muscle biopsy and feeling blue.

[Guest guest]

Hi I have mostly been a lurker here. I learn so much from everyones

input and questions here. I am really so happy to know all of you.

THings in my life have been extremly difficult the last couple of

weeks. We all have are ups and downs. I am trying so hard to keep my

head above water and focus on God. It is so hard when you are not

feeling well to preoccupy your mind with other things. I just lost

one of the most important persons in my life. I can not go into the

circumstances without writing a book and I would rather not. Plus

there are things better left unsaid. But it is so hard when the

person you trusted most in your life betrays you beyond belief. I

feel so very alone.

I had my muscle biopsy yesterday. I have no idea what they did with

my samples. I do not feel very confident with any medical care at

this point. I would of called and asked more questions. But I did

not feel up to it emotionally. I t has been such a hard week. Oh

well, I will probably have to have another one done.

i am sorry to sound so desperate. It is hard to have such a secret

inside that I am not able to share. Do aothers find that emotional

circumstances make them feel so much sicker.

Thanks for listening Dawn A

[Guest guest]

Dawn

I am sorry to hear about the troubles you are going through. We are here to

give you hugs or a kind word without your telling us what troubles you. You

are part of our family.

Any kind of stress (physical, emotional, cognitive) can cause a crash or at

least coming near a crash. Please take care of yourself. Get lots of rest.

Hugs,

laurie

>

> Reply-To:

> Date: Sat, 28 Aug 2004 20:02:09 -0000

> To:

> Subject: muscle biopsy and feeling blue.

>

> Hi I have mostly been a lurker here. I learn so much from everyones

> input and questions here. I am really so happy to know all of you.

>

> THings in my life have been extremly difficult the last couple of

> weeks. We all have are ups and downs. I am trying so hard to keep my

> head above water and focus on God. It is so hard when you are not

> feeling well to preoccupy your mind with other things. I just lost

> one of the most important persons in my life. I can not go into the

> circumstances without writing a book and I would rather not. Plus

> there are things better left unsaid. But it is so hard when the

> person you trusted most in your life betrays you beyond belief. I

> feel so very alone.

>

> I had my muscle biopsy yesterday. I have no idea what they did with

> my samples. I do not feel very confident with any medical care at

> this point. I would of called and asked more questions. But I did

> not feel up to it emotionally. I t has been such a hard week. Oh

> well, I will probably have to have another one done.

>

> i am sorry to sound so desperate. It is hard to have such a secret

> inside that I am not able to share. Do aothers find that emotional

> circumstances make them feel so much sicker.

>

> Thanks for listening Dawn A

>

>

>

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> physicians regarding changes in their own treatment.

>

> Personal attacks are not permitted on the list and anyone who sends one is

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>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Dawn

I am sorry to hear about the troubles you are going through. We are here to

give you hugs or a kind word without your telling us what troubles you. You

are part of our family.

Any kind of stress (physical, emotional, cognitive) can cause a crash or at

least coming near a crash. Please take care of yourself. Get lots of rest.

Hugs,

laurie

>

> Reply-To:

> Date: Sat, 28 Aug 2004 20:02:09 -0000

> To:

> Subject: muscle biopsy and feeling blue.

>

> Hi I have mostly been a lurker here. I learn so much from everyones

> input and questions here. I am really so happy to know all of you.

>

> THings in my life have been extremly difficult the last couple of

> weeks. We all have are ups and downs. I am trying so hard to keep my

> head above water and focus on God. It is so hard when you are not

> feeling well to preoccupy your mind with other things. I just lost

> one of the most important persons in my life. I can not go into the

> circumstances without writing a book and I would rather not. Plus

> there are things better left unsaid. But it is so hard when the

> person you trusted most in your life betrays you beyond belief. I

> feel so very alone.

>

> I had my muscle biopsy yesterday. I have no idea what they did with

> my samples. I do not feel very confident with any medical care at

> this point. I would of called and asked more questions. But I did

> not feel up to it emotionally. I t has been such a hard week. Oh

> well, I will probably have to have another one done.

>

> i am sorry to sound so desperate. It is hard to have such a secret

> inside that I am not able to share. Do aothers find that emotional

> circumstances make them feel so much sicker.

>

> Thanks for listening Dawn A

>

>

>

> Medical advice, information, opinions, data and statements contained herein

> are not necessarily those of the list moderators. The author of this e mail is

> entirely responsible for its content. List members are reminded of their

> responsibility to evaluate the content of the postings and consult with their

> physicians regarding changes in their own treatment.

>

> Personal attacks are not permitted on the list and anyone who sends one is

> automatically moderated or removed depending on the severity of the attack.

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Dawn,

Just want you to know I read your post and my heart goes out to you.

I had many 'secrets' for many years and with some support got

through them.

Without it, without asking for support I would have been stuck,

the 'things' spinning around in my head with no where to go.

I hope you have someone in your life that gives you the kind of

unconditional support you need.

It makes a difference to be able to talk about it.

Sending 'good stuff' your way...

~Kathy~

[Guest guest]

Dawn,

I am sorry that you are having such a hard time right now. We

are all here for you. I hope you can find out about your muscle biopsy.

Was this the one Dr. Peltier ordered? Know you are in my thoughts and

prayers,

Hugs,

a

On Sat, 28 Aug 2004 20:02:09 -0000 " dawnanich " manich@...>

writes:

Hi I have mostly been a lurker here. I learn so much from everyones

input and questions here. I am really so happy to know all of you.

THings in my life have been extremly difficult the last couple of

weeks. We all have are ups and downs. I am trying so hard to keep my

head above water and focus on God. It is so hard when you are not

feeling well to preoccupy your mind with other things. I just lost

one of the most important persons in my life. I can not go into the

circumstances without writing a book and I would rather not. Plus

there are things better left unsaid. But it is so hard when the

person you trusted most in your life betrays you beyond belief. I

feel so very alone.

I had my muscle biopsy yesterday. I have no idea what they did with

my samples. I do not feel very confident with any medical care at

this point. I would of called and asked more questions. But I did

not feel up to it emotionally. I t has been such a hard week. Oh

well, I will probably have to have another one done.

i am sorry to sound so desperate. It is hard to have such a secret

inside that I am not able to share. Do aothers find that emotional

circumstances make them feel so much sicker.

Thanks for listening Dawn A

[Guest guest]

Dawn,

I am sorry that you are having such a hard time right now. We

are all here for you. I hope you can find out about your muscle biopsy.

Was this the one Dr. Peltier ordered? Know you are in my thoughts and

prayers,

Hugs,

a

On Sat, 28 Aug 2004 20:02:09 -0000 " dawnanich " manich@...>

writes:

Hi I have mostly been a lurker here. I learn so much from everyones

input and questions here. I am really so happy to know all of you.

THings in my life have been extremly difficult the last couple of

weeks. We all have are ups and downs. I am trying so hard to keep my

head above water and focus on God. It is so hard when you are not

feeling well to preoccupy your mind with other things. I just lost

one of the most important persons in my life. I can not go into the

circumstances without writing a book and I would rather not. Plus

there are things better left unsaid. But it is so hard when the

person you trusted most in your life betrays you beyond belief. I

feel so very alone.

I had my muscle biopsy yesterday. I have no idea what they did with

my samples. I do not feel very confident with any medical care at

this point. I would of called and asked more questions. But I did

not feel up to it emotionally. I t has been such a hard week. Oh

well, I will probably have to have another one done.

i am sorry to sound so desperate. It is hard to have such a secret

inside that I am not able to share. Do aothers find that emotional

circumstances make them feel so much sicker.

Thanks for listening Dawn A

[Guest guest]

--- Thanks for the kind words and all of the cyber hugs. I will try

and get a lot of rest.

Hugs back dawn a

In , Laureta Fitzgerald

wrote:

> Dawn

>

> I am sorry to hear about the troubles you are going through. We

are here to

> give you hugs or a kind word without your telling us what troubles

you. You

> are part of our family.

>

> Any kind of stress (physical, emotional, cognitive) can cause a

crash or at

> least coming near a crash. Please take care of yourself. Get lots

of rest.

>

> Hugs,

> laurie

>

> > From: " dawnanich "

> > Reply-To:

> > Date: Sat, 28 Aug 2004 20:02:09 -0000

> > To:

> > Subject: muscle biopsy and feeling blue.

> >

> > Hi I have mostly been a lurker here. I learn so much from

everyones

> > input and questions here. I am really so happy to know all of

you.

> >

> > THings in my life have been extremly difficult the last couple

of

> > weeks. We all have are ups and downs. I am trying so hard to

keep my

> > head above water and focus on God. It is so hard when you are not

> > feeling well to preoccupy your mind with other things. I just

lost

> > one of the most important persons in my life. I can not go into

the

> > circumstances without writing a book and I would rather not. Plus

> > there are things better left unsaid. But it is so hard when the

> > person you trusted most in your life betrays you beyond belief. I

> > feel so very alone.

> >

> > I had my muscle biopsy yesterday. I have no idea what they did

with

> > my samples. I do not feel very confident with any medical care at

> > this point. I would of called and asked more questions. But I did

> > not feel up to it emotionally. I t has been such a hard week. Oh

> > well, I will probably have to have another one done.

> >

> > i am sorry to sound so desperate. It is hard to have such a

secret

> > inside that I am not able to share. Do aothers find that

emotional

> > circumstances make them feel so much sicker.

> >

> > Thanks for listening Dawn A

> >

> >

> >

> > Medical advice, information, opinions, data and statements

contained herein

> > are not necessarily those of the list moderators. The author of

this e mail is

> > entirely responsible for its content. List members are reminded

of their

> > responsibility to evaluate the content of the postings and

consult with their

> > physicians regarding changes in their own treatment.

> >

> > Personal attacks are not permitted on the list and anyone who

sends one is

> > automatically moderated or removed depending on the severity of

the attack.

> >

> >

> >

> >

[Guest guest]

--- Thanks for the kind words and all of the cyber hugs. I will try

and get a lot of rest.

Hugs back dawn a

In , Laureta Fitzgerald

wrote:

> Dawn

>

> I am sorry to hear about the troubles you are going through. We

are here to

> give you hugs or a kind word without your telling us what troubles

you. You

> are part of our family.

>

> Any kind of stress (physical, emotional, cognitive) can cause a

crash or at

> least coming near a crash. Please take care of yourself. Get lots

of rest.

>

> Hugs,

> laurie

>

> > From: " dawnanich "

> > Reply-To:

> > Date: Sat, 28 Aug 2004 20:02:09 -0000

> > To:

> > Subject: muscle biopsy and feeling blue.

> >

> > Hi I have mostly been a lurker here. I learn so much from

everyones

> > input and questions here. I am really so happy to know all of

you.

> >

> > THings in my life have been extremly difficult the last couple

of

> > weeks. We all have are ups and downs. I am trying so hard to

keep my

> > head above water and focus on God. It is so hard when you are not

> > feeling well to preoccupy your mind with other things. I just

lost

> > one of the most important persons in my life. I can not go into

the

> > circumstances without writing a book and I would rather not. Plus

> > there are things better left unsaid. But it is so hard when the

> > person you trusted most in your life betrays you beyond belief. I

> > feel so very alone.

> >

> > I had my muscle biopsy yesterday. I have no idea what they did

with

> > my samples. I do not feel very confident with any medical care at

> > this point. I would of called and asked more questions. But I did

> > not feel up to it emotionally. I t has been such a hard week. Oh

> > well, I will probably have to have another one done.

> >

> > i am sorry to sound so desperate. It is hard to have such a

secret

> > inside that I am not able to share. Do aothers find that

emotional

> > circumstances make them feel so much sicker.

> >

> > Thanks for listening Dawn A

> >

> >

> >

> > Medical advice, information, opinions, data and statements

contained herein

> > are not necessarily those of the list moderators. The author of

this e mail is

> > entirely responsible for its content. List members are reminded

of their

> > responsibility to evaluate the content of the postings and

consult with their

> > physicians regarding changes in their own treatment.

> >

> > Personal attacks are not permitted on the list and anyone who

sends one is

> > automatically moderated or removed depending on the severity of

the attack.

> >

> >

> >

> >

[Guest guest]

---

Hi a Thank you for the kind words. It is nice to know we are

not alone. I am feeling better emotionally right now. Many of things

will just take time to resolve. It is hard when you are in the

middle of the pain.

YES the biopsy wa ordered by Dr. Peltier. We are all human and I am

not feeling very confident with anyone right now. I should of been

more proactive and asked more questions, I would probably feel a

little better about things. I will get the results on Sept 14. She

did say Mito probably will not show up.

I so feel 99.9% confident that this is Mito. I just hope and pray

the Drs are willing to treat it that way. I just read about someone

with mito who has Crohn's disease. My 9 year old has Crohn's. She

just started complaining to me about muscle weakness. I hope it is

not the case.

Big hugs, dawn a

, a C Koch wrote:

> Dawn,

> I am sorry that you are having such a hard time right

now. We

> are all here for you. I hope you can find out about your muscle

biopsy.

> Was this the one Dr. Peltier ordered? Know you are in my thoughts

and

> prayers,

> Hugs,

> a

>

> On Sat, 28 Aug 2004 20:02:09 -0000 " dawnanich "

> writes:

> Hi I have mostly been a lurker here. I learn so much from

everyones

> input and questions here. I am really so happy to know all of you.

>

> THings in my life have been extremly difficult the last couple of

> weeks. We all have are ups and downs. I am trying so hard to keep

my

> head above water and focus on God. It is so hard when you are not

> feeling well to preoccupy your mind with other things. I just lost

> one of the most important persons in my life. I can not go into

the

> circumstances without writing a book and I would rather not. Plus

> there are things better left unsaid. But it is so hard when the

> person you trusted most in your life betrays you beyond belief. I

> feel so very alone.

>

> I had my muscle biopsy yesterday. I have no idea what they did

with

> my samples. I do not feel very confident with any medical care at

> this point. I would of called and asked more questions. But I did

> not feel up to it emotionally. I t has been such a hard week. Oh

> well, I will probably have to have another one done.

>

> i am sorry to sound so desperate. It is hard to have such a secret

> inside that I am not able to share. Do aothers find that emotional

> circumstances make them feel so much sicker.

>

> Thanks for listening Dawn A

>

>

[Guest guest]

---

Hi a Thank you for the kind words. It is nice to know we are

not alone. I am feeling better emotionally right now. Many of things

will just take time to resolve. It is hard when you are in the

middle of the pain.

YES the biopsy wa ordered by Dr. Peltier. We are all human and I am

not feeling very confident with anyone right now. I should of been

more proactive and asked more questions, I would probably feel a

little better about things. I will get the results on Sept 14. She

did say Mito probably will not show up.

I so feel 99.9% confident that this is Mito. I just hope and pray

the Drs are willing to treat it that way. I just read about someone

with mito who has Crohn's disease. My 9 year old has Crohn's. She

just started complaining to me about muscle weakness. I hope it is

not the case.

Big hugs, dawn a

, a C Koch wrote:

> Dawn,

> I am sorry that you are having such a hard time right

now. We

> are all here for you. I hope you can find out about your muscle

biopsy.

> Was this the one Dr. Peltier ordered? Know you are in my thoughts

and

> prayers,

> Hugs,

> a

>

> On Sat, 28 Aug 2004 20:02:09 -0000 " dawnanich "

> writes:

> Hi I have mostly been a lurker here. I learn so much from

everyones

> input and questions here. I am really so happy to know all of you.

>

> THings in my life have been extremly difficult the last couple of

> weeks. We all have are ups and downs. I am trying so hard to keep

my

> head above water and focus on God. It is so hard when you are not

> feeling well to preoccupy your mind with other things. I just lost

> one of the most important persons in my life. I can not go into

the

> circumstances without writing a book and I would rather not. Plus

> there are things better left unsaid. But it is so hard when the

> person you trusted most in your life betrays you beyond belief. I

> feel so very alone.

>

> I had my muscle biopsy yesterday. I have no idea what they did

with

> my samples. I do not feel very confident with any medical care at

> this point. I would of called and asked more questions. But I did

> not feel up to it emotionally. I t has been such a hard week. Oh

> well, I will probably have to have another one done.

>

> i am sorry to sound so desperate. It is hard to have such a secret

> inside that I am not able to share. Do aothers find that emotional

> circumstances make them feel so much sicker.

>

> Thanks for listening Dawn A

>

>

[Guest guest]

---

Kathy, Thanks for your kind words and thoughts. The person who gives

me the unconditional support is the one causing all of the pain. I

was able to talk to this person today. I am feeling better. Pain

takes time to resolve. THis is going to take a lot of time. Thanks

for the support. Hugs dawn a

In , " jstkathy52004 " wrote:

> Dawn,

>

> Just want you to know I read your post and my heart goes out to

you.

>

> I had many 'secrets' for many years and with some support got

> through them.

>

> Without it, without asking for support I would have been stuck,

> the 'things' spinning around in my head with no where to go.

>

> I hope you have someone in your life that gives you the kind of

> unconditional support you need.

>

> It makes a difference to be able to talk about it.

>

> Sending 'good stuff' your way...

>

> ~Kathy~

[Guest guest]

-Dear Dawn, I'm here for you if you want to talk. I too lost my most

important person a few years ago, and a huge betrayal of trust was

involved, making the grieving for the lost one (my hubby) even harder

to deal with. I've always kept it a secret, so I know too how hard

that is. Please email me if you feel like sharing. Otherwise, I'll be

thinking and praying for you., Hope for a good outcome of your biopsy

too, Celia

- In , " dawnanich " wrote:

> Hi I have mostly been a lurker here. I learn so much from everyones

> input and questions here. I am really so happy to know all of you.

>

> THings in my life have been extremly difficult the last couple of

> weeks. We all have are ups and downs. I am trying so hard to keep my

> head above water and focus on God. It is so hard when you are not

> feeling well to preoccupy your mind with other things. I just lost

> one of the most important persons in my life. I can not go into the

> circumstances without writing a book and I would rather not. Plus

> there are things better left unsaid. But it is so hard when the

> person you trusted most in your life betrays you beyond belief. I

> feel so very alone.

>

> I had my muscle biopsy yesterday. I have no idea what they did with

> my samples. I do not feel very confident with any medical care at

> this point. I would of called and asked more questions. But I did

> not feel up to it emotionally. I t has been such a hard week. Oh

> well, I will probably have to have another one done.

>

> i am sorry to sound so desperate. It is hard to have such a secret

> inside that I am not able to share. Do aothers find that emotional

> circumstances make them feel so much sicker.

>

> Thanks for listening Dawn A

[Guest guest]

-Dear Dawn, I'm here for you if you want to talk. I too lost my most

important person a few years ago, and a huge betrayal of trust was

involved, making the grieving for the lost one (my hubby) even harder

to deal with. I've always kept it a secret, so I know too how hard

that is. Please email me if you feel like sharing. Otherwise, I'll be

thinking and praying for you., Hope for a good outcome of your biopsy

too, Celia

- In , " dawnanich " wrote:

> Hi I have mostly been a lurker here. I learn so much from everyones

> input and questions here. I am really so happy to know all of you.

>

> THings in my life have been extremly difficult the last couple of

> weeks. We all have are ups and downs. I am trying so hard to keep my

> head above water and focus on God. It is so hard when you are not

> feeling well to preoccupy your mind with other things. I just lost

> one of the most important persons in my life. I can not go into the

> circumstances without writing a book and I would rather not. Plus

> there are things better left unsaid. But it is so hard when the

> person you trusted most in your life betrays you beyond belief. I

> feel so very alone.

>

> I had my muscle biopsy yesterday. I have no idea what they did with

> my samples. I do not feel very confident with any medical care at

> this point. I would of called and asked more questions. But I did

> not feel up to it emotionally. I t has been such a hard week. Oh

> well, I will probably have to have another one done.

>

> i am sorry to sound so desperate. It is hard to have such a secret

> inside that I am not able to share. Do aothers find that emotional

> circumstances make them feel so much sicker.

>

> Thanks for listening Dawn A