Guest guest Posted August 27, 2005 Report Share Posted August 27, 2005 I am about to begin the IV cytoxen, have put it off for months now waiting to return home to Kuwait and get settled and have caused myself considerable setbacks in the delay unfortunatley. I am really frightened of this medication and I would really like to know about your treatment protocol, how often you are taking the drug and how much of the drug you are recieivng. I am concerned because what htey have laid out for me seems so excessive. Kim, I know you are so very scared and worried about starting Cytoxan treatments. I wish there was other choices. You know that if you postpone much longer, that the stroke you'll end up having will debilitate you. We won't do the talk we've already had about that issue. Kim, get your husband to go with you to your infusions, when he can. If he's not available, get a friend to go. That way you have support. You won't have to worry about driving home, or using public transportation. Kim, it is so important that whatever choice you make, that you see that choice-- Cytoxan or Remicade-- as healing you. To visualize it and fear it, you give up your power, and you become more vulnerable to the side-effects. Many of the people on chemo's at the infusion center found that they had the nausea and vomiting if they came in afraid of what was to happen. When they'd gotten thru the first infusion, and the side effects were actually less than what they'd expected, they found they could concentrate on letting the drug do it's job, and wash the cancer or in our case, the granulomas and plaques from our body. Pick up a copy of Love, Medicine and Miracles. Read it, and have your husband read it with you (or maybe to you.) This is one of the best books on how we think effects the end results of our treatments. I was able to hear the author speak a couple of years back, and he was excellant. I'm about to start out volunteering at the oncology center, doing guided meditation and visualization with the patients. It really is so very important to be a positive force in our own healing. I so want to see you seeing yourself getting better, no matter which medication you are on. Holding you in my heart, seeing you safely treated with the medication that will be best for you now. Truly, Tracie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 28, 2005 Report Share Posted August 28, 2005 Dear Tracie Thank you for the supportive words Tracie, I know I cant delay this treatment any longer, though believe me I want nothing more than to ignore the whole thing and pretend it doesnt exist. I have my neuro appt here next week, which i did put off a bit I have to admit. intentionally - a bit of a delay tactic on my part. i just wanted some time to wind down a bit i guess and breath. , next week the kids will be in school and things will be quieter and calmer, we should have several things taken care of by then, and i will be able to focus on going back and forth between the appts that i will be thrown into. i will look into getting this book you mention, though its hard from here , i wont find it im sure. will have to wait a bit until i am ordering from amazon, which will be a good while since i am just now getting here and have brought a lot with me for reading and shipped even more to avoid paying hte international shipping fees from amazon. maybe my daughter can bring it with her when she comes. take care, kim Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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