YIPPIE! Chemo is over!

November 8, 2006

I got thru my final Taxol a week ago. I'm going to start radiation very

soon. I thought I'd be so over joyed but for some reason I feel so

scared. I'm afraid of the unknown. For some reason I feel so afraid

that my cancer is going to come back because the chemo ended.

I spoke to one of the nurses who assured me that it was normal to be

afraid. That after everything that has happened in my life this year

that the end of chemo can be frieghtening but it doesn't mean that my

cancer is going to come back. Don't look at it as the " end " look at it

as the next big step forward.

I'm still afraid. To top it off I'm so worried about the radiation.

November 9, 2006

If you made it through chemo, you'll make it through radiation. Like chemo, each

person is different, but I'd dare say most would say radiation is easier....

certainly was for me. Only thing was I had chemo while I had radiation so I got

both whammies!

I think one of the reasons it was hard for me to be done was that the 'plan' was

done. I (the doctors) had a plan.... surgery, chemo... so many treatments with

the last ones including radiation. While there was a 'plan' in place I worked

it. Being done just kind of left me out there without a plan. It is scary but it

will get easier.

I have heard keeping busy helps.

I'd look at it as a beginning... a beginning of a new you. You can't go through

cancer treatment and not feel different. I don't mean physically, but mentally.

Good luck with your radiation... other than the 'every day' aspect, it's a lot

easier and in 6-7 weeks, you'll be all done.

Barb

Michigan