finding the will

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everyone,

I introduced myself a while back and faded into oblivion, don't know

if any of you remember me. I've still been lurking, but wasn't

following the program so didn't feel I should be posting. Well

anyway - I am so impressed with everyone here, and feel I should turn

to you to see how you do this day in and day out - how do you fight

the hunger, the temptations, the day to day challenges and stay on

program? I struggle each minute of everyday that I try to stay on

program, does it get easier? How to you dig deep into yourself and

get the will it takes to just say I'm doing this no matter what!?

I just can't seem to find the will, and each day I wake up saying

today is the day and by lunchtime, I've blown it. I REALLY want to

lose weight, I HAVE to lose weight, I'm obese, overweight by 100 lbs,

I must do something about it, why then, am I blowing it everytime I

try?

I'm not whining, I'm just trying to understand how you all are so

good all the time and I'm such a loser (and not in the right sense as

in losing pounds!). I truly want to change my eating habits and

activity level.

Any help or insight you can give me to get that boost I need to " just

do it " would be greatly appreciated.

Kelli in MN