RES: shona (loss/God mentioned)

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Shona,

Tary couldn´t have said better. You are so impportant to this group, gives

everybody such a warm welcom... I´m paying for you. I know there are days we do

not feel hope, but, I´m sure God will hear our prayers for you and things are

going to be fine at the end of your journey.

Taryn,

I´m also praying for you. You are so sweet, you deserve so much this baby, I´m

sure you´ll make it. Try to keep your faith. As you said, God knows exactly what

is going to happen. Focus on that. There is nothing else you can do appart from

what you are doing. I´m sure, you are going to be fine.

Love for you both

Ianda

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De: Taryn Bergstrom

Enviada: qua 3/12/2003 13:42

Para: Abbyloopers

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Assunto: shona (loss/God mentioned)

Shona,

I am sorry that you are not feeling well. This month is a hard time for us all.

I do not mind if the list is done once a month. We do not need to do it every

week. This way it will give you time that you need to concentrate on other

things. Enough about that.

Anniversaries are hard. I wish I could take away the pain but I can't. Hell, I

wish I could take mine away. It is amazing to me how people that share the same

grief can become great friends. No one can understand our pain. Some think oh it

was a short time their can't possibly be so many emotions. If they only knew. I

have been feeling up and down lately. I cannot make you pg or I would grant

that wish for you. When I read your words in the e-mail how you are feeling my

heart ached for you. I feel your pain and I understand. I hope for all of us

that this month goes quickly. There are many members with anniversaries and

grief this month. I am sending you a big hug and I am lending you a shoulder to

cry on. It is o.k. these are natural feelings to have. It will get better.

Tomorrow is another day.

You have been a great help to me and the other girls. It will be your turn

soon. Try to be calm and collective. I know it is easier said then done. I was

wondering has abbyloopers ever had a members meeting. What I mean is have a

location placed where we all meet up to meet in person. I know that some

members have met each other on their own. Maybe sometime from now we can all try

to find a way to meet. I was just thinking how great everyone has been for me

and I would love to give hugs and thank you's in person. I now that this is hard

to arrange due to location, money and personal agendas. This is just a warm

thought.

Shona, please do not give up hope. I did something very wrong and have not

admitted it to anyone. When I found out that my cervix had started funneling

like last time and shortened dramatically, I started to worry and become scared.

See, during this pg I told God and the angels above that I would keep my faith

in them. That they knew what was already going to happen. I was just to hang

out. The appt was a test and I let fear come in and I started to think in my

head that this whole time I said I would keep faith, and I completely lost my

head. I did not mention this feeling to my hd b/c he would not understand b/c he

is not pg. I don't want you to give up faith and hope like I did. My hd calmed

me down and I am doing o.k. but I can't get what happened to out of my

mind. I feel like I am reliving the pain over and over. You have given me

strength when I was scared, nervous and sad. You encourage us all to stick with

it and it will all turn out good in the end. To see that you are sad effects all

of us. I hope that you see how important you are to this group and how you being

here helps us to grow. It will be our turn to help you grow when the time is

right.

I wish you will find a reason to smile. If you do let us know. I am thinking of

you.

God bless,

Taryn