Guest guest Posted February 5, 2002 Report Share Posted February 5, 2002 I wrote yesterday about getting rounder and deciding I look OK at 5'8 " and 130 pounds. What I didn't mention is how absolutely terrified I have been that this is THE END of all good things and that I will wake up tomorrow morning at 260 once again. I know this is a common fear, especially as people have a bit of bounce back in weight (and butt-be-back, too!) So, while I think I look OK -- in fact, pretty good - right now, I am scared silly about the prospect of losing all that I have gained in health while gaining all that I have lost in weight. Make sense? Rounded and terrified, hugs, Ann Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 5, 2002 Report Share Posted February 5, 2002 EXACTLY. When I hit 104, I was excited that I could MAYBE touch 2 digits, but I " knew " it was too thin, technically for my big frame. Still, when I bounced back up to 110, I had a moment of utter terror. Since I also went into protein deficiency at that time, I stopped at 118 while I was correcting it. SCAREEEEEEE. But once the protein levels were stabilized, I stayed at 112 all those years til this year, when I dropped a few. Thanks, http://www.vitalady.com For info on PayPal, click this link: https://secure.paypal.com/affil/pal=vitalady%40bigfoot.com more on rounding out > I wrote yesterday about getting rounder and deciding I look OK at 5'8 " and 130 pounds. > > What I didn't mention is how absolutely terrified I have been that this is THE END of all good things and that I will wake up tomorrow morning at 260 once again. I know this is a common fear, especially as people have a bit of bounce back in weight (and butt-be-back, too!) So, while I think I look OK -- in fact, pretty good - right now, I am scared silly about the prospect of losing all that I have gained in health while gaining all that I have lost in weight. > > Make sense? > > Rounded and terrified, > > > hugs, > Ann > > Homepage: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Graduate-OSSG > > Unsubscribe: mailto:Graduate-OSSG-unsubscribe > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 5, 2002 Report Share Posted February 5, 2002 > I wrote yesterday about getting rounder and deciding I look > OK at 5'8 " and 130 pounds. > > What I didn't mention is how absolutely terrified I have been > that this is THE END of all good things and that I will wake > up tomorrow morning at 260 once again. I definitely relate to this! I never figured that being at goal would be scarier than getting there, but it is! Being in that precipitous place, in the glow of success, where every other time in the past I have hovered only momentarily before being violently thrust back into the abyss of failure. Still waiting for the other shoe to drop... M. --- in Valrico, FL, age 39 Lap DGB/DS by Dr. Rabkin 10/19/99 Starting weight 299, now 153 Starting BMI 49.7, now 25.5 Starting size 26/28, now 10/12 http://www.duodenalswitch.com/Patients/M/melaniem.html Direct replies: mailto:melanie@... _________________________________________________________ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 5, 2002 Report Share Posted February 5, 2002 AMEN< SISTER! Thanks, http://www.vitalady.com For info on PayPal, click this link: https://secure.paypal.com/affil/pal=vitalady%40bigfoot.com RE: more on rounding out > > I wrote yesterday about getting rounder and deciding I look > > OK at 5'8 " and 130 pounds. > > > > What I didn't mention is how absolutely terrified I have been > > that this is THE END of all good things and that I will wake > > up tomorrow morning at 260 once again. > > I definitely relate to this! I never figured that being at goal would be > scarier than getting there, but it is! Being in that precipitous place, > in the glow of success, where every other time in the past I have > hovered only momentarily before being violently thrust back into the > abyss of failure. Still waiting for the other shoe to drop... > > > M. > > --- > in Valrico, FL, age 39 > Lap DGB/DS by Dr. Rabkin 10/19/99 > Starting weight 299, now 153 > Starting BMI 49.7, now 25.5 > Starting size 26/28, now 10/12 > http://www.duodenalswitch.com/Patients/M/melaniem.html > > Direct replies: mailto:melanie@... > > > _________________________________________________________ > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 6, 2002 Report Share Posted February 6, 2002 Boy, am I hearing this!! I hardly had a moment to panic about the " too thinness " issue when I did a bit of bouncing...I watch that scale like a hawk...I went up 5 pounds I got the chair and the whip out and went down 5 pounds...it snuck back up 2 pounds...I have it down 1 lb...and it better be down that other pound in the next day or so. Now, will I round out at this rate? Will the bits of adiposity that remain in the hidden places under my clothes eventually find the sharp edges that show outside my clothes?? There's no way I'm going to make allowances for anything to get in extra...unless my body, like it used to, gets a mind of its own again and does it by itself. Now THAT is SCAREY!!!! I feel I am so in control with this tool...all I have to do is go back to post op behavior...which is what I'm doing 90% of the time anyway....so it's no biggy for me. I just cut the fruit and the extra little things...and go spartan for awhile. I figured that's how thin people do it..right? But, at this rate..will I round out...will I gain weight despite myself....?? How about it..you who have been there before me....am I worrying over nothing?? Regards Jacque > I definitely relate to this! I never figured that being at goal would be > scarier than getting there, but it is! Being in that precipitous place, > in the glow of success, where every other time in the past I have > hovered only momentarily before being violently thrust back into the > abyss of failure. Still waiting for the other shoe to drop... > > > M. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 6, 2002 Report Share Posted February 6, 2002 No, you are not worrying for nothing. Do I need to post The Peeps Incident again, lest you forget how little it takes to undo us? My disease is merely in remission. The moment I quit doing what I'm doing that makes it work, that is the moment it will no longer work. Signed, Ol' Stick in the Mud Thanks, http://www.vitalady.com For info on PayPal, click this link: https://secure.paypal.com/affil/pal=vitalady%40bigfoot.com Re: more on rounding out > Boy, am I hearing this!! I hardly had a moment to panic about the " too > thinness " issue when I did a bit of bouncing...I watch that scale like a > hawk...I went up 5 pounds I got the chair and the whip out and went down 5 > pounds...it snuck back up 2 pounds...I have it down 1 lb...and it better be > down that other pound in the next day or so. Now, will I round out at this > rate? Will the bits of adiposity that remain in the hidden places under my > clothes eventually find the sharp edges that show outside my clothes?? > There's no way I'm going to make allowances for anything to get in > extra...unless my body, like it used to, gets a mind of its own again and > does it by itself. Now THAT is SCAREY!!!! I feel I am so in control with > this tool...all I have to do is go back to post op behavior...which is what > I'm doing 90% of the time anyway....so it's no biggy for me. I just cut the > fruit and the extra little things...and go spartan for awhile. I figured > that's how thin people do it..right? But, at this rate..will I round > out...will I gain weight despite myself....?? How about it..you who have > been there before me....am I worrying over nothing?? > > Regards > > Jacque > > > I definitely relate to this! I never figured that being at goal would be > > scarier than getting there, but it is! Being in that precipitous place, > > in the glow of success, where every other time in the past I have > > hovered only momentarily before being violently thrust back into the > > abyss of failure. Still waiting for the other shoe to drop... > > > > > > M. > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 8, 2002 Report Share Posted February 8, 2002 Thanks ....so the whip and the chair stay out...it's all a matter of choice...I choose to make this surgery work! Even if I never round out. I see that is not going to be my worry, my worry is going to be keeping it off. I appreciate your sage advice..and with you behind me...I can't fail...right? =) Another round of protein drinks please.... Regards~ Jacque > No, you are not worrying for nothing. Do I need to post The Peeps Incident > again, lest you forget how little it takes to undo us? > > My disease is merely in remission. The moment I quit doing what I'm doing > that makes it work, that is the moment it will no longer work. > > Signed, > Ol' Stick in the Mud > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 8, 2002 Report Share Posted February 8, 2002 And, you poor thing, I am LITERALLY right behind YOU here. Scary, huh? I know many do not want that diet mentality and neither do I, so I focus on what I GET to do now, rather than what I choose NOT to do. As much as I loved milk, and my annual hot fudge sundae, given a choice, I'd MUCH rather give up milk & sugar than butter & mayo, all things considered. Thanks, http://www.vitalady.com For info on PayPal, click this link: https://secure.paypal.com/affil/pal=vitalady%40bigfoot.com Re: more on rounding out > Thanks ....so the whip and the chair stay out...it's all a matter of > choice...I choose to make this surgery work! Even if I never round out. I > see that is not going to be my worry, my worry is going to be keeping it off. > I appreciate your sage advice..and with you behind me...I can't > fail...right? =) Another round of protein drinks please.... > > Regards~ > > Jacque > > > > > No, you are not worrying for nothing. Do I need to post The Peeps Incident > > again, lest you forget how little it takes to undo us? > > > > My disease is merely in remission. The moment I quit doing what I'm doing > > that makes it work, that is the moment it will no longer work. > > > > Signed, > > Ol' Stick in the Mud > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 9, 2002 Report Share Posted February 9, 2002 Actually, I'd think it would be more SCAREY for you being that I'm liable to end up standing in your living room when you least expect me to be!! =) Actually...I love having you there...it's so nice to be able to swoop down for my chocolate, or my vitamins whenever I need it...such a luxury!! Yes, I totally agree. I am so far away from the diet mentality that I think that is what worries me sometimes. I so enjoy the little things that I do have. When I sit down and figure what I've eaten in a day...it's really laughable. This surgery works great for me...and the little things that I do enjoy...I do SO enjoy. When ever has such a little bit of something ever been SO satisfying? I'm actually looking forward to my little meals, and my protein drinks. At the same time, when I'm finished with them, I'm finished. It isn't a steady stream of what do I eat next? I guess being in such control is odd and wonderful, and I don't want it to stop. Guess that's what I'm fearing, that the day will come when either I will wake up out of control, or I will still have this wonderful control, and my body will take off on its own and start packing the pounds on despite what I do. Both nightmares of mine. So after hearing from different ones, I have come to the conclusion that it is all basically up to me...if I loosen up the reigns...I will put on the weight. If I don't, I won't. My body only has now until I die to get the best of me...so I guess time will tell who wins..right? Regards~ Jacque > And, you poor thing, I am LITERALLY right behind YOU here. Scary, huh? > > I know many do not want that diet mentality and neither do I, so I focus on > what I GET to do now, rather than what I choose NOT to do. As much as I > loved milk, and my annual hot fudge sundae, given a choice, I'd MUCH rather > give up milk & sugar than butter & mayo, all things considered. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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