Apologies and Shoulder Probs

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Hi everyone, firstly I apologise for not having been around much the

past few days, I'm sorry I wasn't able to offer support or hugs to

people when they needed them. Please know I was thinking of you all

though. Things have just been a little difficult here and I'm afraid

and I haven't been able to sit and type. In brief I've been having a

hard time with my dislocations, some personal issues and also been

faced with yet more problems with doctors and their misplaced

opinions. That is an ongoing and rather angering situation, but my

biggest worry at present is actually my left shoulder. I saw my OS on

Wednesday and was told I have chronic multi directional instability,

which he is concerned about as it's hard enough to treat in " normal "

people. He actually told me that it would be better if I have torn

the ligaments or capsule as that would have been easier to treat. He

feels I will probably end up needing an open procedure for this, but

he wants to have a good look inside the joint arthroscopically first

and will try some thermal shrinkage while he is in there - just in

case it might work for a while.

Now although nobody really likes having to have surgery, I was

feeling quite satisfied about that as I know I need some help

stabilising it now and I'm happy to start with the simpler things and

work up if necessary. However, things got a little more complicated

on Thursday night, as when I reduced my anterior dislocation the

joint seemed to go too far and dislocated posteriorly, pushing my

shoulder blade out at the same time. I was in a lot of pain and ended

up at the hospital for quite some time, where the full story was

revealed. I had indeed dislocated not only posteriorly, but also

slightly inferiorly too and although it has gone back into the socket

the glenoid is sitting strangely rotated now. The ER doctors have

never seen anything like it and have advised me to contact my OS on

Monday about it.

So I'm currently in an immobiliser again and in a great deal of pain.

The muscles are in spasm and I can barely raise the arm a few inches

before it " sticks " , becomes obviously deformed to the eye and feels

like it is dislocating downwards. I am completely terrified now as

I'm worried this will affect the surgery plans and more so I'm scared

that this is a sign I am developing the same rotational deformity in

my arms as in my legs now. The weekend is dragging endlessly for me

with the amount of pain I have and knowing that I need Monday to come

quickly...I just pray I can see my OS and get to the bottom of this

new twist in my case.

Sorry for this whine, but I am really frightened that I'm heading for

major reconstruction surgery or worse still the old there's nothing

we can do I've already been cursed with for my legs. Thanks for

letting me moan. Hope you are all doing okay and I'm sending you all

warm thoughts and hugs.

Love and hugs....Jo

xx