Re: Peg - Coping with inactivity

[Guest guest]

I am an RN. I have a " desk job " . I could not do bedside nursing right now.

I hurt too much to not take narcotics and could not take the risk of harming

someone due to my lack of memory, poor concentration, etc. I am applying for

a Medical Retirement. I am so resentful. I wanted to do thirty years and be

ran off with a broom. There is a cycle to describe how you grieve - except

it downplays the anger. I can never accept fibro. I hate " it " for what it

has done to me, to me at work and at home. It is slowly stealing everything

I ever worked for or dreamed of. I pray nightly to be relieved of this

burden - through a miracle of healing or death. No, I am not suicidal and I

do not need counseling. There will never be an acceptance of this disease

until I cross over Jordan. I can learn to live with it and manage it. But I

will always hate it. It has stolen my career and my family and my church and

most joy. I am so rarely me these days - only for a few fleeting seconds a

day or even sometimes a whole week. I am praying for my early retirement -

as I do not know how I can function anymore at work. Sorry I am so blue

tonight. I am in pain. Pray for me if you can.

Mel

[Guest guest]

Hi ,

I use to be on the pc all the time at work, cant type to long. I remeber when I

was little one of the neighbors used to have greatdanes. My sister and I thought

they were horses lol! They use to let us ride them. We were so small and they

were gigantic! You must have alot of space.Do you train other dogs as well? That

takes alot of time and patience. I trained our dog the basics of sit, down,

stay, drop it. The very basics. I love animals, have a zoo here too. Only one

dog, rotweiller my fiance and I rescued from the MSPCA. She's my baby 2years old

and sooooo sweet, a big baby. Not a vicious bone in her body, the cat is the

dominate one in this house! LOL. Have a few parrots as well. When my children

are grown I'll have my other babies to keep me occupied.

Trying to re-evaluate carrer choices. I don't think I'll be able to return to

Ins. Co. and work full time on PC.Can only type for 1/2 an hour at a time then

spasms worsen. I was planning to begin nursing school in August but will have to

find another career. I would never be able to lift any patients or start IV's

with shaky hands.(when I can feel them) Someone posted they work in the medical

field and had a hard time with the physical aspect of it. It was something I had

wanted to do and put off because my children were young and one had medical

problems that required frequent hospitalizations. I have such a variety of

interests, it took that long to pin point what I wanted to major in. I figured

by the time my children were in their twenties, I would be in my early forties

and could focus on my carrer. I wanted to work in Hospice care. Taught

pre-school for a long time. I was starting to get burn out so I found other

employment before it was too late. I made a promise to myself that I would leave

before I became a teacher who disliked teaching. I just realized that I'm

rambling. Will end here. Hope your well. Peg

shue@... wrote: Peg,

I am on the computer a lot. I suppose that helps. I work a lot on my Genealogy

while online. I read quite a bit too. Also I have 5 Great Danes which definitely

keep me busy a lot. My youngest is 6 months old now and I have been working with

him on Obedience training. My others are all older....5 years and up.

in KS

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we are spiritual beings having a human experience.

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In a message dated 3/9/2002 6:38:42 PM Pacific Standard Time, shue@...

writes:

> Peg,

> I am on the computer a lot. I suppose that helps. I work a lot on my

> Genealogy while online. I read quite a bit too. Also I have 5 Great Danes

> which definitely keep me busy a lot. My youngest is 6 months old now and I

> have been working with him on Obedience training. My others are all

> older....5 years and up.

>

> in KS

>

I do genealogy too. It helps to give me something I can concentrate on now

that I don't work anymore. It's one of the few things I have that makes me

feel like I'm doing something constructive

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 3/9/2002 6:38:42 PM Pacific Standard Time, shue@...

writes:

> Peg,

> I am on the computer a lot. I suppose that helps. I work a lot on my

> Genealogy while online. I read quite a bit too. Also I have 5 Great Danes

> which definitely keep me busy a lot. My youngest is 6 months old now and I

> have been working with him on Obedience training. My others are all

> older....5 years and up.

>

> in KS

>

I do genealogy too. It helps to give me something I can concentrate on now

that I don't work anymore. It's one of the few things I have that makes me

feel like I'm doing something constructive

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 3/9/2002 6:38:42 PM Pacific Standard Time, shue@...

writes:

> Peg,

> I am on the computer a lot. I suppose that helps. I work a lot on my

> Genealogy while online. I read quite a bit too. Also I have 5 Great Danes

> which definitely keep me busy a lot. My youngest is 6 months old now and I

> have been working with him on Obedience training. My others are all

> older....5 years and up.

>

> in KS

>

I do genealogy too. It helps to give me something I can concentrate on now

that I don't work anymore. It's one of the few things I have that makes me

feel like I'm doing something constructive

[Guest guest]

Dear Mel,

I will definitely pray for you. That's how I feel in a nut shell. Much Love Peg

BugGal1989@... wrote: I am an RN. I have a " desk job " . I could not do

bedside nursing right now.

I hurt too much to not take narcotics and could not take the risk of harming

someone due to my lack of memory, poor concentration, etc. I am applying for

a Medical Retirement. I am so resentful. I wanted to do thirty years and be

ran off with a broom. There is a cycle to describe how you grieve - except

it downplays the anger. I can never accept fibro. I hate " it " for what it

has done to me, to me at work and at home. It is slowly stealing everything

I ever worked for or dreamed of. I pray nightly to be relieved of this

burden - through a miracle of healing or death. No, I am not suicidal and I

do not need counseling. There will never be an acceptance of this disease

until I cross over Jordan. I can learn to live with it and manage it. But I

will always hate it. It has stolen my career and my family and my church and

most joy. I am so rarely me these days - only for a few fleeting seconds a

day or even sometimes a whole week. I am praying for my early retirement -

as I do not know how I can function anymore at work. Sorry I am so blue

tonight. I am in pain. Pray for me if you can.

Mel

[Guest guest]

I too am a RN who sits behind a desk all day because I

cannot do bedside Nursing. Sometimes though I think

the sitting all day is just as bad. But I can't stand

on my feet for more than an hour and my left leg gets

so weak and aches so bad that there is no way I could

walk up and down halls like I used to. I can no

longer give mantouxs to new employees or do anything

with needles because my hands shake so bad. I am only

29 and feel like I may as well retire but my husband

would never let me hear the end of it.

Ann Banks

>

>

> I hurt too much to not take narcotics and could not

> take the risk of harming

> someone due to my lack of memory, poor

> concentration, etc. I am applying for

> a Medical Retirement. I am so resentful. I wanted

> to do thirty years and be

> ran off with a broom. There is a cycle to describe

> how you grieve - except

> it downplays the anger. I can never accept fibro.

> I hate " it " for what it

> has done to me, to me at work and at home. It is

> slowly stealing everything

> I ever worked for or dreamed of. I pray nightly to

> be relieved of this

> burden - through a miracle of healing or death. No,

> I am not suicidal and I

> do not need counseling. There will never be an

> acceptance of this disease

> until I cross over Jordan. I can learn to live with

> it and manage it. But I

> will always hate it. It has stolen my career and my

> family and my church and

> most joy. I am so rarely me these days - only for a

> few fleeting seconds a

> day or even sometimes a whole week. I am praying

> for my early retirement -

> as I do not know how I can function anymore at work.

> Sorry I am so blue

> tonight. I am in pain. Pray for me if you can.

> Mel

>

>

[Guest guest]

I too am a RN who sits behind a desk all day because I

cannot do bedside Nursing. Sometimes though I think

the sitting all day is just as bad. But I can't stand

on my feet for more than an hour and my left leg gets

so weak and aches so bad that there is no way I could

walk up and down halls like I used to. I can no

longer give mantouxs to new employees or do anything

with needles because my hands shake so bad. I am only

29 and feel like I may as well retire but my husband

would never let me hear the end of it.

Ann Banks

>

>

> I hurt too much to not take narcotics and could not

> take the risk of harming

> someone due to my lack of memory, poor

> concentration, etc. I am applying for

> a Medical Retirement. I am so resentful. I wanted

> to do thirty years and be

> ran off with a broom. There is a cycle to describe

> how you grieve - except

> it downplays the anger. I can never accept fibro.

> I hate " it " for what it

> has done to me, to me at work and at home. It is

> slowly stealing everything

> I ever worked for or dreamed of. I pray nightly to

> be relieved of this

> burden - through a miracle of healing or death. No,

> I am not suicidal and I

> do not need counseling. There will never be an

> acceptance of this disease

> until I cross over Jordan. I can learn to live with

> it and manage it. But I

> will always hate it. It has stolen my career and my

> family and my church and

> most joy. I am so rarely me these days - only for a

> few fleeting seconds a

> day or even sometimes a whole week. I am praying

> for my early retirement -

> as I do not know how I can function anymore at work.

> Sorry I am so blue

> tonight. I am in pain. Pray for me if you can.

> Mel

>

>

[Guest guest]

Dear Mel,

I am positive we all here can understand your pain--both phyical and

mental. I have wasted so many hours hating my decline; I burned the

candle at both ends and still had energy left over. And like you, I

believed my life to not be worth living at times too; but, I do

better now that I force activity out of me, ie: I join the church

choir and started walking & talking w/ my daughter. I have also gone

to the nursing home to visit with anyone whom wants to; I think this

has helped me alot in acceptance of my condition, thanks that I

wasn't in the nursing home, and the will to better myself to my

fullest ability.

Dearest Mel, you are in my prayers. Dear friend, can you try to be as

gentle to yourself as you are with others? Aren't we all~~LOL !!

LOVE & LIGHT,

[Guest guest]

Dear Mel,

I am positive we all here can understand your pain--both phyical and

mental. I have wasted so many hours hating my decline; I burned the

candle at both ends and still had energy left over. And like you, I

believed my life to not be worth living at times too; but, I do

better now that I force activity out of me, ie: I join the church

choir and started walking & talking w/ my daughter. I have also gone

to the nursing home to visit with anyone whom wants to; I think this

has helped me alot in acceptance of my condition, thanks that I

wasn't in the nursing home, and the will to better myself to my

fullest ability.

Dearest Mel, you are in my prayers. Dear friend, can you try to be as

gentle to yourself as you are with others? Aren't we all~~LOL !!

LOVE & LIGHT,