Where's my silver lining?

[Guest guest]

, Wish I was there to take that walk with you, but I can't make it to the potty, much less

around a lake. LOL I know you'll come up from this low point, somehow you always make a comeback. I'm pulling for you, y ou know that. Loving hugs, MM

[Guest guest]

When I was a kid and things were going wrong, my Nana (grandma) always

used to say " There is a silver lining in every storm cloud. "

Well, I want to know when I get to see that silver lining.

I guess I am just tired today.. tired of trying to breathe .. tired of

pain .. tired of angina .. tired of dealing with insurance agencies ..

tired of dealing with creditors .. just plain tired.

I got a call this morning first thing. It seems that my medical

insurance has still not paid on procedures they ok'd last year! So, the

lab and the doctor's office turned over the account to a collection

agency. I had stopped getting bills so I wrongly assumed the insurance

had finally paid.

So I just spent 45 minutes on the phone trying to get all this

straightened out. The insurance representative supervisor said, " It was

all a mistake. A computer glitch.. I will make sure it is taken care of

today. " All I could think was .. yea ... right ... computer glitch my

butt .. garbage in, garbage out .. someone screwed up and wont take the

blame for it .. but I didn't say it .. I just said thank you .. and

kissed butt .. because I know I need the insurance and don't want to

tick them off so bad they cancel me.

I mean .. if they did .. who would cover a 48 year old woman who has

asthma, diabetes, lupus, a bad heart, pulmonary hypertension, a bum back

... with no job? No one .. so .. I kiss butt .. sighs ..

Why are we the ones who got sick? why couldn't it have been some

criminal .. or ..

sighs .. no I wouldn't wish this stuff on anybody .. nobody deserves to

be this sick and have people expect you to keep on a happy face.

Sorry guys ..

just feeling a bit low and needed to vent before doing something stupid ..

like eating that whole box of chocolate ice cream that is calling me

from the freezer (not a good thing to do if you are diabetic!)..

so .. I will continue to try to cope .. maybe today would be a good day

to slather on the sunscreen and go to the lake with the dogs.. or

something .. some place where I can drag an oxygen tank and a walker and

not get it stuck .. smiles..

huggles .. will chat more later..