Hello everyone

[Guest guest]

Hi, it's me, Amber. I'm sure that some of you

remembered me. I'm sorry for not being on a board for

a long, long time. I'm having anxity/panic attacks

everyday and it's hard for me to control them. I've

been avoiding people, even my friends and their phone

calls. I'm scared to get out of the house because I'm

afraid that people would see me out of control. I've

been having it for 5 months now. I truly am

handicapped by it. I feel like my real self is trapped

inside. I know that rosacea-support groups is all

about rosacea issues but I just wanted to let you know

why I've not been on the board for a long time. I

can't be on medication for anxity/panic attacks

because I am almost 4 months pregnant. That really,

really sucks!! By the way, I am still struggling with

my rosacea. Sometimes it looks O.K. sometimes it looks

really bad. Right now it doesn't look good because I'm

having morning sickness almost everyday and have been

throwing up a lot lately and it makes rosacea look a

lot worse. Right now I have many tiny red dots all

around my eyes from throwing up. (ugh) I am also

struggling with dryness of the skin. It's pain in the

ass, know what I mean?? (sigh) I wish I'm free from

rosacea, anxity/panic disorder and depression. They

have taken my life away from me. I am only 21 and I

blame God for doing this to me because suffering with

all those shit is too much for me, physically and

mentally. I am sorry if I am bringing you down. I just

wanted to talk to somebody. Thank you for listening.

Amber

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