day two, no smoking

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So far, so good.

I almost blew it when I was talking to my pain dr today. He told me

I was trying to do too many things at once. I have an " all or

nothing " personality.

Well, that's true, and I sat there thinking, " OK, I'll just go get a

pack and smoke until I'm completely off the methadone " .

But, on leaving the dr, I thought - " If I smoke now, I'll get all

dizzy and then get mad at myself. And I need to do things when the

urge hits me, or I won't do it. If I smoke now and wait till later,

I don't know when the urge will hit me again. It could be years! "

So I popped some nicotine gum, and went off to get my yearly

mamogram.

Hooray for me! Lame for doctor!

That has been my weakest moment.

This nicotine gum works good. At least for me.

I actually went to put on a pair of jeans this morning that I had

worn 2 days ago. EEEWWW! They stunk! So, already, I'm getting my

sense of smell back. Weird.

My kids are cooperating pretty well with me. They aren't pushing

any buttons so far. They really want me to stop smoking, so they

are being pretty darn good, thank goodness. I think that will be

the biggest help in my stopping. If they behave, and don't get into

any yelling matches, I should be able to get through this.

I don't know, but I feel like my hot flashes are more often today.

So, I gotta go take another shower.

It really is a good thing for me to be posting this. Very

theraputic.

I'm trying to remember that web site that tells you what happens to

your body when you stop smoking. It says what happens after 5

minutes, after an hour, after a day, and so on. Anyone know about

that?

Almost 30 hours now without a cig. I'm feeling pretty good.

I've used 12 pieces of gum.

Do you think that when you detox, all those poisons come out through

your skin? I heard that happens when people are on a major diet. I

think that must be true when you stop smoking too. It's either

that, or these damn hot flashes!

As soon as I detox, I'm gonna find some herbs for menopause. I hear

from many women they really help.

Lord know, I need a lot of help!!!!

I gotta go take another shower!!!

Hugs,