Re: [OSSG-MA-NewEngland] Grumble Grumble, too much sugar, or something

[Guest guest]

It's funny, At 3 yrs post op I really learned how to

*out eat* the surgery, exactly as what was

posted....grazing all day on carbs and adding back

sugar, getting basically lazy and finding excuses not

to exercise (I have 2 kids, I work full time and have

to commute to work, I have to be to work early, I

don't have money, I don't have time, I'm too tired,

yadda yadda yadda)

But, after regaining 64 lbs by my 5yr follow up it

finally hit me hard that I was failing the surgery,

not that the surgery failed me..

You see, in the past, I went on a diet to lose weight

so I could eat again.....

I treated surgery this way too, lose wt, get healthy

and be allowed to eat again, not binge but eat what I

wanted. WRONG!!!!! I learned the hard way that I had

to change the way I lived my life. I got down to

242lbs before the regain. I was SMO.....BMI of 73,

463 lbs...yep....that's me...

I wanted to hear that there was mechanical failure. I

wanted a more distal procedure but my surgeon said let

us help you. Her answer was to see me every 6 months

for the next 2 yrs. I had to do my part....

Guess what, I found the time to get that exercise in

.....not 3 or 4 days a week but 7 days. I still go

every single day......I get my 80+ ounces of water in

most of the time, I now stay away from the foods that

cause me to crave, I eat protein first then veggies, I

got rid of the diet soda (the other carb LOL) because

it is an old binge food for me, I take my supplements.

Now, the odds were against me at 5 yrs out, my

*window* was closed and I thought I was doomed to be

an obese person, healthy but obese. Wrong again (BG),

Today I am maintaining between 185 and 195. My goal

was set by my surgeon back in 1994 at 185. I never

thought I would get there, I just wanted to be

1anything. I never thought I would be wearing a size

medium blouse or a 14 pant.....who woulda thunk a

woman coming from a 54FF bra would get to a 36 D????

Not Me....

My final take is that food no longer controls my life.

I don't have the obsession right now BUT I know it

is only locked up, not gone forever, just like the

278lbs are NOT GONE FOREVER, they are just held a bay.

I believe I have a disease, a food addiction, my body

reacts differently. (Those freakin Dunkin Donuts

commercials are really irritating me, why do I start

salivating when those come on????YEESH)

I choose today to not eat certain foods. Am I

dieting?????Well, considering that your daily food

intake is considered your daily diet, I guess I am.

All I know is that for today I choose not to eat

certain foods or drink certain beverages. AS a result

my body rewards me by being healthy. My psyche

rewards me by having that sense of accomplishment and

well being. And I am easier to talk to, more loving

to my family, less moody and yadda yadda yadda.

To sum this up, I had to take responsibility for what

I do on a daily basis with everything. That means I

can't blame the surgery, the surgeon for not bypassing

more, the nutritionist, my husband for bringing the

food into the house, my kids for not listening to

me...I had to be responsible for what I choose to eat.

does it help, yeah, I believe so.

Okay off my soapbox. sorry for the rambling.

Hugs

rita in vermont

OPen Proximal rny (50cm bypassed)3/31/94 463 lbs

Today 185 lbs and holding (well up and down 10 lbs

give or take a gallon of water)

http://www.obesityhelp.com/morbidobesity/profile.phtml?N=Weisburgh927157563

While the surgery

> provides us with an

> > anatomical alteration that PREVENTS gorging, it is

> entirely possible to

> > " eat around the pouch " . Roseanne Barr has talked

> about that and admits to

> > doing that herself. She does what I do: grazing. I

> don't eat more than any

> > other WLS patient 2 years out AT A MEAL, but I

> nibble here and there, and

> > at the end of the day, the caloric intake adds up.

>

The more you

> > weigh, the heavier your bones, the more dense your

> muscles, and the longer

> > you are SMO, the harder it is to turn your

> metabolism around. However it

> > isn't IMPOSSIBLE! I'm not a size

> 12, or an 8 or a 4, and

> > may never be, but I'm so much healthier now, and

> that's what this is really

> > all about, right? >>>.

> >

> >

>

> Re Food addiction Eating disorder...Sometimes I

> think its the same thing,

> just different words.

>

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[Guest guest]

Rita,

Feel free to rant ANYTIME! You are my inspiration, and I can't hear what you're

saying too many times. I have to constantly be reminded that the surgery is

JUST A TOOL!! I haven't had any regain (thank God), but I leveled off at around

250 pounds...I just sorta stopped losing and started maintaining. I should be

happy, right? After all, I lost 200 pounds...I'm healthy...I look better, etc.,

etc. Well, I am happy...but I want MORE. Like you said, I just wanna be

1-anything. I took a page from your book and cut out carbs, started pushing

protein and water, and (ugh) exercising. Guess what? I'm losing again, and I

feel so much better. I can't tell a huge difference physically yet, but I feel

like a new person emotionally. Thank you, thank you, thank you for sharing your

experience with such grace and candidness (is that even a word?) I appreciate

you!

Rita Weisburgh vt_rita@...> wrote: It's funny, At 3 yrs post op I

really learned how to

*out eat* the surgery, exactly as what was

posted....grazing all day on carbs and adding back

sugar, getting basically lazy and finding excuses not

to exercise (I have 2 kids, I work full time and have

to commute to work, I have to be to work early, I

don't have money, I don't have time, I'm too tired,

yadda yadda yadda)

But, after regaining 64 lbs by my 5yr follow up it

finally hit me hard that I was failing the surgery,

not that the surgery failed me..

You see, in the past, I went on a diet to lose weight

so I could eat again.....

I treated surgery this way too, lose wt, get healthy

and be allowed to eat again, not binge but eat what I

wanted. WRONG!!!!! I learned the hard way that I had

to change the way I lived my life. I got down to

242lbs before the regain. I was SMO.....BMI of 73,

463 lbs...yep....that's me...

I wanted to hear that there was mechanical failure. I

wanted a more distal procedure but my surgeon said let

us help you. Her answer was to see me every 6 months

for the next 2 yrs. I had to do my part....

Guess what, I found the time to get that exercise in

.....not 3 or 4 days a week but 7 days. I still go

every single day......I get my 80+ ounces of water in

most of the time, I now stay away from the foods that

cause me to crave, I eat protein first then veggies, I

got rid of the diet soda (the other carb LOL) because

it is an old binge food for me, I take my supplements.

Now, the odds were against me at 5 yrs out, my

*window* was closed and I thought I was doomed to be

an obese person, healthy but obese. Wrong again (BG),

Today I am maintaining between 185 and 195. My goal

was set by my surgeon back in 1994 at 185. I never

thought I would get there, I just wanted to be

1anything. I never thought I would be wearing a size

medium blouse or a 14 pant.....who woulda thunk a

woman coming from a 54FF bra would get to a 36 D????

Not Me....

My final take is that food no longer controls my life.

I don't have the obsession right now BUT I know it

is only locked up, not gone forever, just like the

278lbs are NOT GONE FOREVER, they are just held a bay.

I believe I have a disease, a food addiction, my body

reacts differently. (Those freakin Dunkin Donuts

commercials are really irritating me, why do I start

salivating when those come on????YEESH)

I choose today to not eat certain foods. Am I

dieting?????Well, considering that your daily food

intake is considered your daily diet, I guess I am.

All I know is that for today I choose not to eat

certain foods or drink certain beverages. AS a result

my body rewards me by being healthy. My psyche

rewards me by having that sense of accomplishment and

well being. And I am easier to talk to, more loving

to my family, less moody and yadda yadda yadda.

To sum this up, I had to take responsibility for what

I do on a daily basis with everything. That means I

can't blame the surgery, the surgeon for not bypassing

more, the nutritionist, my husband for bringing the

food into the house, my kids for not listening to

me...I had to be responsible for what I choose to eat.

does it help, yeah, I believe so.

Okay off my soapbox. sorry for the rambling.

Hugs

rita in vermont

OPen Proximal rny (50cm bypassed)3/31/94 463 lbs

Today 185 lbs and holding (well up and down 10 lbs

give or take a gallon of water)

http://www.obesityhelp.com/morbidobesity/profile.phtml?N=Weisburgh927157563

While the surgery

> provides us with an

> > anatomical alteration that PREVENTS gorging, it is

> entirely possible to

> > " eat around the pouch " . Roseanne Barr has talked

> about that and admits to

> > doing that herself. She does what I do: grazing. I

> don't eat more than any

> > other WLS patient 2 years out AT A MEAL, but I

> nibble here and there, and

> > at the end of the day, the caloric intake adds up.

>

The more you

> > weigh, the heavier your bones, the more dense your

> muscles, and the longer

> > you are SMO, the harder it is to turn your

> metabolism around. However it

> > isn't IMPOSSIBLE! I'm not a size

> 12, or an 8 or a 4, and

> > may never be, but I'm so much healthier now, and

> that's what this is really

> > all about, right? >>>.

> >

> >

>

> Re Food addiction Eating disorder...Sometimes I

> think its the same thing,

> just different words.

>

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