Re: Autumn I don't know what's worse sometimes!

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Autumn,

I know this is late. Sorry been a bit busy with Niki and Arturo here.

Trying to get through some old e-mails now and getting back to

business. I just wanted to reply to this. I hope you are feeling better

now. Sweetie, don't be so hard on yourself! You are undertaking a huge

deal and it takes time to change habits. Just take it one day at a

time. You can do it! There will be good days and bad days but as long

as you keep trying, you will get there. Like you, I have gained the

last few weeks too. I'm about 220 now! Yikes!!! But it is a new year,

new beginnings. What's done is done. Just look forward now. We can do

this!!!! Happy new year to ya!

Hugs,

Gena

>

> Ugh, I'm getting digusted with myself.  It seems like 30lbs is all I

> can

> ever lose at a time.  I know I've gained since Thanksgiving, I just

> refuse to check at the moment.  I know I have a little bit of a valid

> excuse (the cutting way back on smokes), but still, this is not what I

> wanted to happen.  I estimate I have gained 5-7 lbs.  I just *feel* it

> in

> my clothes.  So what do I do yesterday and today?  Smoked more.  Yup. 

> I

> was down to 5/day, (from 45+/day) and yesterday I had 11.  Today I've

> had

> 8 so far.  I'm trying the straws, gum, water, trying to take my mind

> off

> of it, making calls, taking a walk, bathing the dog, etc. etc.  It's

> going to be a doubly-rough battle doing this at the same time as trying

> to lose weight and deal with the PCOS.  Oh well, I guess I'll

> persevere,

> and then I'll have my two worst health risks eliminated, right?  What's

> worse-being fat or reeking of smoke?  I guess being fat *and* reeking

> of

> smoke! Oy!!  Pray for your poor, anxious cheerleader, whose shine is

> off

> her pom-poms.  Or something like that.

>

> At least I got a bit of good news today.  Hubby's boss gave him a $700

> bonus for his work on a  recent project so we have a bit more trip

> money

> than we thought we would.

>

> Hugs,

> Autumn

>