very discouraged

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I'm so discouraged. I saw my pcp today and I had a total meltdown. So

many health issues and this diabetes thing is something that she says

I'm trying to tackle too fast. She said it could take as much as 6 mo

to a year to get the BG down. She won't go by daily numbers regarding

meds, she says she needs to go by the A1C and I have to wait longer

to find out if that's changed or not.

the diabetes nurse told me the next step is adding in another med or

going to insulin 1x daily. My pcp says that is rushing it and that

being in a hurry to medicate or use insulin to get my numbers down is

very hard and dangerous on the pancreas and it's better to take it

very slowly and just be patient.

I'm hearing so many conflicting messages... and in the meantime I'm

dealing with so much frustration of not feeling well, not being able

to do anything... i think I am just going nuts. My pcp says i'm not

being fair to the physicians and i'm over reacting.

so.. here I sit... feeling isolated and feeling very discouraged.

Feeling like I'm just a stupid person and shouldn't get upset or

angry.

tomorrow I have an appt to see the diabetes nurse again and I'm

wondering if I should even go. she is going to tell me everything

different from what my pcp tells me.. and she's going to make me feel

somewhat human again... and I'll be back in the same boat.

I've made an appt with the endocrin. for Aug 19, but my pcp said they

won't do anything different from her.

blah blah blah

i just want to be able to stay awake and think. apparently I'm asking

way too much!

Mara