One cookie?

January 11, 2002

Subject: Re: One cookie?

Hi All,

I won't go into the yeah or nay about one cookie leading to two cookies

until we find we can eat half a box of cookies -- because (IMO only) that's

what would happen to me. Realizing though that everyone is different I think

the one cookie idea is dangerous for me -- chocolate is worse as almost as

soon as I begin tasting it -- it sets off a series of cravings for " more of

the same.... " But, that's just me. :-) So, obviously, one cookie is not ok

and it will never be ok for me. I don't mind though -- my butt fits on the

slide at the park so I can go down it with my 4 year old and that is what is

important to me today. The satisfaction of a cookie can never equal the

satisfaction of my little girl and me sliding down that slide together.

What I do wonder about in WLS people who have a small pouch (realizing all

surgeries are different) but for those of us with a " limited " amount of

space why WHY would we want to use any of that space for something that is

not nutritional, not helpful to our health, not high in vitamins, minerals

or something " good " for us?

When I look at the size of a cookie (and I do think about them from time

to time...) I think to myself how many green beans could fill that empty

space in my pouch that would be equal to the size of that cookie -- or how

much of an apple would be equal in size to put in my pouch -- This is MY

pouch, it is small and limited so why would I put something in it that isn't

a nutritionally sound choice?

I have two important (to me) pictures on my fridge in plain sight as a

daily reminder -- one is a picture of me sliding down the slide with my

little girl whose expression is worth a thousand cookies and the other is a

life sized diagram of my pouch -- when I " think " about a cookie or similar

food all I have to do is take one, hold it up to the pouch drawing and look

at how much " available space " it takes up -- then I can logically (if not in

my heart at the moment... and many times it isn't) I can " see " how much

available room that cookie is going to take up and head for a protein bar

instead.

It works for me so I thought I'd share it. My last resort, failing the

picture of the slide, failing the size of my pouch -- if I do decide I " AM "

going to have that cookie, bite of pie, sliver of chocolate -- the rule I've

made for myself is that if I am going to eat it then I must eat it standing

naked, in front of a full length mirror in my bed room -- if that doesn't

stop me then I deserve my old body back.

I am not a normal person regardless of how normal I look on the outside --

I am a morbidly obese person living inside a thin body and I will never be a

normal person... but, that's just me ~smile~

hugz to all,

~denise

http://www.geocities.com/wls_denise/

January 11, 2002

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That's certainly the $64,000 question! I don't have a pouch (my surgery was the

DS), but when I am binging, I have the above conversation with myself. Binging

is an odd frame of mind, and it is very definitely a psychological issue. I

don't binge often, but when it happens, both pre-op and post-op it's very odd.

I know what's right, what's healthy, what's good, what the consequences are - I

list them - and weigh them against the limited pleasure a cookie, bowl of

cereal, or candy bar is going to provide. Sometimes the healthy thinking wins,

sometimes the the binge thinking wins.

Fortunately, one of the gifts of this surgery is that my binge is much less than

it once was, and part of that food is never absorbed, so the damage is not what

it was. But...it's always out there, waiting.

Kate

January 11, 2002

Those are all so cute. They'd probably work too. I'd either be nice

if it was a normal day and say something kind but if they caught me

at the PMS time then I'd probably say.

What are you, deaf, what part of NO didn't you understand for

crying out loud!? Geesh some people

and they leave you alone and walk very quietly away.

can you believe I still have some friends. haha

Ramoth

>

> In a message dated 1/10/02 7:02:17 PM, Graduate-OSSG@y... writes:

>

> << If anyone has any Ann

> Landers type responses to those folks I'd love to hear them. >>

>

> Try these:

>

> I am sorry, I cannot eat that, last time I did it turned my feet

orange and

> scaly.

>

> I am sorry, I can only eat this and not that, or else I will wind

up in the

> ER again like last time.

>

> I am sorry, I just ate and tend to throw up if I eat more.

>

> I am sorry, that looks delicious, but I am allergic to that. I wish

I wasn't.

> Thank you so much for thinking of me.

>

> I am sorry, but I never eat Sauteed squirrel, it is against my

religion.

>

> I am sorry, the ingredients in that interfere with my medications.

>

> I am sorry, you guys go ahead and enjoy yourself, but I have

doctor's orders

> to refrain from that

> --until they run my next blood panels,

> ---measure my IQ finally,

> --find out what is wrong with my cramping;

> --find out why I am peeing green polka dots.

>

> I am sorry, but doctor's orders are to only eat quail eggs and

orange juice

> with taco flavoring.

>

> I would love to indulge, but I will feast on your creation with my

eyes only.

> Come here, and let me kiss you for being so nice.

>

> love,

> ceep landers (the third sister)

January 11, 2002

Loved it!!! You are too funny!