Taryn

October 14, 2003

ginger,

thank you for sharing. I wish their was an easier way for us to have babies. I

can say that I hate being pg. I pray that it goes fast for us all.

taryn

October 14, 2003

ginger,

thank you for sharing. I wish their was an easier way for us to have babies. I

can say that I hate being pg. I pray that it goes fast for us all.

taryn

October 14, 2003

Kara,

I got kicked out to. I could not get back in. I wonder why that happened? I

would like to chat w/ u. Let me know what time.

Taryn

October 14, 2003

Kara,

I got kicked out to. I could not get back in. I wonder why that happened? I

would like to chat w/ u. Let me know what time.

Taryn

October 14, 2003

Kara,

I got kicked out to. I could not get back in. I wonder why that happened? I

would like to chat w/ u. Let me know what time.

Taryn

November 3, 2003

Hi Taryn

Thanks so much for this message.Just got back from a weeks holiday. I'm

very depressed this month because nothing again and it was a cruel hand

this month because I always spot a day or two before I'm due. The only

time I have never spotted a day before was when I was pg. This month I

was due Sat, and had no spotting Friday so I got excited. Did an HPT

Sat morning, but it was a dud and didn't even come up with a control

line. Of course an hour later she showed up.

Anyway thanks so much. I hope I get a great christmas present too.

Shona

>

> > Shona,

> >

> > Don't worry you will get pg and we will be helping you through it.

> Maybe

> > God is waiting for you to fall pg during Christmas time.

> > Hopefully Santa Claus will be bring you a pink line or double

> line. What

> > a Christmas present. I will be sending you baby dust.

> >

> > God bless,

> >

> > Taryn

> >

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November 4, 2003

Elaine,

I was put on bed rest at

first to recover from the ad procedure. Then I was put on MBR which now has

change to SBR (some what).

I have a case at around

19 and 22 weeks to start to shorten and funnel at the cervix. I did have PTL at

25 weeks, w/ cervix measuring at

1.5 cm. I am lay in bed

all day.. I go to the cough only if someone is here. Just in case something

happens. Now that Sunday

happened I am not aloud

to go out. Most stat home. The doc who looked at me works with my doctor and we

now him. He told us that

I should take it easy and

not sit up to much till my next appt on the 13th. They are being

pre-cautious. Better safe then sorry. My cervix length

was still the same length

as it was at 16 weeks, 3.6 cm. That is good news. Last year it was shortening

at 19 weeks. I will just keep laying around

and e-mail shopping. I

love to shop. I am having major withdraws…..

Thank you for the warm

thoughts, encouragement and prayers. How are you feeling?

God bless,

Taryn

How terribly scary for all of you. Hopefully

it was just one of

those weird unexplainable things that did no harm.

I'm so glad you and the baby are fine.

I know its scary but as someone else already said

picture yourself

near the end and picture that beautiful baby happy

and healthy. I

know its hard to be positive, but as we all know

this is the only

thing we have any control over.

Can you remind me why you were put onto bedrest,

was it PTL??

Take care, your all in my prayers...

Elaine

Matt 19 mths – emergency vag/cerl 24 wks, 11

weeks bed rest then

delivered 35 wks PROM and cord prolapse.

Paige and Amy – preventative vag/cerl 14

wks, delivered alive 20 wks,

passed away short time later wrapped in my arms.

Babies were suffering from chronic Twin-to-Twin

Transfusion Syndrome

(TTTS). Unsure whether I/C, TTTS or infection

caused contractions,

which resulted in cervix dilating and stitch to

fail.

http://www.babiesonline.com/babies/m/matty2002/

http://www.babiesonline.com/babies/p/paigeandamy/

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November 4, 2003

Shona,

I am sorry that the test did not come out with a +. Your + sign

will come when you at least expect it to. That is how it works most of the

time. Have patience. I never had patience till last year. I will send you some

baby dust. Here it comes, catch it.

Did you at least enjoy your vacation? Did you see any sites? What did

you do? I hope you had a nice time.

You needed to get away. We all do.

God bless,

Taryn

Re: Taryn

Hi Taryn

Thanks so much for this message.Just got back from

a weeks holiday. I'm

very depressed this month because nothing again

and it was a cruel hand

this month because I always spot a day or two

before I'm due. The only

time I have never spotted a day before was when I

was pg. This month I

was due Sat, and had no spotting Friday so I got

excited. Did an HPT

Sat morning, but it was a dud and didn't even come

up with a control

line. Of course an hour later she showed up.

Anyway thanks so much. I hope I get a great

christmas present too.

Shona

>

> > Shona,

> >

> > Don't worry you will get pg and we will

be helping you through it.

> Maybe

> > God is waiting for you to fall pg during

Christmas time.

> > Hopefully Santa Claus will be bring you

a pink line or double

> line. What

> > a Christmas present. I will be sending

you baby dust.

> >

> > God bless,

> >

> > Taryn

> >

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November 20, 2003

Thanks Taryn! How are you feeling?

> > Hi again Kara,

> >

> > Working my way through and got to the 13th. Will is adorable!

> Is that you in the background on the first photo? If so, you are

> looking great. He is so cute. Thanks.

> > Will at 9 months....

> >

> > Well, I can't believe it's been 9 months already. Will is

> crawling

> > everywhere and very close to walking already. He has started

> letting go of

> > the couch and kind of stands there like " What Now! " -- I'm

> terrified that

> > he'll figure it out real soon and really become unstoppable!

> I'm ready to

> > have another one but the dh thinks we need to savor our time

> with Will for

> > right now! I think I'm breaking him though because he'll

> discuss possible

> > names of the next baby now!

> >

> > I'll let you all know when I've officially broken him and

we're

> TTC!

> >

> > Always,

> > Kara

> > Graduate

> >

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November 21, 2003

Taryn,

Thanks for writing. I think I would be feeling pretty much the same way you did. I am a physical therapist and many of my patients would be asking about the baby and etc. The staff in the office is aware of all that has happened to me and I know they will try to keep the annoying questions away from me as much as possible, although nothing is full proof. I like the place that I work at and hope that after initial few weeks it will be easier for me to deal with work. Staying home now is a bit more difficult, since I have too much time to think and to sit in front of my computer and keep researching things on preterm labor and abdominal cerlages, and etc. A part of me gets sick after a while from doing all that. I know that I have to stop and not spend all day doing it. But its very hard, as you know. On top of it, a coworker of mine is pregnant. She was exactly 10 weeks ahead of me. We were both pregnant and very excited about it. Of course, I lost the baby and she is doing fine. I can handle talking on the phone with her, for she is a good friend and is being very supportive, but am afraid to see her in person (I hope that I get over that fear soon). Of course this is a very tough time and I am supposed to feel all that I am feeling. Yet, getting through the next few months still requires a lot of energy, mental strength and faith that things will get better.

It certainly helps to express all that I am feeling to this group of women, since I know most of them, if not all have been there too.

Stay well Taryn,

Zhenia

November 21, 2003

Taryn,

Thanks for writing. I think I would be feeling pretty much the same way you did. I am a physical therapist and many of my patients would be asking about the baby and etc. The staff in the office is aware of all that has happened to me and I know they will try to keep the annoying questions away from me as much as possible, although nothing is full proof. I like the place that I work at and hope that after initial few weeks it will be easier for me to deal with work. Staying home now is a bit more difficult, since I have too much time to think and to sit in front of my computer and keep researching things on preterm labor and abdominal cerlages, and etc. A part of me gets sick after a while from doing all that. I know that I have to stop and not spend all day doing it. But its very hard, as you know. On top of it, a coworker of mine is pregnant. She was exactly 10 weeks ahead of me. We were both pregnant and very excited about it. Of course, I lost the baby and she is doing fine. I can handle talking on the phone with her, for she is a good friend and is being very supportive, but am afraid to see her in person (I hope that I get over that fear soon). Of course this is a very tough time and I am supposed to feel all that I am feeling. Yet, getting through the next few months still requires a lot of energy, mental strength and faith that things will get better.

It certainly helps to express all that I am feeling to this group of women, since I know most of them, if not all have been there too.

Stay well Taryn,

Zhenia

November 21, 2003

Kara,

I am hangin¡Ç in. My hd is

getting me Cheesecake factory tomorrow. They have 80 different types. Yummy.

Are you

getting ready for the holiday?

Taryn

Re: Taryn

Thanks Taryn! How are you feeling?

> > Hi again Kara,

> >

> > Working my way through and got to the

13th. Will is adorable!

> Is that you in the background on the first

photo? If so, you are

> looking great. He is so

cute. Thanks.

> > Will

at 9 months....

> >

> > Well, I can't believe it's

been 9 months already. Will is

> crawling

> > everywhere and very close to

walking already. He has started

> letting go of

> > the couch and kind of stands

there like " What Now! " -- I'm

> terrified that

> > he'll figure it out real

soon and really become unstoppable!

> I'm ready to

> > have another one but the dh

thinks we need to savor our time

> with Will for

> > right now! I think I'm

breaking him though because he'll

> discuss possible

> > names of the next baby now!

> >

> > I'll let you all know when

I've officially broken him and

we're

> TTC!

> >

> > Always,

> > Kara

> > Graduate

> >

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>

November 21, 2003

Kara,

I am hangin¡Ç in. My hd is

getting me Cheesecake factory tomorrow. They have 80 different types. Yummy.

Are you

getting ready for the holiday?

Taryn

Re: Taryn

Thanks Taryn! How are you feeling?

> > Hi again Kara,

> >

> > Working my way through and got to the

13th. Will is adorable!

> Is that you in the background on the first

photo? If so, you are

> looking great. He is so

cute. Thanks.

> > Will

at 9 months....

> >

> > Well, I can't believe it's

been 9 months already. Will is

> crawling

> > everywhere and very close to

walking already. He has started

> letting go of

> > the couch and kind of stands

there like " What Now! " -- I'm

> terrified that

> > he'll figure it out real

soon and really become unstoppable!

> I'm ready to

> > have another one but the dh

thinks we need to savor our time

> with Will for

> > right now! I think I'm

breaking him though because he'll

> discuss possible

> > names of the next baby now!

> >

> > I'll let you all know when

I've officially broken him and

we're

> TTC!

> >

> > Always,

> > Kara

> > Graduate

> >

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November 21, 2003

Well, we're going out to the Outer Banks for Thanksgiving with 27 of

our closet friends and family. We rented a 9 bedroom house so

hopefully there will be room for eveyone! Good thing is that one of

our friends is a caterer and they are doing all of the cooking for

the weekend so atleast I get a break there!

For Christmas this year we decided that we're not going to go crazy

buying Will stuff because he already has a ton of stuff and also he

just doesn't understand. Instead, we'll deposit some additional

money into his college fund and let the grandparents go crazy with

presents for him!

What are you planning on doing for the holidays?

> > > Hi again Kara,

> > >

> > > Working my way through and got to the 13th. Will is

adorable!

> > Is that you in the background on the first photo? If so, you are

> > looking great. He is so cute. Thanks.

> > > Will at 9 months....

> > >

> > > Well, I can't believe it's been 9 months already. Will is

> > crawling

> > > everywhere and very close to walking already. He has

started

> > letting go of

> > > the couch and kind of stands there like " What Now! " -- I'm

> > terrified that

> > > he'll figure it out real soon and really become

unstoppable!

> > I'm ready to

> > > have another one but the dh thinks we need to savor our time

> > with Will for

> > > right now! I think I'm breaking him though because he'll

> > discuss possible

> > > names of the next baby now!

> > >

> > > I'll let you all know when I've officially broken him and

> we're

> > TTC!

> > >

> > > Always,

> > > Kara

> > > Graduate

> > >

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November 21, 2003

Well, we're going out to the Outer Banks for Thanksgiving with 27 of

our closet friends and family. We rented a 9 bedroom house so

hopefully there will be room for eveyone! Good thing is that one of

our friends is a caterer and they are doing all of the cooking for

the weekend so atleast I get a break there!

For Christmas this year we decided that we're not going to go crazy

buying Will stuff because he already has a ton of stuff and also he

just doesn't understand. Instead, we'll deposit some additional

money into his college fund and let the grandparents go crazy with

presents for him!

What are you planning on doing for the holidays?

> > > Hi again Kara,

> > >

> > > Working my way through and got to the 13th. Will is

adorable!

> > Is that you in the background on the first photo? If so, you are

> > looking great. He is so cute. Thanks.

> > > Will at 9 months....

> > >

> > > Well, I can't believe it's been 9 months already. Will is

> > crawling

> > > everywhere and very close to walking already. He has

started

> > letting go of

> > > the couch and kind of stands there like " What Now! " -- I'm

> > terrified that

> > > he'll figure it out real soon and really become

unstoppable!

> > I'm ready to

> > > have another one but the dh thinks we need to savor our time

> > with Will for

> > > right now! I think I'm breaking him though because he'll

> > discuss possible

> > > names of the next baby now!

> > >

> > > I'll let you all know when I've officially broken him and

> we're

> > TTC!

> > >

> > > Always,

> > > Kara

> > > Graduate

> > >

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November 22, 2003

Taryn -

You have such a positive attitude. I will pray for you as I do for

everyone here. I know you will be nervous over the next few weeks.

I think of you like I do lots of other women on this cite.

I am having a good weekend. Thank you. My daughter and I went to a

cat show this morning. She loves cats. It was fun.

My husband is hunting today. It is opening deer season here in

Memphis. We bought a four wheeler after we lost our son so my

husband is putting it to use this weekend.

We also visited the cemetery this morning. I had my great aunt with

me and she had not been there since August. I wanted her to see

Angel Drew's stone (which she paid for). She loved it and thought

it was nice and simple.

I am glad you have a husband that is so supportive of you and your

needs. These husbands here didn't know what they were getting

themselves into when they married us! LOL!!! My husband was great

when I was on bedrest. I was on bedrest only for 1 week but he was

awesome!

You have a good weekend too!

Mandy--- Abbyloopers , " Taryn Bergstrom "

wrote:

> Mandy,

>

> Thank you for thinking of us. It has not been easy. It is going to

be

> harder this month as we enter into the grey zone. I had a hard

night

> last night. the pain in my hips are sometimes unbearable. They were

> hurting really bad. I wake up a lot if they hurt. I think I was up

four

> times. It sucks. My hd was so thoughtful he rubbed one side of my

hip

> till I fell back asleep. I am aloud to sit up just not to long. The

> weekends are the hardest for me. I will go lay outside for a while

on

> the dock and I am going to paint. I take ceramics with my mother.

My

> mother painted a reindeer, snowman, and mr. And mrs. Santa claus as

> stockings. They are made out of pottery and placed on top of the

fire

> place. Since I have a family I will be giving the baby my reindeer

and I

> am making a Mrs. Santa Claus for me. I love to paint things. I

painted

> the baby's room aquatic. It looks good. Took three months to do. I

am

> hoping to start back painting when the baby is born.

>

> Again thank you for thinking of us. We all need prayers. I hope

you are

> having a good weekend. The holidays are coming so fast. I can't

wait for

> them to pass. Then I will be 28 weeks. Take-care and chat with you

soon.

>

> God bless,

>

> Taryn

>

> Taryn, a question...

> >

> > Hi Taryn,

> >

> > I was wondering if you experienced any aching/pain after your

> > cerclage (not right after, but in the weeks after)? I have been

> > experiencing aching, pressure, and a weird feeling of bladder

> > irritation. This only happens if I am up for more than 10

minutes

> > or so. It will then ache for hours (lying down) and I will have

to

> > eventually take a Vicodin. It does not feel like cramping, but

> like

> > a throbbing, constant ache. I have no fever. My drs. just tell

> me

> > to stay down, but I want to also know if it is normal and how

long

> > it will last. I was told I probably would not have to stay on

MBR

> > for long, but now I am getting discouraged, and the drs. really

> > won't give me any insight into the future (if this will continue

> or

> > not). After being up and having this pain, I lie down, and then

> > after several hours, it just completely goes away and I feel

> totally

> > normal. It's weird. I am now 2.5weeks post op, and 18.5wks pg.

> The

> > one thing they did tell me was that the cerclage was placed very

> > high and tight (it couldn't physically have been placed any

> > higher). I wonder if my uterus isn't liking that noose there!!

> > Anyway, any insight would be helpful.

> >

> > Thanks,

> >

> > Cindy

> >

December 1, 2003

,

Thanks for the uppers. I

know what you mean. I probably wouldn’y do

daily but weekly, that I could do. you are right I am counting the days till

the 16th. I hope it all goes well. Why do we put ourselves through

this? I know b/c we are insane. No, it is b/c we want to have children. I am

sure that your appt on the 8th will go ggrreeaaaatttt….

I hope you are feeling well. Good luck.

God bless,

Taryn

TARYN

HEllo Taryn, just read your update on your appt, so

sorry you got

that news, I can't recall who it was, I am

thinking it was WENDY ???,

but one of the ab successer's had some funneling

too I believe in her

20's and as the weeks progressed it seemed to move

up and away and no

more funneling. I tried looking back in the

archives but they dont go

back that far anymore,DARN!

I know this is such a scary time for you, I know

the fear, I am in it

right now waiting to till dec 8th to hear my news

on my cervix. I

feel for you, the next 2 weeks are going to be

nerve racking for you

waiting for another u/s, dont ya wish we could get

them daily LOL.

Will be thinking of you, LAY LOW and take it one

day at a time.

Blessings, P.

5 early losses

Isaiah 16 wks no cerclage

21 wks failed cerclage

16.4 wks w/ab MBR

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December 4, 2003

Taryn,

Just wanted to tell you to stay strong and positive. Keep that healthy positive energy in your body. It will help your baby too. Every time to get upset or worried, take deep breaths and try to breath all the unhappy thoughts out. I was on bed rest for 1 month and know how tough it could be. Hours just go by so slowly. Find a really interesting book, something that you think that you would enjoy reading, and lose yourself in it for a few hours. You must find ways to occupy your mind. That's the best trick, since our mind often gets in the way of many things, with all the worries, and thoughts about many problems and so one...

No matter how hard it is, you must make yourself feel happy about where you are because the process that you are in now is very special and courageous and you must overcome all of the difficulties.

You are right about the friends, it take time to find out who your true friends are. Sometimes its best to have less friends but to hold on to real good ones.

Blessings,

Zhenia

December 4, 2003

Zhenia,

You are so right about

having a few good friends. Thank you for the positive remarks. I need to find a

good book. I finished one and the new one I have is not that interesting. Shopping

on line we go.

God bless,

Taryn

Re: Taryn

Taryn,

Just wanted to tell you to stay strong and positive. Keep that healthy

positive energy in your body. It will help your baby too. Every

time to get upset or worried, take deep breaths and try to breath all the

unhappy thoughts out. I was on bed rest for 1 month and know how tough it

could be. Hours just go by so slowly. Find a really interesting

book, something that you think that you would enjoy reading, and lose yourself

in it for a few hours. You must find ways to occupy your mind.

That's the best trick, since our mind often gets in the way of many things,

with all the worries, and thoughts about many problems and so one...

No matter how hard it is, you must make yourself feel happy about where you are

because the process that you are in now is very special and courageous and you

must overcome all of the difficulties.

You are right about the friends, it take time to find out who your true friends

are. Sometimes its best to have less friends but to hold on to real good

ones.

Blessings,

Zhenia

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December 7, 2003

Elaine,

Thank you for the sweet

comment. I understand how hard it is. I also know how good it feels to get an

e-mail with encouragement enclosed. It can make a sad day shine again. if their

were more people that gave encouragement to others we would all be happy for

that day. There is so much negativity in the world and why should we help the

problem. You burn more calories smiling then frowning. We all need hugs

and I am sending you one along with

blessings.

God bless,

Taryn

I never cease to be amazed at your wonderful caring

and reassuring

words to others on this board. Even though

you are concerned for

yourself and your own little baby, you are able to

give other such

comfort.

I pray for you and your little one at night, and

truly hope that this

next few weeks goes fairly quickly and smoothly

for you.

You are a wonderful inspiration to me and I'm sure

many others.

Hugs

Elaine

Matt 20 mths – emergency vag/cerl 24 wks, 11

weeks bed rest then

delivered 35 wks PROM and cord prolapse.

Paige and Amy – preventative vag/cerl 14

wks, delivered alive 20 wks,

passed away short time later wrapped in my arms.

Babies were suffering from chronic Twin-to-Twin

Transfusion Syndrome

(TTTS). Unsure whether I/C, TTTS or infection

caused contractions,

which resulted in cervix dilating and stitch to

fail.

http://www.babiesonline.com/babies/m/matty2002/

http://www.babiesonline.com/babies/p/paigeandamy/

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Elaine,

Thank you for the sweet

comment. I understand how hard it is. I also know how good it feels to get an

e-mail with encouragement enclosed. It can make a sad day shine again. if their

were more people that gave encouragement to others we would all be happy for

that day. There is so much negativity in the world and why should we help the

problem. You burn more calories smiling then frowning. We all need hugs

and I am sending you one along with

blessings.

God bless,

Taryn

I never cease to be amazed at your wonderful caring

and reassuring

words to others on this board. Even though

you are concerned for

yourself and your own little baby, you are able to

give other such

comfort.

I pray for you and your little one at night, and

truly hope that this

next few weeks goes fairly quickly and smoothly

for you.

You are a wonderful inspiration to me and I'm sure

many others.

Hugs

Elaine

Matt 20 mths – emergency vag/cerl 24 wks, 11

weeks bed rest then

delivered 35 wks PROM and cord prolapse.

Paige and Amy – preventative vag/cerl 14

wks, delivered alive 20 wks,

passed away short time later wrapped in my arms.

Babies were suffering from chronic Twin-to-Twin

Transfusion Syndrome

(TTTS). Unsure whether I/C, TTTS or infection

caused contractions,

which resulted in cervix dilating and stitch to

fail.

http://www.babiesonline.com/babies/m/matty2002/

http://www.babiesonline.com/babies/p/paigeandamy/

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December 10, 2003

Elaine,

I am doing good. Tomorrow I get my shot from the hd. I have a nurse coming on Saturday to meet with us. I have

some one coming over everyday starting tomorrow. I will have to say that I am

getting tired and bored doing the best rest thing. I can do it. I wish it was Tuesday

so I could see the doc and be outside. It is so nice outside. It is the low 70’s

with a nice breeze. I can hear the wind chimes by my sliding glass door. We have

sliding doors all over the back of the house. It is wonderful. I can open up

the room and feel the breeze. This last for an hour then I am back to the appt

thinking. I keep thinking what the doc is going to say. Like the cervix is the

same, or longer or shorter. I do not think the cervix will be longer b/c of the

funneling. I just don’t know what is going to happen. I feel fine and

that makes me feel that the appt will go o.k. however I felt fine last time and

it all went down hill in minutes. I may think it is good but then I think I don’t

know what is going on inside. This has me worried. Even if all is well, they could

go down hill next appt. just b/c one appt went well doesn’t mean all will

be good. I just wish I could get to a point were the worring

will stop. I know that if I was 34 weeks I would not worry but till then I am a

basket case.

So, how are you doing? Its just starting to get to me. I am sorry

to be dumpping it on you. I hope that that it was all

good you told your friend about me. … thank you for the nice compliment

and the prayers. We all need them.

I think about you a lot and your twins. I picture their pics from the web page and I think how beautiful. You are

very luck and I am sure that you will be pg before you know it. Maybe God will

bless you with twins again. you never know. I am glad that you are ready to ttc again. we

all must keep the hope and faith alive inside of us and to share it with

others. Our angels would want that. you take care of yourself and I will chat

with you later.

God bless,

Taryn

Hi Taryn

How are you? How are you feeling?

I know this is a particularly tough time for you

and I want you to

know that I am thinking of you often and praying

for you and your

little one.

In fact I was just talking to a friend today about

my 'e friend

Taryn' (smile).

I cannot wait to read your birth and success

story, you so deserve to

be a mummy to an earth angel as well as a heavenly

angel.

Take care and know you are in my thoughts.

Hugs

Elaine

Abdominal Cerclage placed 2 Dec 2003 – still

working up the courage

to TTC.

Matt 20 mths – emergency vag/cerl 24 wks, 11

weeks bed rest then

delivered 35 wks PROM and cord prolapse.

Paige and Amy – preventative vag/cerl 14

wks, delivered alive 20 wks,

passed away short time later wrapped in my arms.

Babies were suffering from chronic Twin-to-Twin

Transfusion Syndrome

(TTTS). Unsure whether I/C, TTTS or infection

caused contractions,

which resulted in cervix dilating and stitch to

fail.

http://www.babiesonline.com/babies/m/matty2002/

http://www.babiesonline.com/babies/p/paigeandamy/

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December 15, 2003

Kim,

The I spent the most of the day in the bed then for dinner I go to

the cough. I eat on my side then lay on back and watch t.v. till 10 or so. I started

br 9/24 when I received my ab at 12 weeks. I have been on SBR since then. I did

have two weeks were I was aloud to go out once a week for dinner. The first

night out I was 18 weeks. it was o.k. I was worried the whole time. The next

week we went to church and during the service I passed out and threw up. Nice little

trip to the ER. Everything was o.k. and I was told to stay home on MBR. This means

I could shower, sit up a little basically for dinner and I used to lay in my

chair on our dock. I usually sat in bed b/c there is nothing I can do. no l

lifting, cooking or cleaning. What else is their to do when you are not aloud

to leave the house. Our last visit he told us that we could go once a week but

we decided that it was best to go w/ SBR. My cx had shortened by 25 percent and

I had a small y funnel. My cx was 3.66 cm at 22 weeks. I will find out tomorrow

what the length is and how the funneling is. I am hoping that with the SBR the

funnel will go away.

The nurse told me to move my legs when I am laying down. I can

understand the weird feelings. I lay mostly on my back and I can feel things. I

get bad tail bone pain from that. the baby is getting bigger and the weigh does

have some thing to do with the strange feelings. I am sure that we will feel

more of these as the weeks add up. It is all new to us. We were pg once and I thought

that I would know the signs but this one is different. Every pg is different

from the others. I have never made it pass 26 weeks. so any thing or feeling

after that is all worrisome.

This weekend totally sucked. I had contractions the whole time. I did

spend a lot of time with the hd. That was nice. He crawled into bed and watched

t.v. w/ me. Today, I met jodi and her hd. They are wonderful people. That was

my day. I am just counting the hours till tomorrow. I am sure you understand. When

do you go back? How is your day going? I hope the two of you are well. What is

your day like? What do you look forward to? what are you allowed to do? do you

have a favorite soap opera? I will chat with you later.

God bless,

Taryn

Hi Taryn,

I hope all is well. I don't really know how much

water I drink but I

always have a full pitcher next to me and I love

milk too! I do get

pretty stiff, in my hips especially. I spend most

of my days on the w fferent

couch on my left side with pillows behind my back

for support. I am

really starting to notice stange feelings in my

legs sometimes when I me

walk or stand in the shower..probably from lack of

activity and

circulation.

You mentioned that your ab was placed while pg.,

mine was too. How

many weeks were you? Was that your Drs plan for

you all along? You

have been on SBR for 16 weeks so far, is that

right? As you get

further along will they lessen your restrictions?

Are you allowed to

go to the kitchen? couch? I hope you don't mind so

many questions.

Is Tues your next Dr appt? I use my Dr visits as

time markers..every

time I see my doc is another two weeks done. I

hope you are having a

nice weekend.

Take Care,

Kim

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