Re: Why I want a hysterectomy/

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I understand about your fear of anesthesia(sp). When

I had my tonsils out I woke up upset and crying. I

couldn't breathe and wanted my mom. A nurse told me I

couldn't see my mom until I stopped crying. I started

to cry and quickly it turned to screaming when I began

coughing up blood. They had to put me back out to fix

the damage. When I woke up next I had blood on my

face,in my hair, and all over my pillow and I screamed

so loud I brought people running from halls all over.

I was seven. It made an impression. The next scare

came when my sister went under for tooth surgery and

came out screaming. When I was in college and needed

surgery for nerve repair I had it done under local to

the amazement of the Doctor who told me that the

previous problems probably weren't with the

anesthesia. He never convinced me. By the time I had

my D & C I had a good phobia going but the Doc refused

to do it unless I was knocked out and the

anesthetist(sp)said that things had come a long way

and I had no signs of the allergies they looked for.

It went fine. They did say as I was waking up " we

have a sleeper here " and for my first myo everyone

kept telling me I had to cough to get it out and wake

up. I don't remember waking up from this last myo. I

have to say this one was my favorite.

As for the hysterectomy I would rather have my myo

under local than be like my grandma. She had no luck.

I am not willing to bet my life. I know my family

history. It is funny after the show that ran on tv

about the complications for a while my family stopped

the push for me to have the hysterectomy and my mom

even wondered how much it might have affected my dad's

mom. But just as grateful as you are for the support

of your family I am saddened by my family's constant

pressure to have the hysterctomy. My friends and

family still say I should give it up. But I cannot

help but see a hysterectomy as one more mutilation of

my body, one more damage that will cause me to suffer

in the future. I have already lost motion and/or

feeling in my left hand and ankle due to two

accidents. I cannot do this another damage on

purpose. I fought too hard to be able to walk again

to give up one more thing.

With the disaster that has been made of my myomectomy

now more than ever I cannot see a hysterectomy as more

than a loss for me. Intellectually I can see how some

people will see it as a freedom or a chance at getting

back your life but it will always be only in my mind

and never in my heart. I can wish someone luck but

forgive me if in my heart I have fear for the person.

It will never be rational it will just be there.

Gbwyahyc

Good luck

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