short term memory/stress/new directions

[Guest guest]

This is certainly a relevant topic for me.

As I have been under alot of stress in my job lately, my memory

has gotten worse. Stress is really knocking me back in the recovery

process. At 8 months post op, I feel that I should be further ahead.

So, this is promting a major change for me. I am resigning

from my job. I am on vacation this week. We did not travel to

Maine this year because I just am not physically up to it.

I plan to deliver my letter tomarrow, since I need to deliver a

veil. (I work for a bridal shop). I plan to continue working at home,

designing bridal headpieces and jewelry. Since I won't be working

full time, this should free up time to develop my own business further.

I already have 2 shops in addition to the shop I worked for. Working

for myself, I can rest when I need, take a break when I need. I won't

be bending over, lifting over my head, and all sorts of other activity

that I had to do that was contradictory to chiari.

I am sad to leave a part of my profession that I loved so much. But, life

is like a river, it moves on to new places. I have the support of my

family, and friends, who feel that I should have taken this step

long before. I am also going to apply for disability. I do not expect

to get it, because of my home business, but it won't hurt to try!

So dear friends, some times we need to change direction and focus

to promote healing. I tried for 6 months to work full time. Now its time

to make a change for me.

Betsy P

Marietta, PA

acm 25mm, sm, ptc, herniated disc

decompression 10/24/02

new life begins July 20, 2002

[Guest guest]

Betsy,

Your letter touched me. I was in your position back in March. I cried when

I gave my resigination letter. The job that I did was one that I not only

enjoyed, but I worked under an understanding supervisor who, through the

years has also become a dear friend. I still keep in touch with everyone

and am doing things here and there for the company (the exec. director

wouldn't accept my letter). I wish you the best of luck

Hugs

in PA

short term memory/stress/new directions

> This is certainly a relevant topic for me.

> As I have been under alot of stress in my job lately, my memory

> has gotten worse. Stress is really knocking me back in the recovery

> process. At 8 months post op, I feel that I should be further ahead.

>

> So, this is promting a major change for me. I am resigning

> from my job. I am on vacation this week. We did not travel to

> Maine this year because I just am not physically up to it.

>

> I plan to deliver my letter tomarrow, since I need to deliver a

> veil. (I work for a bridal shop). I plan to continue working at home,

> designing bridal headpieces and jewelry. Since I won't be working

> full time, this should free up time to develop my own business further.

>

> I already have 2 shops in addition to the shop I worked for. Working

> for myself, I can rest when I need, take a break when I need. I won't

> be bending over, lifting over my head, and all sorts of other activity

> that I had to do that was contradictory to chiari.

>

> I am sad to leave a part of my profession that I loved so much. But, life

> is like a river, it moves on to new places. I have the support of my

> family, and friends, who feel that I should have taken this step

> long before. I am also going to apply for disability. I do not expect

> to get it, because of my home business, but it won't hurt to try!

>

> So dear friends, some times we need to change direction and focus

> to promote healing. I tried for 6 months to work full time. Now its time

> to make a change for me.

>

> Betsy P

> Marietta, PA

> acm 25mm, sm, ptc, herniated disc

> decompression 10/24/02

> new life begins July 20, 2002

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Yes, it is that we are knocked down, but get back up again and again. No

matter how many times we fall down. We must just get back up. You can lay

there and die too. I tried that a few times too.

I had to loose a very prestigious 14 year career as a nurse with lots of

bigbucks pay. I felt worthless, and like I did not hold up my end of the

deal after so many years of college.

I have not gotten disability yet either at present. They really drag us

through it for that. I am trying though. I know working makes me worse. I

tried. and tried. and tried. And, then at the crossroads made a decision

too to start a new life.

I suggest you find purpose and meaning, worth that involves family. I

homeschool. There is a lot of other things to do too. Home businesses.

Why not since I am home now. I would like to start a home business. I

have not been able to do that yet though, but I feel better staying home.

I don't like the government telling me to work when I feel that it makes

me worse to even try. And, then add the mental distress of trying to get

disability on top of my illness. I struggled, had very low self esteem

and felt humiliated for about a year trying to make this decision.

I have not worked in almost 3 years now. And, I finally am feeling good

about myself again. I could not work if I had to now. Not even by my

shear will now. Which is how I worked the last couple years anyway.

I had to get over the guilt and shame of feeling worthless, being defined

by my job. I am defined now first by God, then as a wife and a mother. It

is a good place for me to be around those who love me and help me cope

with each day as a chiarian and a person with chronic disorders. I am not

my diagnosis. But, my diagnosis defines limits within my life that I can

come to terms with finally. It is a hard reality pill to swallow, a hard

place to get to. Comfort within again.

I still struggle even this week as I fill out more disability papers. I

hope you all do what you feel is best for you in the long run. Think of

what you will be like, what years you have and how you can spend the day

each day as best you can. Sometimes we have to just get through a day

without pain. The stress of a job is just too much.

I better get to sleep, I woke up to visit the bathroom, you know us

women, and I read the e-mails. Have 70 and I just want to talk now. Oh,

yeah, did I not mention that other little disorder attached to most of

us. Sleep disorders. Big time, up all night, or sleeping too much. Never

can get a rhythm. And, they expect us to be rested for a days work. Ug.

I'm tired just thinking. I may sleep now!

Talk to you all later, praying and thinking of you all daily,

in Ala.

On Mon, 1 Jul 2002 08:14:07 -0400 " & Ronca "

writes:

> Betsy,

> Your letter touched me. I was in your position back in March. I

> cried when

> I gave my resigination letter. The job that I did was one that I

> not only

> enjoyed, but I worked under an understanding supervisor who, through

> the

> years has also become a dear friend. I still keep in touch with

> everyone

> and am doing things here and there for the company (the exec.

> director

> wouldn't accept my letter). I wish you the best of luck

> Hugs

> in PA

> short term memory/stress/new directions

>

>

> > This is certainly a relevant topic for me.

> > As I have been under alot of stress in my job lately, my memory

> > has gotten worse. Stress is really knocking me back in the

> recovery

> > process. At 8 months post op, I feel that I should be further

> ahead.

> >

> > So, this is promting a major change for me. I am resigning

> > from my job. I am on vacation this week. We did not travel to

> > Maine this year because I just am not physically up to it.

> >

> > I plan to deliver my letter tomarrow, since I need to deliver a

> > veil. (I work for a bridal shop). I plan to continue working at

> home,

> > designing bridal headpieces and jewelry. Since I won't be

> working

> > full time, this should free up time to develop my own business

> further.

> >

> > I already have 2 shops in addition to the shop I worked for.

> Working

> > for myself, I can rest when I need, take a break when I need. I

> won't

> > be bending over, lifting over my head, and all sorts of other

> activity

> > that I had to do that was contradictory to chiari.

> >

> > I am sad to leave a part of my profession that I loved so much.

> But, life

> > is like a river, it moves on to new places. I have the support of

> my

> > family, and friends, who feel that I should have taken this step

> > long before. I am also going to apply for disability. I do not

> expect

> > to get it, because of my home business, but it won't hurt to try!

> >

> > So dear friends, some times we need to change direction and focus

> > to promote healing. I tried for 6 months to work full time. Now

> its time

> > to make a change for me.

> >

> > Betsy P

> > Marietta, PA

> > acm 25mm, sm, ptc, herniated disc

> > decompression 10/24/02

> > new life begins July 20, 2002

> >

> >

> >

[Guest guest]

,

Thank you. I needed to hear what you had to say.

Hugs

in PA

short term memory/stress/new directions

> >

> >

> > > This is certainly a relevant topic for me.

> > > As I have been under alot of stress in my job lately, my memory

> > > has gotten worse. Stress is really knocking me back in the

> > recovery

> > > process. At 8 months post op, I feel that I should be further

> > ahead.

> > >

> > > So, this is promting a major change for me. I am resigning

> > > from my job. I am on vacation this week. We did not travel to

> > > Maine this year because I just am not physically up to it.

> > >

> > > I plan to deliver my letter tomarrow, since I need to deliver a

> > > veil. (I work for a bridal shop). I plan to continue working at

> > home,

> > > designing bridal headpieces and jewelry. Since I won't be

> > working

> > > full time, this should free up time to develop my own business

> > further.

> > >

> > > I already have 2 shops in addition to the shop I worked for.

> > Working

> > > for myself, I can rest when I need, take a break when I need. I

> > won't

> > > be bending over, lifting over my head, and all sorts of other

> > activity

> > > that I had to do that was contradictory to chiari.

> > >

> > > I am sad to leave a part of my profession that I loved so much.

> > But, life

> > > is like a river, it moves on to new places. I have the support of

> > my

> > > family, and friends, who feel that I should have taken this step

> > > long before. I am also going to apply for disability. I do not

> > expect

> > > to get it, because of my home business, but it won't hurt to try!

> > >

> > > So dear friends, some times we need to change direction and focus

> > > to promote healing. I tried for 6 months to work full time. Now

> > its time

> > > to make a change for me.

> > >

> > > Betsy P

> > > Marietta, PA

> > > acm 25mm, sm, ptc, herniated disc

> > > decompression 10/24/02

> > > new life begins July 20, 2002

> > >

> > >

> > >