Guest guest Posted February 27, 2004 Report Share Posted February 27, 2004 Subject: update on me fr Angie Date: Thu, 26 Feb 2004 22:31:39 -0500 To: bsewell@... , Please pass this on for me as I still have yet gotten my address book back together. I'm sorry I haven't been around but after I got my computer back together my husband's Grandma fell further ill. We have spent the past couple of weeks or so taking shifts to make sure she wasn't alone. This past Monday she died. I was there and she went peacefully...thank God for the answers to my prayers. I personally am not doing to good. As I watched her pass on it hit me that this was only 1 of 2 grandparents either hubby or I had. So, now we are down to 1. My (and his) family mean more to me than anyone will ever know. Family roots (history) is very important to me. It hit me that this will be lost forever with her passing on. We will never know who our great-great grandparents were nor any of their parents. And for me this is a very very very sad sad week. It has been and is hard to describe it. I feel like I've lost something more than just Grandma. I've lost the history of what makes the family a family and who those people are. Then I began thinking of the kids and how they will never get to know who those people were. So, needless to say this has hit me VERY hard. I had been proud of myself up until today. I had the brave face on all week. Then today it all came out on it's own. For her being hubby's Grandmother you couldn't tell it by me. That woman meant more to me than I ever knew. I know I'll have the memories but it's not the same. I miss the card shark Grandma claimed to be. I miss the woman who was VERY proud of the fact that she had 13 children and a house full of love. I miss her smile, her laugh, but most of all I just miss her. She always had the time for you no matter what she was doing. I guess in many ways she was MY Grandma more than hubby's. She was the only Grandma I had close enough to drive to and the only one, close enough, that cared to spend time with me. So, I'm a mess. I try not to let the kids see me cry too much as I don't want them to get upset. My oldest said he lost a good friend. My youngest boy said it was better she was gone so she didn't have anymore pain. And Brittany with her wiseness said " It's ok mom, she is now up in heaven with Jesus and Pa " Brittany is pretty amazing to me. It never occurs to her that they are gone. She's just happy that they are with Jesus and Pa. Wish I could handle it like that. I guess time is the only thing that will heal my heart. So, please forgive me till I heal. Love and Hugs to All, Angie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 27, 2004 Report Share Posted February 27, 2004 Thank you for the update. I will add Angie and her family in my thoughts and prayers. > Subject: update on me fr Angie > Date: Thu, 26 Feb 2004 22:31:39 -0500 > From: Hood <aball@c...> > To: bsewell@c... > > , > > Please pass this on for me as I still have yet gotten my > address book back together. > > > I'm sorry I haven't been around but after I got my computer back > together my husband's Grandma fell further ill. We have spent the past > couple of weeks or so taking shifts to make sure she wasn't alone. This > past Monday she died. I was there and she went peacefully...thank God > for the answers to my prayers. I personally am not doing to good. As I > watched her pass on it hit me that this was only 1 of 2 grandparents > either hubby or I had. So, now we are down to 1. My (and his) family > mean more to me than anyone will ever know. > Family roots (history) is very important to me. It hit me that > this will be lost forever with her passing on. We will never know who > our great-great grandparents were nor any of their parents. And for me > this is a very very very sad sad week. It has been and is hard to > describe it. I feel like I've lost something more than just Grandma. > I've lost the history of what makes the family a family and who those > people are. Then I began thinking of the kids and how they will never > get to know who those people were. So, needless to say this has hit me > VERY hard. I had been proud of myself up until today. I had the brave > face on all week. Then today it all came out on it's own. For her being > hubby's Grandmother you couldn't tell it by me. That woman meant more to > me than I ever knew. I know I'll have the memories but it's not the > same. I miss the card shark Grandma claimed to be. > I miss the woman who was VERY proud of the fact that she had 13 > children and a house full of love. I miss her smile, her laugh, but most > of all I just miss her. She always had the time for you no matter what > she was doing. I guess in many ways she was MY Grandma more than > hubby's. She was the only Grandma I had close enough to drive to and the > only one, close enough, that cared to spend time with me. So, I'm a > mess. I try not to let the kids see me cry too much as I don't want them > to get upset. My oldest said he lost a good friend. My youngest boy said > it was better she was gone so she didn't have anymore pain. And Brittany > with her wiseness said " It's ok mom, she is now up in heaven with Jesus > and Pa " Brittany is pretty amazing to me. It never occurs to her that > they are gone. She's just happy that they are with Jesus and Pa. Wish I > could handle it like that. I guess time is the only thing that will heal > my heart. So, please forgive me till I heal. > > Love and Hugs to All, Angie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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