Small NSV (and a thank you)

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A small one, and I feel kind of weird about it.

I've mentioned before on this list that my wife has pretty much given up

on losing weight. She still works out regularly at Curves, and her eating

habits are mostly okay, but it's still hard for me to insist on having

something healthy for dinner when she's in the mood for, say, pizza.

So. We went to a potluck dinner at our church last night, and my wife had

made a vegetarian lasagna (made with whole wheat noodles, because that's

what I bought when she asked me to buy noodles) and sugar cookies -- not

just any sugar cookies, but big, thick, honkin' sugar cookies, the kind

that weigh about eight pounds each and could probably serve as an entire

meal in themselves. After dinner -- salad and the vegetarian lasagna and

bread rolls -- the adults and children sat around and used thick egg-based

colored frosting to paint these cookies. Of course, most everyone gorged

on the cookies as they were being painted; the first part of my NSV was

that I refrained from eating any of the cookies at all.

The second part was this morning. My wife had set out breakfast for us:

four of these really thick cookies for each of us, along with a container

of chocolate frosting. I admit that I was really tempted, but in the end

I thanked her, then apologized as I put my cookies back in the tin and

went into the kitchen to get myself a vegetarian bratwurst (from Boca, 3

points) and a banana to replace the cookies. My wife ate her cookies with

chocolate frosting. The rest of the cookies have been taken to our

different offices, so they won't be around the house anymore.

I don't believe for a moment that my wife is trying to sabotage my weight

loss efforts. Rather, I think that because she doesn't take her own

weight loss very seriously and because she really likes these cookies, she

probably just figured she'd share a yummy treat with me for breakfast.

She didn't seem heartbroken that I chose not to have the cookies with her.

That's why I feel kind of weird about this.

And " Thanks " to everyone who responded to my earlier post entitled " *Sigh*

the struggle continues " . I really appreciate the support and kind

thoughts. Tory, your comments in particular really made me feel better.

Right now, I'm working on doing this one step at a time, concentrating on

eating Core foods, counting points when I need to, but mostly just trying

to stay focused on single days as they come and go. I find that, right

now, it's easier to say, " I won't eat bad foods today " rather than " I

won't eat any bad foods at all this week " . Let tomorrow worry about

tomorrow.

Thanks again, all.

--

Sláinte,

S. Crawford (AIM: Buffalo2K)

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