Re: To Jo and the Group

[Guest guest]

Everyone,

I've been struggling for a while now with a decision and I know I've made the right one....for now Jo, I'm asking to go on no mail, I need to take a "leave of absence" from the group. I don't want anyone to take this personally, it has nothing to do with anyone in the group, it has to do with me. I never have time or energy to read posts and it is just not fair to anyone to continue right now. I feel terrible that you all take the time to write back to me and give me advice and support, and most of the time I respond days if not weeks later, or I miss it because I had to delete everything and didn't catch it. I just can't keep doing it to all of you, you deserve better and it also makes me feel terrible and stressed. Every night I try to come online and get through the mail and I can't, and then I feel guilty, and I delete them all and tell myself I'll do better, and then it starts all over again. Right now with work and my body falling apart, and physical therapy and doctor appointments...I just have no energy left for this group, I'm sorry and I wish things were different.

I think it was Jai who said recently that she envies those of us who are still working and still have our independence. Well I want to say that yes, I hope all of you can gain back your independence, but please make sure it is worth it. If keeping your independence means the only thing you can manage to do in a day is work, when you can't cook dinner for yourself or clean for yourself, if you can't spend some time to talk with your friends and participate in this group...if having your independence means going through all of this alone...well trust me, it is not worth it.

To be honest, alot of the time I envy all of you who are not working and are concentrating on getting better. I envy all of you who have the time to help others, talk to others and give advice, help all the new people who join the group who are scared, all of you who are trying to make the public aware with interviews, all of you who are putting your energy towards fighting this horrible disease....you are all doing a much greater job then how I spend my time...pricing a bunch of wine. I don't know, I know it is hard for all of you who have stopped working and can't drive and have to rely on others....but be thankful you have others there to help and know that what you are all doing is awesome.

Well that's about it really. I will miss all of you and I love every one in this group. Some of you I have gotten to know better than others, but that happens in any aspect of life. I can honestly say there is not one person in here who I say to myself...ugh, I can't stand talking to so and so. You are all wonderful, caring people and I pray that each of you can find a new purpose in life, happiness, and most of all a pain free world.

If anyone would like to continue to write to me privately my address is AlwayzLori@..., and I promise I will try my best to respond in a reasonable amount of time. Much love to all of you and keep up the fight. Hopefully if my life takes a different turn I will be able to come back to the group and give of myself the way all of you do.

<hugs> Lori

[Guest guest]

Lori, You are such a strong supporter in this wonderful group of people. You will be missed until your return. You just take care of you right now and know that we will still be here when you are ready to come back. Lots of love and prayers are being sent your way. Gentle hugs to you, Faith (this also went privately to Lori)

Everyone, >I've been struggling for a while now with a decision and I know I've made >the right one....for now Jo, I'm asking to go on no mail, I need to take a >"leave of absence" from the group. I don't want anyone to take this personally, >it has nothing to do with anyone in the group, it has to do with me. I never >have time or energy to read posts and it is just not fair to anyone to >continue right now. I feel terrible that you all take the time to write back to me >and give me advice and support, and most of the time I respond days if not >weeks later, or I miss it because I had to delete everything and didn't catch >it. I just can't keep doing it to all of you, you deserve better and it also >makes me feel terrible and stressed. Every night I try to come online and get >through the mail and I can't, and then I feel guilty, and I delete them all >and tell myself I'll do better, and then it starts all over again. Right now >with work and my body falling apart, and physical therapy and doctor >appointments...I just have no energy left for this group, I'm sorry and I wish things >were different. >I think it was Jai who said recently that she envies those of us who are >still working and still have our independence. Well I want to say that yes, I >hope all of you can gain back your independence, but please make sure it is >worth it. If keeping your independence means the only thing you can manage to do >in a day is work, when you can't cook dinner for yourself or clean for >yourself, if you can't spend some time to talk with your friends and participate >in this group...if having your independence means going through all of this >alone...well trust me, it is not worth it. >To be honest, alot of the time I envy all of you who are not working and are >concentrating on getting better. I envy all of you who have the time to help >others, talk to others and give advice, help all the new people who join the >group who are scared, all of you who are trying to make the public aware >with interviews, all of you who are putting your energy towards fighting this >horrible disease....you are all doing a much greater job then how I spend my >time...pricing a bunch of wine. I don't know, I know it is hard for all of you >who have stopped working and can't drive and have to rely on others....but be >thankful you have others there to help and know that what you are all doing >is awesome. >Well that's about it really. I will miss all of you and I love every one in >this group. Some of you I have gotten to know better than others, but that >happens in any aspect of life. I can honestly say there is not one person in >here who I say to myself...ugh, I can't stand talking to so and so. You are all >wonderful, caring people and I pray that each of you can find a new purpose >in life, happiness, and most of all a pain free world. >If anyone would like to continue to write to me privately my address is >_AlwayzLori@..._ (mailto:AlwayzLori@...) , and I promise I will try my >best to respond in a reasonable amount of time. Much love to all of you and >keep up the fight. Hopefully if my life takes a different turn I will be able to >come back to the group and give of myself the way all of you do. ><hugs> Lori

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[Guest guest]

Lori, You are such a strong supporter in this wonderful group of people. You will be missed until your return. You just take care of you right now and know that we will still be here when you are ready to come back. Lots of love and prayers are being sent your way. Gentle hugs to you, Faith (this also went privately to Lori)

Everyone, >I've been struggling for a while now with a decision and I know I've made >the right one....for now Jo, I'm asking to go on no mail, I need to take a >"leave of absence" from the group. I don't want anyone to take this personally, >it has nothing to do with anyone in the group, it has to do with me. I never >have time or energy to read posts and it is just not fair to anyone to >continue right now. I feel terrible that you all take the time to write back to me >and give me advice and support, and most of the time I respond days if not >weeks later, or I miss it because I had to delete everything and didn't catch >it. I just can't keep doing it to all of you, you deserve better and it also >makes me feel terrible and stressed. Every night I try to come online and get >through the mail and I can't, and then I feel guilty, and I delete them all >and tell myself I'll do better, and then it starts all over again. Right now >with work and my body falling apart, and physical therapy and doctor >appointments...I just have no energy left for this group, I'm sorry and I wish things >were different. >I think it was Jai who said recently that she envies those of us who are >still working and still have our independence. Well I want to say that yes, I >hope all of you can gain back your independence, but please make sure it is >worth it. If keeping your independence means the only thing you can manage to do >in a day is work, when you can't cook dinner for yourself or clean for >yourself, if you can't spend some time to talk with your friends and participate >in this group...if having your independence means going through all of this >alone...well trust me, it is not worth it. >To be honest, alot of the time I envy all of you who are not working and are >concentrating on getting better. I envy all of you who have the time to help >others, talk to others and give advice, help all the new people who join the >group who are scared, all of you who are trying to make the public aware >with interviews, all of you who are putting your energy towards fighting this >horrible disease....you are all doing a much greater job then how I spend my >time...pricing a bunch of wine. I don't know, I know it is hard for all of you >who have stopped working and can't drive and have to rely on others....but be >thankful you have others there to help and know that what you are all doing >is awesome. >Well that's about it really. I will miss all of you and I love every one in >this group. Some of you I have gotten to know better than others, but that >happens in any aspect of life. I can honestly say there is not one person in >here who I say to myself...ugh, I can't stand talking to so and so. You are all >wonderful, caring people and I pray that each of you can find a new purpose >in life, happiness, and most of all a pain free world. >If anyone would like to continue to write to me privately my address is >_AlwayzLori@..._ (mailto:AlwayzLori@...) , and I promise I will try my >best to respond in a reasonable amount of time. Much love to all of you and >keep up the fight. Hopefully if my life takes a different turn I will be able to >come back to the group and give of myself the way all of you do. ><hugs> Lori

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