Re: Where is my beloved ? I am here Robynn...

[Guest guest]

Greetings sweet Robynn...and bless you for shining a light to cut

through my gloomy fog. Though I still walk the path, my pace has

slowed and the footing is not so sure. My focus on the prize has

blurred...as the fires of stressful employment have created a gritty

haze which burns my eyes. Consequently, the baggage I carry is still

quite heavy and the cost of bearing its weight is getting quite dear.

I long to share the promised land with you and Tim and the remaining

denizens who enjoy an enlightened life. While I know our journeys had

different jumping off points - my two steps back for every step

forward dance does nothing to bring me closer to your world. My

virtuous patience occasionally flags, and is replaced with a desire to

let my predisposition for carb-rich, fiber-poor edibles satiate my

emotional demands. Couple this with a bone-weary state of physical

being and an inflammation induced torment in the infrastrucure of my

body...and you can see that joy is limited while self-flagellation is not.

However, even though I live in a world of night-like melancholy...the

stars abound above me. Board members, family and friends twinkle and

shine their love and support. This treasured glimmer provides just

enough dawn to help keep my feet trodding the uneven path. And though

evil thoughts of sugary delights still dance in my head, enough

mindfulness remains to sporadically remind this fellow that " I have a

choice to make " and ultimately return the wicked Hershey demon to the

pits that spawned the temptation.

Demanding? You? Not in the slightest. Your clarion call peals to me

above the din. Your desires not the least bit onerous. So here I am

at this late hour...delaying slumber so that I might deliver to you my

appreciation for your kind thoughts.

Rock on sweet Robynn...rock on!

> , you've been too damned quiet lately. I'm worried. How are

you doing? How are you holding up under all of the stress? How is

your weight? I want you on the other side with me (although don't get

discouraged, I think I started a bit before you did!!)

>

> Speak to me!! I miss your cute messages..which have been coming

around...but NOT OFTEN ENOUGH!!!! (why no...I'm not demanding...why do

you ask?)

>

> Big fat kiss...

>

> Robynn

[Guest guest]

Wow.

I feel like an interloper just reading this.

Gosh, , you truly are a poet.

How incredible that you have remained sane in the type of job, with the long

hours you describe. I'm glad you have found a way for your creative spirit to

express itself here. Forget Hershey, pick up a pen (or perhaps a feathered

quill?)

More, more!

Joyce

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[Guest guest]

Hi ,

Gosh I hope that gloomy fog goes away soon for you, stress is so hard with our lives when food has been a comfort for so many years.................My hope for you is that the fog lifts and the sun shines bright. I know that you want this surgery and I think you will get it, but it just might take awhile before you get there, and I can see and feel how intellgent you are and I can feel the strongfullness in you and see the senstiive side also. Just know this group is wanting to help you and dont be afraid to ask for help, and dont beat yourself up if you make mistakes, just pick yourself up and start foward again.

Colleen wrote:

Greetings sweet Robynn...and bless you for shining a light to cutthrough my gloomy fog. Though I still walk the path, my pace hasslowed and the footing is not so sure. My focus on the prize hasblurred...as the fires of stressful employment have created a grittyhaze which burns my eyes. Consequently, the baggage I carry is stillquite heavy and the cost of bearing its weight is getting quite dear.I long to share the promised land with you and Tim and the remainingdenizens who enjoy an enlightened life. While I know our journeys haddifferent jumping off points - my two steps back for every stepforward dance does nothing to bring me closer to your world. Myvirtuous patience occasionally flags, and is replaced with a desire tolet my predisposition for carb-rich, fiber-poor edibles satiate myemotional demands. Couple this with a

bone-weary state of physicalbeing and an inflammation induced torment in the infrastrucure of mybody...and you can see that joy is limited while self-flagellation is not.However, even though I live in a world of night-like melancholy...thestars abound above me. Board members, family and friends twinkle andshine their love and support. This treasured glimmer provides justenough dawn to help keep my feet trodding the uneven path. And thoughevil thoughts of sugary delights still dance in my head, enoughmindfulness remains to sporadically remind this fellow that "I have achoice to make" and ultimately return the wicked Hershey demon to thepits that spawned the temptation.Demanding? You? Not in the slightest. Your clarion call peals to meabove the din. Your desires not the least bit onerous. So here I amat this late hour...delaying slumber so that I might deliver to you myappreciation for your kind thoughts. Rock on

sweet Robynn...rock on!> , you've been too damned quiet lately. I'm worried. How areyou doing? How are you holding up under all of the stress? How isyour weight? I want you on the other side with me (although don't getdiscouraged, I think I started a bit before you did!!)> > Speak to me!! I miss your cute messages..which have been comingaround...but NOT OFTEN ENOUGH!!!! (why no...I'm not demanding...why doyou ask?)> > Big fat kiss...> > Robynn

[Guest guest]

I feel your pain, . I left an unbearable career path (taking a

50% cut in pay) because the stress was literally killing me. That

was over a decade ago, and I have never regretted it. Like you, I

now also work in a nonprofit social service agency. (How many of us

have conciously or unconsciously chosen careers in which we

serve/help others? I find it fascinating.) The current economic and

political environment makes that a tough world to work in.

As for " enlightenment " any self-knowledge I've gained on this

journey is just a grain of sand on the beach. I fight addiction

every single day. I wish I could tell you that overcoming

temptations gets easier post-op, but it hasn't fo me. I'm white

knuckling it right now, because I want to pamper/self-medicate

myself with food, during my plastic surgery recouperation.

Hang in there, my friend. Be kind to yourself today, and make good

decisions.

Hug!

Uncle Timmy -236

> > , you've been too damned quiet lately. I'm worried. How

are

> you doing? How are you holding up under all of the stress? How is

> your weight? I want you on the other side with me (although don't

get

> discouraged, I think I started a bit before you did!!)

> >

> > Speak to me!! I miss your cute messages..which have been coming

> around...but NOT OFTEN ENOUGH!!!! (why no...I'm not

demanding...why do

> you ask?)

> >

> > Big fat kiss...

> >

> > Robynn

[Guest guest]

I am so glad you have not given up. We need you here.

Look at the awsome way you write! I for one am

impressed and also miss you. Come back even if it is

to hear how hershey is now burning in hell.

Cecilia

--- onebigscot@...> wrote:

>

> Greetings sweet Robynn...and bless you for shining a

> light to cut

> through my gloomy fog. Though I still walk the

> path, my pace has

> slowed and the footing is not so sure. My focus on

> the prize has

> blurred...as the fires of stressful employment have

> created a gritty

> haze which burns my eyes. Consequently, the baggage

> I carry is still

> quite heavy and the cost of bearing its weight is

> getting quite dear.

>

> I long to share the promised land with you and Tim

> and the remaining

> denizens who enjoy an enlightened life. While I

> know our journeys had

> different jumping off points - my two steps back for

> every step

> forward dance does nothing to bring me closer to

> your world. My

> virtuous patience occasionally flags, and is

> replaced with a desire to

> let my predisposition for carb-rich, fiber-poor

> edibles satiate my

> emotional demands. Couple this with a bone-weary

> state of physical

> being and an inflammation induced torment in the

> infrastrucure of my

> body...and you can see that joy is limited while

> self-flagellation is not.

>

> However, even though I live in a world of night-like

> melancholy...the

> stars abound above me. Board members, family and

> friends twinkle and

> shine their love and support. This treasured

> glimmer provides just

> enough dawn to help keep my feet trodding the uneven

> path. And though

> evil thoughts of sugary delights still dance in my

> head, enough

> mindfulness remains to sporadically remind this

> fellow that " I have a

> choice to make " and ultimately return the wicked

> Hershey demon to the

> pits that spawned the temptation.

>

> Demanding? You? Not in the slightest. Your

> clarion call peals to me

> above the din. Your desires not the least bit

> onerous. So here I am

> at this late hour...delaying slumber so that I might

> deliver to you my

> appreciation for your kind thoughts.

>

> Rock on sweet Robynn...rock on!

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

> > , you've been too damned quiet lately. I'm

> worried. How are

> you doing? How are you holding up under all of the

> stress? How is

> your weight? I want you on the other side with me

> (although don't get

> discouraged, I think I started a bit before you

> did!!)

> >

> > Speak to me!! I miss your cute messages..which

> have been coming

> around...but NOT OFTEN ENOUGH!!!! (why no...I'm not

> demanding...why do

> you ask?)

> >

> > Big fat kiss...

> >

> > Robynn

>

>

>

>

>

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[Guest guest]

WOW DAVID that was sooo beautiful!!! Hang with us, we will pull you

through!!! You can do this!!!! We have faith in you!!

Huggles

> > , you've been too damned quiet lately. I'm worried. How are

> you doing? How are you holding up under all of the stress? How is

> your weight? I want you on the other side with me (although don't

get

> discouraged, I think I started a bit before you did!!)

> >

> > Speak to me!! I miss your cute messages..which have been coming

> around...but NOT OFTEN ENOUGH!!!! (why no...I'm not demanding...why

do

> you ask?)

> >

> > Big fat kiss...

> >

> > Robynn

[Guest guest]

WOW DAVID that was sooo beautiful!!! Hang with us, we will pull you

through!!! You can do this!!!! We have faith in you!!

Huggles

> > , you've been too damned quiet lately. I'm worried. How are

> you doing? How are you holding up under all of the stress? How is

> your weight? I want you on the other side with me (although don't

get

> discouraged, I think I started a bit before you did!!)

> >

> > Speak to me!! I miss your cute messages..which have been coming

> around...but NOT OFTEN ENOUGH!!!! (why no...I'm not demanding...why

do

> you ask?)

> >

> > Big fat kiss...

> >

> > Robynn

[Guest guest]

Yep you spoke very eloquently for me too Robynn. I wish I could

write as deep and eloquently as you all do...Sigh

> > > , you've been too damned quiet lately. I'm

> > worried. How are

> > you doing? How are you holding up under all of the

> > stress? How is

> > your weight? I want you on the other side with me

> > (although don't get

> > discouraged, I think I started a bit before you

> > did!!)

> > >

> > > Speak to me!! I miss your cute messages..which

> > have been coming

> > around...but NOT OFTEN ENOUGH!!!! (why no...I'm not

> > demanding...why do

> > you ask?)

> > >

> > > Big fat kiss...

> > >

> > > Robynn

> >

> >

> >

> >

> >

> >

> > ---------------------------------

> >

[Guest guest]

Why, thank you...(blushing face).

Robynn Diane Duenas wrote:

Yep you spoke very eloquently for me too Robynn. I wish I could write as deep and eloquently as you all do...Sigh> > > , you've been too damned quiet lately. I'm> > worried. How are> > you doing? How are you holding up under all of the> > stress? How is> > your weight? I want you on the other side with me> > (although don't get> > discouraged, I think I started a bit before you> > did!!)> > > > > > Speak to me!! I miss your cute messages..which> > have been coming> > around...but NOT OFTEN ENOUGH!!!! (why no...I'm not> > demanding...why do> > you ask?)> > > > > > Big fat kiss...> > > > > > Robynn> > > > > > > > > > > > > > ---------------------------------> >