Need to talk......please read

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Hello all,

Well, somehow the UPS guy came to my apartment without my knowledge

for a SECOND day! I was here all day. I ordered those darn books

with 1 day shipping from amazon. I'm really annoyed!!!! Another

sticky posty note on my door!

Despite me trying to talk myself whenever I feel this way....when I

eat these days, I look at it and think " I guess I won't be eating

that anymore. " My sis in law who had the surgery 18 months ago told

me I shouldn't think like that. I can't help it. I see enough

people for therapy and all, but I am having trouble convincing myself

that I can eat some of the things I like, but down the road.....

Does anyone have any secrets on how to talk yourself out of the

premature feelings of " missing " food?

I still have swelling in my lower legs, but it didn't happen

overnight. My hands are a bit puffy still, but like I said last

night, my doctor said it wasn't significant to warrant medication. I

still have some Lasix from over the summer.....but I'm sort of afraid

to take it without anyone knowing it (doctor-wise). Although, as I

was leaving the office, he told me to " watch the salt. " I guess it

doesn't help that I put some soy sauce on my white rice and chicken

at dinner tonight. I tried to use it sparingly, but now I feel that

it's all my fault.

I found out that I can continue taking Seasonale (even after surgery)

if I use it just to keep my cycle regular. Not for birth control. I

don't have to worry about that for quite some time....it's been at

least 3 YEARS since I've had to " concern myself " with birth control

for the actual purpose of preventing pregnancy, if you know what I

mean. (Whole other issue, which I hope will

get " resolved " .......sometime after surgery.)

Still having CPAP problems. I've woken up two mornings this week

with the mask on the floor AND the machine turned off! Pulmonology

doc said to keep trying.

Another bunch of my " wishes " is to be able to get dressed and put on

my shoes without all the effort it takes me now. Walk without pain,

stand without pain.....stop taking all the darn meds I have to take

now. I still want 's secret, but it pales in comparison to

the ACTUAL reasons why I want this surgery so badly!

I know it's been asked before, but would a " veteran " on here tell me

about a good high protein, unflavored protein powder? My

nutritionist told me I should have 60 (is it mg or g?) of protein per

day. Does that sound about right to you guys?

Sorry that this post is negative. I have my ups and downs these

days. I'm so glad you guys are all here for me.

I think I'm going to watch a little TV now.

Hugs to all,

Love,

Cathy

a bit of a sad butterfly in training