Fat whole life & adjusting to TT

January 22, 2002

Hi gang,

I echo the sentiments in the posts re: being fat my whole life. But

when I think about all the lost time I tend to think of it in terms

of the reasons why I got MO in the first place. What if this, what

if that. But like someone said, you can't mourn the person you

could/should have been forever. Mostly I am happy to be able to move

again - breath, bend over to tie my shoes, walk up more than one

flight of stairs, even exercise!

One of the things I struggle with is having a figure for the first

time in my life. I can't hide behind my belly after hernia/panni

11/15. My chest actually sticks out! I was still getting used to my

new body and now it's even harder. People actually comment now.

Before at nearly 400 lbs I got all kinds of attention. You know, the

gawks, the snickers etc but never verbalized, at least not to my

face. Now, just when I think I'm beginning to look normal (my

husband says I'm harder to pick out in a crowd!) I get commentary

that I don't know how to handle graciously when the situation calls

for it. I mostly want to shrivel up and hide.

Anyone else?

Diane

January 22, 2002

dgos522 dgskean@...> wrote:

I can't hide behind my belly after hernia/panni

11/15. My chest actually sticks out! I was still getting used to my

new body and now it's even harder. People actually comment now.

Diane,

I'm waiting for my hernia/panniculectomy/abdominoplasty date, and this has been

a major concern of mine. When I first started losing weight, I LOVED the

comments I got...I LOVED the attention...I loved it all, but now I'm terrified

of not having my shield anymore. What will I hide behind? I get more attention

from men at 250 pounds with a huge panni then I ever have in my life, even when

I was younger and smaller, and there are times when I struggle with it. I'm

scared that it will only get worse when I have a " better " body. And the journey

continues.

5/7/99 - 458 lbs.

Current Weight - 250 lbs. (and losing again!)

http://hometown.aol.com/lauralee5799/index.html

I'm preparing for panniculectomy, abdominoplasty and mastopexy. Awaiting

insurance approval....ugh!

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January 22, 2002

In a message dated Tue, 22 Jan 2002 11:20:31 AM Eastern Standard Time, " dgos522 "

dgskean@...> writes:

> Now, just when I think I'm beginning to look normal (my

> husband says I'm harder to pick out in a crowd!) I get commentary

> that I don't know how to handle graciously when the situation calls

> for it. I mostly want to shrivel up and hide.

>

> Anyone else?

>

> Diane

>

Let me tell you Diane, as awkward as it sometimes was at first, I am LOVING the

compliments. All of them. From friends, colleagues, family, whomever. This is

stuff I never heard before... and while I am definitely no " head turner " or as

my friend calls some women, " top shelf, " it is nice to look and feel good about

my looks -- and remember this is my first time experiencing that.

se

January 22, 2002

Yes, I can really relate. I have a nice looking body now, and people

comment on it ALL THE TIME. It's flattering, but after being so

self-conscious about my body for 20+ years...it makes me feel so awkward!

Even women are constantly complimenting my figure, and that is just weird to

me! I don't go up to people and go " wow, look how small your waist is! " or

" look how flat your tummy is! " (I had a TT). Or even " hey, you're smaller

than ME! "

I'm still trying to adjust to this. I feel like I don't have a true picture

of how I look, and I don't know how to handle all the comments. Usually I

just smile and say thank you, but it still unnerves me. Especially people

who EVERY TIME THEY SEE ME comment on my size. Once would be enough,

thanks!

However, I want to add that I *DO* want my hubby to comment ALL the time.

On EVERY outfit! That poor guy! I want HIM to gush over me all the

time! LOL.

~Amy

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Amy S. Poe

MGB 5/22/2000 Dr. Rutledge

was 285 * now 154 * Size 10 * 5'8 " tall * very grateful!