Re: second thoughts

February 23, 2003

In a message dated 2/23/2003 9:05:35 AM Eastern Standard Time,

winnie_poohtiger2@... writes:

> I guess i " m getting scared. I've been wondering if

> I'm making the right decion. But deep down I know

> that I am. I want to be able to live long and have a

> happy and healthy life and in a way say what do you

> think of me now now to the people that picked on me

> that's always a added bonus. I think about being out

> of breath going up 2 flights of stairs and having

> joint problems on my knees at 25 and knowing that this

> is not right for someone my age. Looking in the

> mirror and not liking what I see an wondering how

> could my husband marry someone like me. I've always

> been heavy and it never bothered my till know. Has

> anyone ever had these feelings or am I alone? What do

> I have to look forward to the days after my surgery?

> What should I not do after? What I should I do more

> of now before the surergy? Please help.

NO, you are not alone! I think we all have had some of these feelings in our

life. It's part of being fat! My first reason for getting this surgery is my

diabetes and my sleep apnea. I want so desperately not to have to use insulin

and my CPAP machine anymore. Especially the CPAP machine! (try being single

and explaining a CPAP machine to a new boyfriend! I usually just don't tell

them and hide it)Am I going to mind the bonus of finally having a smaller

body? No way! <smiles> I know my self esteem has suffered being overweight.

How can it not in this society that embraces thinness as being desirable and

sexy? I have been at night clubs and had men " Moo " at me. I was seriously

involved with a guy who implied I was too big to have sex with. (Thank God

that relationship is over!) Right now, my esteem is not good!

I am trying to lose a little weight before the surgery because my

Surgeon would like me to, and, I don't want to eat out of control before my

surgery in May and have even MORE to lose! I have been eating low carb. It

works for me. I eat lots of green veggies and plenty of protein and fat. It's

very easy to understand how people can really pack on weight before the

surgery, knowing how they wont be able to eat so many things after. How can I

pass up that Ben and Jerry's pint? <evil grin> I know this surgery is one of

the toughest things I will ever do. But, I feel like it's my only chance for

keeping this weight off. I am tired of losing weight and gaining it back.

People can't understand how I could lose 100 pounds and gain it all back.

Heck, I can't understand how I did it! I want to cry when I look at my size

16 jeans that fit perfectly less than 2 years ago. I am desperately afraid

that I will gain it all back even after surgery.

What I am basically trying to say, is that we all have these feelings of

second thoughts and fears. It's normal I think. Hang in there.

Dawn from Boston area

Surgery scheduled 5/29/03

304 lbs (woohoo I lost 9 lbs)

February 23, 2003

its worth it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i had major problems after my surgery and i

still would have the surgery again in a heartbeat. I feel wonderful! no more

out of breath!

February 23, 2003

Kim - It's totally normal to have second thoughts especially since you are so

young. But your weight probably makes you feel more like 40 than 25, right? It

won't get any easier carrying around the weight when you get older, only worse,

with more comorbidities creeping in. I know you know that, it is just normal

pre-op fears. Now, let's see if I can answer your questions -

Has anyone ever had these feelings or am I alone?

*****definitely not alone, we've all had the feelings

What do I have to look forward to the days after my surgery?

*****You may be in a lot of pain and feel like you made a mistake, but it will

pass, and you will learn how to live with your new little pouch

What should I not do after?

*****Don't eat sugar or milk, don't take big bites and not chew them enough,

don't sit around thinking this was the worst mistake of your life.

What I should I do more of now before the surergy?

******Start exercising to build up your strength. Start drinking lots of

water and start drinking protein drinks. Building up your protein reserves will

actually make your tissues easier to cut into for the surgeon. And your

recovery will be quicker.

Jeanne in WI

Age 39

Open RNY - 5/21/02

Dr. Chua

5'7 " - 314/218/150-175

February 23, 2003

Hey, Dawn! Hang on to those size 16s because you're going

there again! Good luck, girl!

Sharon in D.C.

Re: second thoughts

In a message dated 2/23/2003 9:05:35 AM Eastern Standard

Time,

winnie_poohtiger2@... writes:

> I guess i " m getting scared. I've been wondering if

> I'm making the right decion. But deep down I know

> that I am. I want to be able to live long and have a

> happy and healthy life and in a way say what do you

> think of me now now to the people that picked on me

> that's always a added bonus. I think about being out

> of breath going up 2 flights of stairs and having

> joint problems on my knees at 25 and knowing that this

> is not right for someone my age. Looking in the

> mirror and not liking what I see an wondering how

> could my husband marry someone like me. I've always

> been heavy and it never bothered my till know. Has

> anyone ever had these feelings or am I alone? What do

> I have to look forward to the days after my surgery?

> What should I not do after? What I should I do more

> of now before the surergy? Please help.

NO, you are not alone! I think we all have had some of these

feelings in our

life. It's part of being fat! My first reason for getting

this surgery is my

diabetes and my sleep apnea. I want so desperately not to

have to use insulin

and my CPAP machine anymore. Especially the CPAP machine!

(try being single

and explaining a CPAP machine to a new boyfriend! I usually

just don't tell

them and hide it)Am I going to mind the bonus of finally

having a smaller

body? No way! <smiles> I know my self esteem has suffered

being overweight.

How can it not in this society that embraces thinness as

being desirable and

sexy? I have been at night clubs and had men " Moo " at me. I

was seriously

involved with a guy who implied I was too big to have sex

with. (Thank God

that relationship is over!) Right now, my esteem is not

good!

I am trying to lose a little weight before the surgery

because my

Surgeon would like me to, and, I don't want to eat out of

control before my

surgery in May and have even MORE to lose! I have been

eating low carb. It

works for me. I eat lots of green veggies and plenty of

protein and fat. It's

very easy to understand how people can really pack on weight

before the

surgery, knowing how they wont be able to eat so many things

after. How can I

pass up that Ben and Jerry's pint? <evil grin> I know this

surgery is one of

the toughest things I will ever do. But, I feel like it's my

only chance for

keeping this weight off. I am tired of losing weight and

gaining it back.

People can't understand how I could lose 100 pounds and gain

it all back.

Heck, I can't understand how I did it! I want to cry when I

look at my size

16 jeans that fit perfectly less than 2 years ago. I am

desperately afraid

that I will gain it all back even after surgery.

What I am basically trying to say, is that we all have

these feelings of

second thoughts and fears. It's normal I think. Hang in

there.

Dawn from Boston area

Surgery scheduled 5/29/03

304 lbs (woohoo I lost 9 lbs)

February 25, 2003

Dear ,

::Big Hugs:: We've all been where you are right now. WLS is not an

" easy " choice. It's a tool and a darn good tool, if I say so myself!!

I've lost 90+ pounds and I feel absolutely terrific most of the time.

I'm in a size 22 (down from a size 30/32) and wearing jeans with a button and

a zipper for the first time in seven years!!

My DH and I have always had a ::blush:: healthy sex life but now it's

a whole lot easier, if you know what I mean. I know I'll never had the

body of a 20 year old (or the stomach for that matter) but each pound I lose

brings me closer to my goal and reduces the amount of excess weight I am

carrying around.

Take good care, read up on the surgery and God bless you richly!

Love,

Trace in Va. Beach, VA

Dr. Schechner, Va. Beach, VA

Open RNY -- 9/5/02

Height -- 5' 9 1/2 "

Starting weight -- 351.2

Current weight -- 255

Minus -- 96.2 pounds gone!

Gal. 2:20

February 25, 2003

Dear ,

::Big Hugs:: We've all been where you are right now. WLS is not an

" easy " choice. It's a tool and a darn good tool, if I say so myself!!

I've lost 90+ pounds and I feel absolutely terrific most of the time.

I'm in a size 22 (down from a size 30/32) and wearing jeans with a button and

a zipper for the first time in seven years!!

My DH and I have always had a ::blush:: healthy sex life but now it's

a whole lot easier, if you know what I mean. I know I'll never had the

body of a 20 year old (or the stomach for that matter) but each pound I lose

brings me closer to my goal and reduces the amount of excess weight I am

carrying around.

Take good care, read up on the surgery and God bless you richly!

Love,

Trace in Va. Beach, VA

Dr. Schechner, Va. Beach, VA

Open RNY -- 9/5/02

Height -- 5' 9 1/2 "

Starting weight -- 351.2

Current weight -- 255

Minus -- 96.2 pounds gone!

Gal. 2:20

February 25, 2003

Dear ,

::Big Hugs:: We've all been where you are right now. WLS is not an

" easy " choice. It's a tool and a darn good tool, if I say so myself!!

I've lost 90+ pounds and I feel absolutely terrific most of the time.

I'm in a size 22 (down from a size 30/32) and wearing jeans with a button and

a zipper for the first time in seven years!!

My DH and I have always had a ::blush:: healthy sex life but now it's

a whole lot easier, if you know what I mean. I know I'll never had the

body of a 20 year old (or the stomach for that matter) but each pound I lose

brings me closer to my goal and reduces the amount of excess weight I am

carrying around.

Take good care, read up on the surgery and God bless you richly!

Love,

Trace in Va. Beach, VA

Dr. Schechner, Va. Beach, VA

Open RNY -- 9/5/02

Height -- 5' 9 1/2 "

Starting weight -- 351.2

Current weight -- 255

Minus -- 96.2 pounds gone!

Gal. 2:20

December 22, 2004

In a message dated 12/22/2004 6:31:12 AM Eastern Standard Time,

bcmc@... writes:

> .But I can't get rid of the ringing ear part

from reading the thyroid forums, this does seem to be a hard symptom to get

rid of. somebody speculated they might have had permanent ear damage from the

hypo that was causing it. I will get the ringing occassionally but not enough

to cause me distress.

Cindi

December 22, 2004

In a message dated 12/22/2004 6:31:12 AM Eastern Standard Time,

bcmc@... writes:

> .Iam wondering if I am not giving

> things a chance with the thyroid meds and I am still low or one who may

> not able to take the meds.I am anxious about all this and wondering if I

> should continue on or throw the towel in and say I tried.........

I didn't see anything in your post that was so major as to give up on the

thyroid meds. What is the major thing bothering you about it?

cindi

December 22, 2004

In a message dated 12/22/2004 6:31:12 AM Eastern Standard Time,

bcmc@... writes:

> .Iam wondering if I am not giving

> things a chance with the thyroid meds and I am still low or one who may

> not able to take the meds.I am anxious about all this and wondering if I

> should continue on or throw the towel in and say I tried.........

I didn't see anything in your post that was so major as to give up on the

thyroid meds. What is the major thing bothering you about it?

cindi

December 22, 2004

In a message dated 12/22/2004 6:31:12 AM Eastern Standard Time,

bcmc@... writes:

> .I

> have small swollen lyphmnode glands under my chin.They became swollen

> and sore almost 3 months ago and they are only pea size now and

i get the sore or swollen lymph nodes occassionally...i assume it has to do

with antibody flares perhaps.

cindi

December 22, 2004

In a message dated 12/22/2004 6:31:12 AM Eastern Standard Time,

bcmc@... writes:

> .I

> have small swollen lyphmnode glands under my chin.They became swollen

> and sore almost 3 months ago and they are only pea size now and

i get the sore or swollen lymph nodes occassionally...i assume it has to do

with antibody flares perhaps.

cindi

December 22, 2004

In a message dated 12/22/2004 8:39:47 AM Eastern Standard Time,

bcmc@... writes:

> My thyroid is no longer functioning at all..Betty

>

geez...you're only on a grain and 1/2? Full replacement is around 4 1/2

grains.

cindi

December 22, 2004

In a message dated 12/22/2004 8:39:47 AM Eastern Standard Time,

bcmc@... writes:

> My thyroid is no longer functioning at all..Betty

>

geez...you're only on a grain and 1/2? Full replacement is around 4 1/2

grains.

cindi

December 22, 2004

The ringing ear part is really getting to me,swollen glands will

not go away is making me anxious.......

nc2406@... wrote:

> In a message dated 12/22/2004 6:31:12 AM Eastern Standard Time,

> bcmc@... writes:

>

> > .Iam wondering if I am not giving

> > things a chance with the thyroid meds and I am still low or one who may

> > not able to take the meds.I am anxious about all this and wondering

> if I

> > should continue on or throw the towel in and say I tried.........

>

> I didn't see anything in your post that was so major as to give up on the

> thyroid meds. What is the major thing bothering you about it?

> cindi

>

December 22, 2004

The ringing ear part is really getting to me,swollen glands will

not go away is making me anxious.......

nc2406@... wrote:

> In a message dated 12/22/2004 6:31:12 AM Eastern Standard Time,

> bcmc@... writes:

>

> > .Iam wondering if I am not giving

> > things a chance with the thyroid meds and I am still low or one who may

> > not able to take the meds.I am anxious about all this and wondering

> if I

> > should continue on or throw the towel in and say I tried.........

>

> I didn't see anything in your post that was so major as to give up on the

> thyroid meds. What is the major thing bothering you about it?

> cindi

>

December 27, 2004

Betty,

I have one swollen lypth node on my neck...near the ear lob. I have had it

there for over 8 years and each doctor I have visited for fun...I ask them

to check it to see what they will say. Everyone of them has said it's due

to allergies and it's my body reacting. They all have said it's not big

deal just leave it alone. I had one doc say that he would look at it by

opening it up in his office but, I fired him before we got to that and no

others have offered. I know this doesn't help but, I've always been curious

about it and wished someone would tell me why it stays swollen and hard like

it does...so far no doc has been that interested

LaCretia

>

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>

> Had them checked out in Oct. and doctor felt at that time they

>were viral.Then I found out I was really hypo in later Nov.so then I

>felt I could not get them to go down due to being sooo low.Just a very

>worried person here...Betty

>

>Valarie wrote:

>

> > Have you had the swollen glands checked out? What does your doc say?

> > While

> > they are probably not serious, I think they should be checked.

> >

> > Val

> >

> > The ringing ear part is really getting to me,swollen glands will

> > not go away is making me anxious.......

> >

> > *

December 27, 2004