Chantel Re: hi, new here :)

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Welcome Chantel,

I am Gena, 38, married with 2 girls, live in Alaska. At my heaviest I

was 284, I am 5'3 " . Now I am about 206-208. In the 19 plus years I have

been dealing with this one thing I have learned is no gimmicks, no

pills. Just learn to eat better and get more active. You need to do

things you can do for life. I used to have some info about the carb

blockers and am trying to get it again for you. Anyway, just wanted to

say hi and hope to hear more from you.

Gena

> I just joined. I thought that this would be a great club to join

> and talk about how I feel at times with my weight. I grew up as a

> big girl and lost some of my weight down to 156 until last June

> hit. At the time my bf had just gotten back from being deployed

> overseas and we decided to move in together before we got married.

> Well that's when I started to gain my weight back and more. We were

> planning our wedding which led us to eat out and eat whatever. We

> were also cooking big home cooked meals with of course ice cream as

> dessert lol. Well I've been trying to lose weight for months now.

> We went on the Atkins diet together. I started to lose weight but

> we stopped when there were rumors of him being deployed again. He

> left on Memorial Day and I've been eating healthy since. I practice

> yoga, go to the gym, and even just bought a bellydancing video. I

> am an Assistant Manager of a store working part time and attending

> college full time in about a week. I am currently taking a carb

> blocker pill before meals. I started at 195 and now as of this

> morning I'm at 190. I've been at 190 for a month and a half now.

> For some reason I just can't get lower than that I've always

> struggled with my weight all my life. I was happy being 156 even

> though I could've been smaller. Now I feel unhealthy and

> unattractive. I'm really trying to do this for myself and my body.

> I'm not the same person I was. I don't have the high self esteem

> anymore. I feel like people are staring at me constantly and

> talking about my looks behind my back. My old clothes are still in

> my closet and I wish everyday that I could wear them. My in laws

> bought me clothes last xmas and I've never worn them. I can't fit

> into them. Another reason why is of course to look better for my

> husband when he gets back home. I know he loves me anyway I look

> but it would still be nice to do. *sigh* I feel so frustrated and

> out of my mind. Anyway that's me lol

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