Re: courage/ reason

[Guest guest]

Amy you asked about courage to have the surgery and it

took none. I was dieing. I had to have some type of

surgery or I would have bled to death. Ichose to go

for the myo. I fought tooth and nail for it. But

something went wrong. If you have been here a while

you know my story. Today is day fifteen post MYO #2

this year. You asked what you would do if things went

wrong you would do what I did and cry a bit, rage a

lot and start over.

You say you have few symptoms but want your body back.

I have a scar across my abdomen that is so there. If

you are looking for a perfect body ...it won't be.

There will be scars If you are too afraid of pain

this is not the easy path...the honest truth is it

hurts to have yourself cut open. But if I had to pay

these costs to get my chance and my freedom from

transfusions then you know my choice. I have had no

time to forget the pain from the first myo but I did

it again. I am 15 days post myo still bleeding and

still praying. I am off the Lupron and the Megace

(for more than five days) and am not standing in a

pool of my own blood. So it isn't courage you need

but a reason strong enough to drive you.

I hope you find what you need.

e