Re: CHECKING IN...>>>to: Billie

[Guest guest]

We may have... I used to use the screen name XanthianKat or

Xanthkat... problem was, I couldn't use it on all my messengers and

email, since it was taken in some, so I went back to a name I've used

on all for a while. It makes it easier to find me, especially for my kids.

Well, am currently living in sunny Madeira Beach, longing for Indian

Rocks Beach, which I liked much better. Just got back from about 6

months in Buffalo New York, where I could live cheaper while waiting

for the government to get it's thumb out of it's butt and start

sending me some social secutity money. After a couple monthes I

started worrying I'd be old and wrinkled by then, so I came back here.

I've actually been with the group about a year, but sold my computer

when I got to Buffalo so I could pay the rent. After about 20 years of

hearing I have this and that, the docs finally decided I MIGHT have

Lupus, well, with the positive ANA and sed rate and DNA testing and so

on and so forth, the docs in Buffalo say they aren't sure, because

they've never seen the malar rash (although I have photos going back

20 years of it!), and the docs down here say that's a pretty niave way

to diagnose Lupus anyway...

I have 4 kids... the older two are off on their own. My daughter is

finishing a degree in Marine Biology in San Fran, and flies out with

her " significant other " (a great guy, she has taste!) when she can. My

son is in Buffalo, and seems to have disappeared for some reason, but

he may be in a hospital and unable to contact me, or has gotten his

own place and hasn't been online. He's a schizophrenic, so it's hard

sometimes...

My younger two are twins, and are going through a stage right now

where they are as annoyed as can be that moomy doesn't feel well, and

that mommy doesn't get up easily in the morning, and that mommy

doesn't run and play anymore. They nag me constantly to get a job and

do things with them, which only makes me feel worse. Because they are

both mildly disabled (Tay is high functioning autistic and Cay is a

little... I guess " slower " would be the word) they really don't seem

to understand in their little hearts what their minds know, that mommy

just isnt well enough to do those things.

Of course if I had my way I'd slather on my level 45 sunscreen and sit

at the edge of the Gulf all day (which is what I used to do in Indian

Rocks, but the beach-goers here in Madeira are a bit too rowdy for the

likes of me!) and read multi-cultural contemporary American novels.

((HUGS right back!))

~Kate

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> Hi kate!! I am from FL too. I'm sorry but have we met before? I sure

hope I have not missed another newbie!! I have heard of barnum and

barnum..if I am spelling that right. Write and tell me about

yourself!! ((((((((hug))))