Worthy of Being Repeated At this Time!!!!!! Pls Read!!!!!

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I took the chance to go through archives and found something that I

felt would be worth repeating right now. I know that there maybe

some dealing with this issue right now. They may not know where to

turn. Please do read and go from there.This post meant something to

me. I want to also thank Kathleen for writing this and allowing me

to repost.

Tarkeshia

From: Kathleen Grigg

Date: Wed Apr 10, 2002 9:29 am

Subject: depression and chiari

Hi Friends,

A recent post touched my heart and memory (what there is of it).

Depression is so much a part of many of our lives. I always try to

put

on my smile and say " I'm fine :-) " voice. I don't like to complain

and

let others know my pain, both mental and physical.

Depression was worst for me in 1990. I found out about CM had surgery

that week, was in the hospital for 10 days, came home for 20 days,

and

was admitted for another 10 for a shunt.

When I came home, pain continued and I was told I was fine, but I was

certain I wasn't. I wasn't sleeping, roaming the house at all hours.

I

woke my husband one night and told him if I had to have any further

surgery that I would rather kill myself.

He looked at me and said " No you won't, go back to sleep " . I laugh

now,

but that was a long night.

Depression is serious. I didn't even know I was depressed! HELLO

I still go through bouts of depression, but am able to recognize it

and

jump on it early.

It was explained to me back in 1990 that our brain produces

endorphins,

a chemical that helps us deal with both physical and mental pain.

When

we use all of those endorphins up on physical pain, there aren't any

left for the physical aspect.

If you are feeling depressed, not sleeping or sleeping too much, not

eating, or attacking the cookie jar, ask for help. Go to see a

counselor, talk over you feeling with someone neutral :-)

If signs of suicide are popping up in your head, call now. There are

hot

lines that deal with this, and they will find the help you need.

I no longer think of suicide. I know my family would never be able to

understand. They have been supportive through all of this. It

frightens

me to think back to the nights that I would lie awake in bed and

plot a

way to kill myself.

Reach out for help, it is out there.

Kathleen