Guest guest Posted May 19, 2005 Report Share Posted May 19, 2005 Ingrid, I just came in to give the messages a quick look/see and saw yours. Please, please try to live in the present. You don't gain anything by worrying about the future. You do lose the present day and if it is a good one, why do that. Give the good days to yourself and your family. Karima Re: Janet, cycle # 12 The sad thing is I never thought about death before. Now, I have been thinking about it. Yes, it scares me to die and leave my son and husband. So much I need to finsih yet. Am Praying that this cancer does not come back!!!! Ingrid > > In a message dated 5/17/2005 9:42:54 A.M. Eastern Daylight Time, > > lwg_art@y... writes: > > > > Well we are off to the oncologist this morning after we drop > Lizzie > > off at school. It usually takes about three to four hours for > Janet to > > get her vitals taken and then blood work and the doctor visits > > afterwards. Cook County Hospital is not fast. Since she wasn't > able to > > do much on her birthday because of the last infusion I think I > will > > take her out afterwards. > > We probably won't know until after 5 PM if everything is okay for > her > > to finish up round number twelve. > > Worked on a few question for the doctor last night, making our > list > > and checking it twice.....Always ask questions. > > I will drop you all a line later.... > > Peace, > > > > > > > > Larry...I firmly believe none of them are fast. It always takes > over an > > hour to get blood results for Glenn back and then another hour for > chemo to be > > mixed, etc. > > > > I won't say...Have a great day, b/c waiting around at the hospital > is not my > > idea of having a " great " day, but Have a great " being together " > day....you > > and Janet!! Make it count...and taking her out would be special... > > > > Donelle > > Caregiver to Glenn > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 19, 2005 Report Share Posted May 19, 2005 Thank YOU!! I try to do that. Most days I can. But... then there are times that I worry about it. It does not happen often, but I try to not think of the what if's..... It is just that I want to see my son grow up and things like that. I am thankful that my cancer was taken care of. And that I was able to tolerate the chemo. I do want to be strong. But then I think it is only human not to fear this thing. It is a foe I must fight. Thank YOU for your advice. Ingrid > > > In a message dated 5/17/2005 9:42:54 A.M. Eastern Daylight Time, > > > lwg_art@y... writes: > > > > > > Well we are off to the oncologist this morning after we drop > > Lizzie > > > off at school. It usually takes about three to four hours for > > Janet to > > > get her vitals taken and then blood work and the doctor visits > > > afterwards. Cook County Hospital is not fast. Since she wasn't > > able to > > > do much on her birthday because of the last infusion I think I > > will > > > take her out afterwards. > > > We probably won't know until after 5 PM if everything is okay for > > her > > > to finish up round number twelve. > > > Worked on a few question for the doctor last night, making our > > list > > > and checking it twice.....Always ask questions. > > > I will drop you all a line later.... > > > Peace, > > > > > > > > > > > > Larry...I firmly believe none of them are fast. It always takes > > over an > > > hour to get blood results for Glenn back and then another hour > for > > chemo to be > > > mixed, etc. > > > > > > I won't say...Have a great day, b/c waiting around at the > hospital > > is not my > > > idea of having a " great " day, but Have a great " being together " > > day....you > > > and Janet!! Make it count...and taking her out would be special... > > > > > > Donelle > > > Caregiver to Glenn > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 19, 2005 Report Share Posted May 19, 2005 That must be hell thinking of that Ingrid. I feel for you. My dad died from leukemia when he was 36, there were 6 of us kids aged 2 to 17. After I had my son I imagined how he felt having to leave all of us, it must have been horrible. ~~Dianna Ingrid Lowe lowenco@...> wrote:The sad thing is I never thought about death before. Now, I have been thinking about it. Yes, it scares me to die and leave my son and husband. So much I need to finsih yet. Am Praying that this cancer does not come back!!!! Ingrid > > In a message dated 5/17/2005 9:42:54 A.M. Eastern Daylight Time, > > lwg_art@y... writes: > > > > Well we are off to the oncologist this morning after we drop > Lizzie > > off at school. It usually takes about three to four hours for > Janet to > > get her vitals taken and then blood work and the doctor visits > > afterwards. Cook County Hospital is not fast. Since she wasn't > able to > > do much on her birthday because of the last infusion I think I > will > > take her out afterwards. > > We probably won't know until after 5 PM if everything is okay for > her > > to finish up round number twelve. > > Worked on a few question for the doctor last night, making our > list > > and checking it twice.....Always ask questions. > > I will drop you all a line later.... > > Peace, > > > > > > > > Larry...I firmly believe none of them are fast. It always takes > over an > > hour to get blood results for Glenn back and then another hour for > chemo to be > > mixed, etc. > > > > I won't say...Have a great day, b/c waiting around at the hospital > is not my > > idea of having a " great " day, but Have a great " being together " > day....you > > and Janet!! Make it count...and taking her out would be special... > > > > Donelle > > Caregiver to Glenn > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 19, 2005 Report Share Posted May 19, 2005 That must be hell thinking of that Ingrid. I feel for you. My dad died from leukemia when he was 36, there were 6 of us kids aged 2 to 17. After I had my son I imagined how he felt having to leave all of us, it must have been horrible. ~~Dianna Ingrid Lowe lowenco@...> wrote:The sad thing is I never thought about death before. Now, I have been thinking about it. Yes, it scares me to die and leave my son and husband. So much I need to finsih yet. Am Praying that this cancer does not come back!!!! Ingrid > > In a message dated 5/17/2005 9:42:54 A.M. Eastern Daylight Time, > > lwg_art@y... writes: > > > > Well we are off to the oncologist this morning after we drop > Lizzie > > off at school. It usually takes about three to four hours for > Janet to > > get her vitals taken and then blood work and the doctor visits > > afterwards. Cook County Hospital is not fast. Since she wasn't > able to > > do much on her birthday because of the last infusion I think I > will > > take her out afterwards. > > We probably won't know until after 5 PM if everything is okay for > her > > to finish up round number twelve. > > Worked on a few question for the doctor last night, making our > list > > and checking it twice.....Always ask questions. > > I will drop you all a line later.... > > Peace, > > > > > > > > Larry...I firmly believe none of them are fast. It always takes > over an > > hour to get blood results for Glenn back and then another hour for > chemo to be > > mixed, etc. > > > > I won't say...Have a great day, b/c waiting around at the hospital > is not my > > idea of having a " great " day, but Have a great " being together " > day....you > > and Janet!! Make it count...and taking her out would be special... > > > > Donelle > > Caregiver to Glenn > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 19, 2005 Report Share Posted May 19, 2005 That must be hell thinking of that Ingrid. I feel for you. My dad died from leukemia when he was 36, there were 6 of us kids aged 2 to 17. After I had my son I imagined how he felt having to leave all of us, it must have been horrible. ~~Dianna Ingrid Lowe lowenco@...> wrote:The sad thing is I never thought about death before. Now, I have been thinking about it. Yes, it scares me to die and leave my son and husband. So much I need to finsih yet. Am Praying that this cancer does not come back!!!! Ingrid > > In a message dated 5/17/2005 9:42:54 A.M. Eastern Daylight Time, > > lwg_art@y... writes: > > > > Well we are off to the oncologist this morning after we drop > Lizzie > > off at school. It usually takes about three to four hours for > Janet to > > get her vitals taken and then blood work and the doctor visits > > afterwards. Cook County Hospital is not fast. Since she wasn't > able to > > do much on her birthday because of the last infusion I think I > will > > take her out afterwards. > > We probably won't know until after 5 PM if everything is okay for > her > > to finish up round number twelve. > > Worked on a few question for the doctor last night, making our > list > > and checking it twice.....Always ask questions. > > I will drop you all a line later.... > > Peace, > > > > > > > > Larry...I firmly believe none of them are fast. It always takes > over an > > hour to get blood results for Glenn back and then another hour for > chemo to be > > mixed, etc. > > > > I won't say...Have a great day, b/c waiting around at the hospital > is not my > > idea of having a " great " day, but Have a great " being together " > day....you > > and Janet!! Make it count...and taking her out would be special... > > > > Donelle > > Caregiver to Glenn > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 19, 2005 Report Share Posted May 19, 2005 Find a local support group. It's safe to cry and vent and the hugs really, really help. They will all understand what you're going through because they've all been there. It's the best thing I did for myself after my diagnosis. Hil hilsshop@...> wrote: I agree with you. I know they are all worried about me and trying to be strong and not show it. Of course I won't show how scared and worried I am. Yes it would be nice to have someone just put their arms around me and let me cry. Hil Re: Janet, cycle # 12 Everyone around me is being strong and sometimes I just wish someone would just put their arms around me and cry with me, when I'm feeling scared of dying. Joan Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 20, 2005 Report Share Posted May 20, 2005 Hanging in there!!!! The second week wasn't too bad. The tinglies kind of went away and the tiredness was a lot less. i still notice that i am in a purple haze all of the time. It doesn't feel like it at the moment, but, always, after, when you look back on anything, it seems hazy... Weird.. Round 2 starts on Monday!!! Ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! All the best, Marty Israel News Radio - http://www.Israelnewsradio.net Audio Blog: http://www.israelnewsradio.net/the-marty-roberts-show.html Podcast: http://www.israelnewsradio.net/podcast.html Re: Janet, cycle # 12 > Marty, How are you feeling this week? Hoping the chemo effects are > not to hard on you. Ingrid > > > > >> >> In a message dated 5/17/2005 9:42:54 A.M. Eastern Daylight Time, >> >> lwg_art@y... writes: >> >> >> >> Well we are off to the oncologist this morning after we drop >> > Lizzie >> >> off at school. It usually takes about three to four hours for >> > Janet to >> >> get her vitals taken and then blood work and the doctor visits >> >> afterwards. Cook County Hospital is not fast. Since she wasn't >> > able to >> >> do much on her birthday because of the last infusion I think I >> > will >> >> take her out afterwards. >> >> We probably won't know until after 5 PM if everything is okay for >> > her >> >> to finish up round number twelve. >> >> Worked on a few question for the doctor last night, making our >> > list >> >> and checking it twice.....Always ask questions. >> >> I will drop you all a line later.... >> >> Peace, >> >> >> >> >> >> >> >> Larry...I firmly believe none of them are fast. It always takes >> > over an >> >> hour to get blood results for Glenn back and then another hour > for >> > chemo to be >> >> mixed, etc. >> >> >> >> I won't say...Have a great day, b/c waiting around at the > hospital >> > is not my >> >> idea of having a " great " day, but Have a great " being together " >> > day....you >> >> and Janet!! Make it count...and taking her out would be > special... >> >> >> >> Donelle >> >> Caregiver to Glenn >> >> >> >> >> >> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 20, 2005 Report Share Posted May 20, 2005 Hanging in there!!!! The second week wasn't too bad. The tinglies kind of went away and the tiredness was a lot less. i still notice that i am in a purple haze all of the time. It doesn't feel like it at the moment, but, always, after, when you look back on anything, it seems hazy... Weird.. Round 2 starts on Monday!!! Ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! All the best, Marty Israel News Radio - http://www.Israelnewsradio.net Audio Blog: http://www.israelnewsradio.net/the-marty-roberts-show.html Podcast: http://www.israelnewsradio.net/podcast.html Re: Janet, cycle # 12 > Marty, How are you feeling this week? Hoping the chemo effects are > not to hard on you. Ingrid > > > > >> >> In a message dated 5/17/2005 9:42:54 A.M. Eastern Daylight Time, >> >> lwg_art@y... writes: >> >> >> >> Well we are off to the oncologist this morning after we drop >> > Lizzie >> >> off at school. It usually takes about three to four hours for >> > Janet to >> >> get her vitals taken and then blood work and the doctor visits >> >> afterwards. Cook County Hospital is not fast. Since she wasn't >> > able to >> >> do much on her birthday because of the last infusion I think I >> > will >> >> take her out afterwards. >> >> We probably won't know until after 5 PM if everything is okay for >> > her >> >> to finish up round number twelve. >> >> Worked on a few question for the doctor last night, making our >> > list >> >> and checking it twice.....Always ask questions. >> >> I will drop you all a line later.... >> >> Peace, >> >> >> >> >> >> >> >> Larry...I firmly believe none of them are fast. It always takes >> > over an >> >> hour to get blood results for Glenn back and then another hour > for >> > chemo to be >> >> mixed, etc. >> >> >> >> I won't say...Have a great day, b/c waiting around at the > hospital >> > is not my >> >> idea of having a " great " day, but Have a great " being together " >> > day....you >> >> and Janet!! Make it count...and taking her out would be > special... >> >> >> >> Donelle >> >> Caregiver to Glenn >> >> >> >> >> >> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 20, 2005 Report Share Posted May 20, 2005 Hanging in there!!!! The second week wasn't too bad. The tinglies kind of went away and the tiredness was a lot less. i still notice that i am in a purple haze all of the time. It doesn't feel like it at the moment, but, always, after, when you look back on anything, it seems hazy... Weird.. Round 2 starts on Monday!!! Ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! All the best, Marty Israel News Radio - http://www.Israelnewsradio.net Audio Blog: http://www.israelnewsradio.net/the-marty-roberts-show.html Podcast: http://www.israelnewsradio.net/podcast.html Re: Janet, cycle # 12 > Marty, How are you feeling this week? Hoping the chemo effects are > not to hard on you. Ingrid > > > > >> >> In a message dated 5/17/2005 9:42:54 A.M. Eastern Daylight Time, >> >> lwg_art@y... writes: >> >> >> >> Well we are off to the oncologist this morning after we drop >> > Lizzie >> >> off at school. It usually takes about three to four hours for >> > Janet to >> >> get her vitals taken and then blood work and the doctor visits >> >> afterwards. Cook County Hospital is not fast. Since she wasn't >> > able to >> >> do much on her birthday because of the last infusion I think I >> > will >> >> take her out afterwards. >> >> We probably won't know until after 5 PM if everything is okay for >> > her >> >> to finish up round number twelve. >> >> Worked on a few question for the doctor last night, making our >> > list >> >> and checking it twice.....Always ask questions. >> >> I will drop you all a line later.... >> >> Peace, >> >> >> >> >> >> >> >> Larry...I firmly believe none of them are fast. It always takes >> > over an >> >> hour to get blood results for Glenn back and then another hour > for >> > chemo to be >> >> mixed, etc. >> >> >> >> I won't say...Have a great day, b/c waiting around at the > hospital >> > is not my >> >> idea of having a " great " day, but Have a great " being together " >> > day....you >> >> and Janet!! Make it count...and taking her out would be > special... >> >> >> >> Donelle >> >> Caregiver to Glenn >> >> >> >> >> >> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 20, 2005 Report Share Posted May 20, 2005 Dear Marty, I feel like I lost almost an entire year to this (July 22nd to be exact). I had lots of problems with the radiation (burning, bleeding, etc and that was only what could be seen on the outside---cripes). The chemo was doable until the last (#6) where they only got a little be in and I went into shock and was rushed to the hospital. Then depression and mental problems sidelined me and I was in a hospital for that. I cannot tell you the difference since the treatments are over. Of course, I have completely changed my life. I am eating only organic anything; I stopped drinking soda (diet) and live on seltzer instead and water of course and bought a juicer. I am taking a product called Reliv which is helping me gain my strength...it is basically powdered food in a can. I drink shakes 4 times a day. I feel great. Have been doing my gardening and so many other things I am astounded. I still have tingles in the tips of my fingers and my feet are awful. So.........I went for a pedicure yesterday and at least they look nice. Hang in there. Karima Re: Janet, cycle # 12 > Marty, How are you feeling this week? Hoping the chemo effects are > not to hard on you. Ingrid > > > > >> >> In a message dated 5/17/2005 9:42:54 A.M. Eastern Daylight Time, >> >> lwg_art@y... writes: >> >> >> >> Well we are off to the oncologist this morning after we drop >> > Lizzie >> >> off at school. It usually takes about three to four hours for >> > Janet to >> >> get her vitals taken and then blood work and the doctor visits >> >> afterwards. Cook County Hospital is not fast. Since she wasn't >> > able to >> >> do much on her birthday because of the last infusion I think I >> > will >> >> take her out afterwards. >> >> We probably won't know until after 5 PM if everything is okay for >> > her >> >> to finish up round number twelve. >> >> Worked on a few question for the doctor last night, making our >> > list >> >> and checking it twice.....Always ask questions. >> >> I will drop you all a line later.... >> >> Peace, >> >> >> >> >> >> >> >> Larry...I firmly believe none of them are fast. It always takes >> > over an >> >> hour to get blood results for Glenn back and then another hour > for >> > chemo to be >> >> mixed, etc. >> >> >> >> I won't say...Have a great day, b/c waiting around at the > hospital >> > is not my >> >> idea of having a " great " day, but Have a great " being together " >> > day....you >> >> and Janet!! Make it count...and taking her out would be > special... >> >> >> >> Donelle >> >> Caregiver to Glenn >> >> >> >> >> >> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 20, 2005 Report Share Posted May 20, 2005 So glad that you are feeling better in your second week. Yeah, know what you mean about feeling in a haze. I felt that way too. Not so much the in-between week but during the chemo week. Not sure if it was me mentally since I knew what was going into me me or not. Sometimes I think we do things to ourselves to protect ourselves mentally. Were you in a private room geting chemo or did you share a chemo room with others as they got chemo also? I hope that your next chemo round is easy. More then likley you will find it going the same way as your first. Just say a Prayer as they start it. I did that and felt like I was not so alone with it. God is always there at your side. I am Praying for you and all in who have to suffer with this. Ingrid > >> >> In a message dated 5/17/2005 9:42:54 A.M. Eastern Daylight Time, > >> >> lwg_art@y... writes: > >> >> > >> >> Well we are off to the oncologist this morning after we drop > >> > Lizzie > >> >> off at school. It usually takes about three to four hours for > >> > Janet to > >> >> get her vitals taken and then blood work and the doctor visits > >> >> afterwards. Cook County Hospital is not fast. Since she wasn't > >> > able to > >> >> do much on her birthday because of the last infusion I think I > >> > will > >> >> take her out afterwards. > >> >> We probably won't know until after 5 PM if everything is okay for > >> > her > >> >> to finish up round number twelve. > >> >> Worked on a few question for the doctor last night, making our > >> > list > >> >> and checking it twice.....Always ask questions. > >> >> I will drop you all a line later.... > >> >> Peace, > >> >> > >> >> > >> >> > >> >> Larry...I firmly believe none of them are fast. It always takes > >> > over an > >> >> hour to get blood results for Glenn back and then another hour > > for > >> > chemo to be > >> >> mixed, etc. > >> >> > >> >> I won't say...Have a great day, b/c waiting around at the > > hospital > >> > is not my > >> >> idea of having a " great " day, but Have a great " being together " > >> > day....you > >> >> and Janet!! Make it count...and taking her out would be > > special... > >> >> > >> >> Donelle > >> >> Caregiver to Glenn > >> >> > >> >> > >> >> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 24, 2005 Report Share Posted May 24, 2005 Hi Lori I think I would have been like that too. if I had it for some reason I don't think I would want anyone to know I don't know why But when my sis trys to hide her tears from me I talk to her and make her tell me what she is feeling weather it is fear or what she is afraid her dog wouldn't be taken care of so she wants to give him to the firedepartment. She has a dalmation. But I seriously beleave she is going to be ok. the Dr said waht she has is curable because they think they caught it in time. But then they said if she doesn't do this she will die a painful death. So u didn't want anyone to know how did u tell them? or how did they find out? LH hairthing02 hairthing02@...> wrote: I know. When I was diagnosed I was so scared but I didn't want anyone to know it. I would hear everyone talking and saying I can't believe how strong she is,but really I wasn't. My husband wouldn't show anything either, to me, he would talk to our friends and they would tell me about it later, but I kinda wish he would've let ME know, but he didn't want me to see how scared he was cuz he thought he had to be strong for me! Lori-- - In colon_cancer_support , " Hil " wrote: > I agree with you. I know they are all worried about me and trying to be strong and not show it. Of course I won't show how scared and worried I am. Yes it would be nice to have someone just put their arms around me and let me cry. > > Hil > Re: Janet, cycle # 12 > > > Everyone around me is being strong and sometimes I just wish someone > would just put their arms around me and cry with me, when I'm > feeling scared of dying. > > Joan > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 24, 2005 Report Share Posted May 24, 2005 They knew I had cancer just didn't know how scared I was! I don;'t think they still know! the only time I cried in front of my husband was when they actually told me it was cancer! When I had my colonoscopy the biopsy came back benign so after my surgery when the report came back cancer we were all shocked including my Dr.s! LoriAnn- - In colon_cancer_support , lori hunter wrote: > Hi Lori I think I would have been like that too. if I had it for some reason I don't think I would want anyone to know I don't know why But when my sis trys to hide her tears from me I talk to her and make her tell me what she is feeling weather it is fear or what she is afraid her dog wouldn't be taken care of so she wants to give him to the firedepartment. She has a dalmation. But I seriously beleave she is going to be ok. the Dr said waht she has is curable because they think they caught it in time. But then they said if she doesn't do this she will die a painful death. > So u didn't want anyone to know how did u tell them? or how did they find out? LH > hairthing02 wrote: > I know. When I was diagnosed I was so scared but I didn't want > anyone to know it. I would hear everyone talking and saying I can't > believe how strong she is,but really I wasn't. My husband wouldn't > show anything either, to me, he would talk to our friends and they > would tell me about it later, but I kinda wish he would've let ME > know, but he didn't want me to see how scared he was cuz he thought > he had to be strong for me! > Lori-- > > - In colon_cancer_support , " Hil " > wrote: > > I agree with you. I know they are all worried about me and trying > to be strong and not show it. Of course I won't show how scared and > worried I am. Yes it would be nice to have someone just put their > arms around me and let me cry. > > > > Hil > > Re: Janet, cycle # 12 > > > > > > Everyone around me is being strong and sometimes I just wish > someone > > would just put their arms around me and cry with me, when I'm > > feeling scared of dying. > > > > Joan > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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