anjil's GOOD NEWS ATT: ANGEL JILL MANNING

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In a message dated 2/3/2004 2:54:16 PM Eastern Standard Time,

anjiltoes@... writes:

thank you again, all my CEDAngels, for your support & understanding during my

little meltdown last yr. you're all SOOOO amazing. i can't tell you how

much you all mean to me. sometimes you're so low, you feel like you'll rub

off

on everyone else if you stay around. i know that sounds really dumb, but

that's how i felt.

love & anjil hugs () : )

jil xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Hey you! I think you should get a psych eval.! You're nutso. You thought

you would be " rubbing stuff on US " & that wouldn't be nice? My dear sweetest

angel, you are the angel of ALL angels. And I can understand that you were

having a really rough time, but that's why this list is here. And of all

people,

you, yes you, yes you, you, you, have " been there " for sooooooooooooooo many

people. If you don't think we're all going to be happy to help you & be with

you & help you through whatever you need, whenever, however, for whatever,

then it's a really good thing that your stuff went through, because I think you

" lost it " for a bit. This is US. Remember? The ones; who are always here for

each other. And even if you hadn't been or never had been involved it the

list (which is as far from reality as one could get), you still would be greeted

with open arms & taken in & supported & helped & well...... you name it!

Jilly, we love you & though I truly feel that I know some of what you may have

been feeling, because I truly believe that no one can truly ever say that they

" know exactly " how someone else is feeling, but who could know & understand

more than us??? So, actually to be honest, now I feel somewhat remiss that I've

been so snowed under with all the medical stuff that I've been dealing with

personally for the past year or so, which surely hasn't stopped (more on that

when I get some sleep) that I'm thinking that I surely should have realized that

you haven't really been around a lot & there had to be a reason for that & I

should have been in touch with you. But I guess we just all have " those

times " from time to time, that we feel that we just need to draw into ourselves

&

we really can't, in a way, reach out & and say something. And, even though

that actually may be the worst thing we could be doing to & for ourselves, I

think we're all entitled to take that time, from time to time & if we want &

need

to, just cry for days & days. It really gets to me sometimes when people say

to me something like, " Gosh, you look so great, I don't know how you do it,

you always seem so positive & upbeat & you always go out dressed nicely, hair &

makeup done, etc. " But honest, I tell them that. " yes I do that, but from

time to time, I " have my moments " and they're not pretty & believe me, you don't

want to be within a thousand miles from me when I'm like that!!!!! " And, I

feel that we are entitled to have those times. No one can be all smiles all the

time & just continue on with life as though it's all just peachy & we can

take whatever we're given & still come out looking & smiling like roses. No, we

all deserve it & are more than entitled to those times that we just crawl

under the covers & don't come out for days or just withdraw from the world in

general & curl up in almost a fetal position, just as long as it doesn't go on &

on & on. Then it gets into the range where you truly aren't in a healthy

state. But just plain old " down " for a while? That's another story.

At any rate, I'm happy to know that you are back with us & hope the

" cheery sweet as sugar Jill " that we all know & love is back & that your real

difficult times are gone now. One thing that I surely accurately perhaps really

say, is that " i know how you feel, " in this case. It's like an amazing calm,

relief & perhaps security, that I felt when my SSDI & then Worker's Comp. came

through. Well, baby, it's waaaaay past bedtime & I also am now adding a bit.

Somehow this got lost & never got sent & is quite after the fact. But know

that I always carry you in my heart & you're never far away. Luv You much &

promise to catch up more soon, Love,

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I think that sums it all up really well, ! I too, welcome back

our Angel Anjil! We've missed you Jilly!

Love Lana