to mandy

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Hi mandy,

I am chippy. Are you on a anti depressant? I am...it works too...

I understand how you feel about being lonely. My husband is gone every

weekend either to the camp or he spends the entire weekend with his

buddy at his house...they cook and stuff....I went to the camp today for

seafood and my hip was really hurting me...he wanted me to go look at a

dumb ice chest with fish they had caught...I had trouble moving so what

did he do....he came and swatted me on the hip...he does not understand

the pain....he does not understand why I am so tired and need to be in

bed by seven pm...he does not understand anything...He thinks things are

fine and dandy...I am lonely too but at the same time he gets on my last

nerve when he is around...he does things on purpose to get a rise out of

me..and that is not good for me...so I understand how you feel sometimes

about being lonely...we need support and sometimes, and in my case all

the time, we get little or none at all...And him coming to the doc with

me is not an option...Hell I went thru 54 tests and a kidney biopsy and

he did not come...he had to go to work...that job...go figure....can we

say neglect here...

I have also thought of how it would be good for my family not to worry

about me,,,how it would be if i were not around...my kids do worry about

me..but I never want to be a burden....but then I realize...God does not

give one more than they can handle...and that there are always those

worse off than I am in the world...

I do suggest if you are not on an anti depressant, you ask your doc for

one...It has made all the difference in the world to me....I am trying

to adapt to lupies...and to continue to work...but sometimes it is just

plain hard you know...

Feel free to email me privately on in this group anytime you like

mandy...we are here for you...that is what support means....here you get

support...at home, I get none...

I hope you are feeling a little better today. Know that we

care...chippy