Sharon

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Sharon,

That was a really intense, well-worded post. No wonder all those

counselors think you're too normal for counseling! You express yourself

very well.

I can SO relate to a lot of what you said. I don't really have any words

of wisdom right at this moment, but I'll share a couple of thoughts

right off the top of my head.

1) Would you be classified as " your own worst enemy? " I've been thinking

about " self-sabotage " the last couple days. I think that MANY

chronically overweight people (including me!) would be classified as

" self-saboteurs. "

2) Do you personally celebrate your VICTORIES (and let me tell you, if

you've lost that much weight, that many times, you have a LOT of

victories!)....do you celebrate those *as much* as you beat yourself up

over your failures?

3) Would it be too hard to accept that if you aren't doing what you want

to do...then you might not WANT it as much as you say you do?

These are hard questions and I would be remiss if I didn't ask these of

myself before I ever asked them of you. These three questions represent

some of the painful realities I'm having to face on my weight loss

journey.

I won't write a novel right now, although I could! But just know that I

truly understand what you're saying. I've been at my goal weight before

and then joined WW after I gained 80 pounds. (so I understand being

haunted by the ghost of the " thin me " and looking back all the time and

feeling like a failure!)

What happened that made me gain all that weight back?

If I boiled it down to the most basic elements, I would say that I

didn't do the internal work that would help me maintain the external

work.

But I'm ready to do the internal work now. It sounds like you are too.

(((((hugs))))))

in CO