Re: My new outlook on life - Ellen

[Guest guest]

Oh sweetie,

I am so sorry you have had to go through this. I am so happy to hear

you made it though - I know you are a fighter - you and I have known

each other for many years thanks to the pc - and I was so worried

when I had not seen you on in so long - I would ask Andy, and

how you were or if there was any word on you and neither of them

could tell me anything except that you were real sick (I knew that

much =)

Having been on my death bed a few times - I definetly know what you

mean about saying your goodbyes, and I love you's - but you have alot

to live for - and I KNOW you can fight this damn disease - especially

with us here pulling for you.....

Just know I love you - and we are all here for you - please keep us

especially me informed

Hugs

Deanna

> This past month has been really hard for me and my family. I have

> been in and out of the hospital for most of it. I have respatory

> failure pretty bad, and was pretty close to dieing there for

awhile.

> I said my I LOVE YOU's to my kids, thinking it was really good bye.

> (the hardest thing I have ever done). I have never been more scared

> in my life. I did realize that no matter how much pain and

suffering

> I have with this lupus,, I wand to LIVE!!!!

> I want to see my kids marry, and watch their families grow. I want

> to see my Grankids grow up to become adults with families of their

> own. But most of all I want to grow old with my wonderful husband.

I

> am now so thankfull for every new day that I wakeup to. I will no

> longer take this often painful life I have for granted. I am going

to

> make sure all those that I love hear me tell them I LOVE YOU every

> time I talk to them.

> Nolonger will I sit around feeling sorry for myself and watch life

> pass me bye. I will do all that I can to make my life all that it

can

> be with what time God graces me with. You never know when your time

> here is over, so spend every minute you have loving those around

> you,,, I know I will!!!!! Ellen M.