Re: This is so cool!

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Hey Donna I just happen to stumble in here too. I never knew something like this even existed, but the more I read the posts here the more I convinced that all the guilt trips AA drops on us is truely a crock of shit. I've been sober for 17 months now without attending meetings. I was in a group therapy thing for a while, and even though it was not AA oriented, all the people in the group were AA'ers. Me being so dead set against AA and all their shit led to many a fun night for me arguing my points against AA. They all liked to shit when i told them I still go to the bars and socialize with "normal folk" and then I iced the cake when I told them I drink O'Doule's. I only wish I had y'all with me in group to even up the sides but I survived and I'm done with that crap too. Jim This is so cool! I cant tell you how great it feels to find people who think the way I doabout the program. I have been in AA since 1987 (well, 86, then I"relapsed") In Feb I will have 15 years sober. I havent been to a meetingfor over 3 years, maybe 4. I just thought I was alone, or there wassomething wrong with me that I couldnt stand them any longer! UGH! I justcant watch another asshole run off at the mouth talking about how spiritualhe is, and what spiritual awakenings he has had & then after the meetingwatch him 13th stepping some newcomer. Man, there are some sick F---s inthose meetings!I also agree with whoever said that one of the things I hated about AA wastheir anti-intellectualism! Dammit, why was I given this brain if I am notallowed to use it? I cant live my live out of a 164 page rule book...thingsare too complicated for that!I realize now, that I never *really* felt happy until I left those rooms & started living a life, and meeting people who were NOT from those rooms! Idont know about drinking. I dont know if I will or not. I started AA when Iwas very young....22, I dont know what that means, or if it matters. I havedebated this issue for some time now. But I guess right now I dont reallywant to chance my life for a drink. It is not that important that I *know*whether I am an alcoholic of not. I really can live without a drink, so whybother pushing the issue...does that make sense? Though sometimes, I admit,I do get curious.Anyway, I just had to let you all know how much I appreciate your honesty,candidness, and your humor!!! lolTHanks!Donna