settle my stomach.. Now I am anxious about tomorrow night, thinking,

yikes, that's Christmas, with a little one, family etc...and what if

I'll never sleep again??? I know I am being melodramatic here,

actually, I thought I was being pretty accurate until I wrote it all

out and then just rolled my eyes at myself. Maybe because it's been

a week and I still haven't been outside, or walked? I'm nervous to

leave my humidifier....

Okay, cracker's gone, my head hurts, maybe I can get at least an

hour or so in tonight..I certainly hope all the other postopers this

week are sleeping tonight. It's good to have a place to vent..

Alix