Overwhelmed?

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jack........absolutely beautifully felt and said!!!!!!

-----Original Message-----From: GrossInsCo@... Sent: 18 September 2002 05:26To: AtresiaMicrotia Subject: Re: Overwhelmed?

Hello All, it is me, ...Zayne's mom.I really do not know what to post......I am so distraught.I feel like I am on a nonstop roller coaster....With all the Dr. visits and therapy meetings for Zayne, Sign language (which I feel I will never get the hang of it) to keeing the BCHA on Zayne like we are suppost to do every day. It just feels like so much for me to take in. Is that wrong of me as a mother of 3 to feels this way??????/I sometimes feel like I can not breathe. I am so overwhelmed with everything we have to do for Zayne. And that makes me feel as if I am a bad mom. I catch myself yelling at my other two kids, 2,7 yrs old. knowing they do not understand what I am feeling or going through as well. And my husband...God knows I love him with all I have..t has been tough o us too. The mariage goes up and down, and I feel as if he does not understand me. And that urks me sometimes, and makes me so angry with him.Am i alone, Does all of this mean I am just being selfish. Or is this a feeling that happens to us all. I want to be the best mom I can be for my children. They depend on m..but I feel like I am starting to fall apart in someways.i do not mean to dump this on any of you, Iknow all of you have your own's life test to handle, but i just wanted my "Group" to know the true feelings of this mom. An maybe some advice or words of wisdom can help put my mind at ease, or just plain help what i am going through all together!I hope I did not upset any of you by this message...I am just a mom that feels like a basket caseThanks and Zayne(Bilateral Aural Atresia)hi shellymy daughter-in-law has 3 kids age 3 and under.my other daughter-in-law has 2 kids 2 and under.neither has any kids with health problems, let alone the incredible strain of the symptoms and conditions zaynie is experiencing with you.AND THEY FEEL EXACTLY AS YOU DO!i read with awe your postings replete with the love and care which you lavish on your family, including your husband.i think you are a superlative mom, and a wonderful loving, giving spouse, who, like the rest of us, like ALL of us, sometimes (often ? almost ALways?) feels a bit, well, overwhelmed!well...guess what?YOU'RE ENTITLED!you work non-stop, you have precious little feedback on a (simply put) often depressing situation with zaynie's day-to-day struggles, you balance 2 other human beings who are frail , demanding, and have a RIGHT to your love, and then...there's that MAN! he's only a little bit less than perfect, but you are ALWAYS there, always putting out superhuman BIG-TIME affection.me, i think you're AWESOME!a mom like you KNOW there's plenty of time to rest and lick her wounds, and feel sorry for herself... in 70 years in the GRAVE!right NOW there's too much to do making the indelible impression on the four precious lives around whom your world revolves. in time, all too little time, they will all become much more cognizant and appreciative of how you've carried on under adversity... but you don't need anyone else but yourself (and ok, well, maybe once in awhile, YOUR group) to KNOW for yourself just how critical you are in the lives, health and happiness of all of them!motherhood may not come heralded as such, but i think, honestly, it is its OWN reward.jack