Just me again

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I am sorry your birthday is such a downer. I know that there will be other good days. somone I know always has such a bad day on her birthday she decided several years ago not to celebrate the day. Instead she vowed that the first good day she had after that would henceforth be her birthday. She had a good day about 4 days later, now uses that day as her birthday and it is always a good day. Hope you are feeling better today. Best, bubbe gittel************************************** See what's free at http://www.aol.com.

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Happy Birthday to me. Whoopie! I am having a bad day...well

yesterday the 11th was a bad one. My boyfriend wanted to go to this

huge flea market and was all down and out. I just couldn't walk it

because my chest hurt and I was too tired. He is not

understanding. Today is my birthday and I don't think it is going to

go well. I feel a storm brewing here in my house between him and

I. It seems like the worse I feel or the bad days he is less there

for me.

It is 1 a.m. in the morning and I am cleaning house. I am slamming

the washer door and dryer door and slamming dishes and vacumning,

because he was suppose to take me out of dinner and he slept from

3:00p.m. to midnight and now will be awake all night and so he will

be all tired and cranky on my birthday.

The thing of it is was we were suppose to have a nice day and a

special birthday together. He is boo-hooing that slowly more and

more. I have a couple places I wanted to go and then I wanted to go

out to eat, but not with someone so crabby.

I am sorry I don't feel good and sorry that I have to deal with this

thyroid problem. The doctors are insistent that I have a heart

catherization, but I decided not to do it. Besides who do I have to

come and sit for hours and wait for me. NO ONE!

Anyway.......thyroid sucks..........my birthday sucks........my

health sucks. Sorry I am so negative!

[Guest guest]

Barb,

I'm sorry things are going downhill on your birthday. It's hard when

we don't feel well and others don't understand. I just wanted to let

you know your not alone. My birthday the last few years have sucked

also. But this year I am vowing it's going to be different. Even if

I have to run away and spend the day by myself doing things I want to

do. Sometimes all we can do is try to make the best of it.

Happy Birthday!

Sami

>

> Happy Birthday to me. Whoopie! I am having a bad day...well

> yesterday the 11th was a bad one. My boyfriend wanted to go to this

> huge flea market and was all down and out. I just couldn't walk it

> because my chest hurt and I was too tired. He is not

> understanding. Today is my birthday and I don't think it is going to

> go well. I feel a storm brewing here in my house between him and

> I. It seems like the worse I feel or the bad days he is less there

> for me.

>

> It is 1 a.m. in the morning and I am cleaning house. I am slamming

> the washer door and dryer door and slamming dishes and vacumning,

> because he was suppose to take me out of dinner and he slept from

> 3:00p.m. to midnight and now will be awake all night and so he will

> be all tired and cranky on my birthday.

>

> The thing of it is was we were suppose to have a nice day and a

> special birthday together. He is boo-hooing that slowly more and

> more. I have a couple places I wanted to go and then I wanted to go

> out to eat, but not with someone so crabby.

>

> I am sorry I don't feel good and sorry that I have to deal with this

> thyroid problem. The doctors are insistent that I have a heart

> catherization, but I decided not to do it. Besides who do I have to

> come and sit for hours and wait for me. NO ONE!

>

> Anyway.......thyroid sucks..........my birthday sucks........my

> health sucks. Sorry I am so negative!

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Barb,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Mine sucked

this year too as 10 days earlier slipped getting into the tub for a

shower and broke my shoulder. So doc had me on perc and oxy so

couldn't even have a glass of wine and as am still on tylenol quite a

bit still haven't had it. Tomorrow being mothers day I am going to

skip meds and take my long awaited glass of wine and really enjoy

it. Try to put the bad feelings aside and say nuts to all I am going

to have fun on my day no matter what. Yes thyroid stuff sucks but

there is light at the end of the tunnel I have come through not

perfect yet but getting there and feeling so much more like I used to

that life is becoming fun again. You go have a good one knowing that

we are here rooting for you and understanding what you are feeling.

Dawn

ThyroCanuck

>

> Happy Birthday to me. Whoopie! I am having a bad day...well

> yesterday the 11th was a bad one. My boyfriend wanted to go to

this

> huge flea market and was all down and out. I just couldn't walk

it

> because my chest hurt and I was too tired. He is not

> understanding. Today is my birthday and I don't think it is going

to

> go well. I feel a storm brewing here in my house between him and

> I. It seems like the worse I feel or the bad days he is less

there

> for me.

>

> It is 1 a.m. in the morning and I am cleaning house. I am

slamming

> the washer door and dryer door and slamming dishes and vacumning,

> because he was suppose to take me out of dinner and he slept from

> 3:00p.m. to midnight and now will be awake all night and so he will

> be all tired and cranky on my birthday.

>

> The thing of it is was we were suppose to have a nice day and a

> special birthday together. He is boo-hooing that slowly more and

> more. I have a couple places I wanted to go and then I wanted to

go

> out to eat, but not with someone so crabby.

>

> I am sorry I don't feel good and sorry that I have to deal with

this

> thyroid problem. The doctors are insistent that I have a heart

> catherization, but I decided not to do it. Besides who do I have

to

> come and sit for hours and wait for me. NO ONE!

>

> Anyway.......thyroid sucks..........my birthday sucks........my

> health sucks. Sorry I am so negative!

>

[Guest guest]

Sami, do it....

I was just telling Barb that I do my own birthday thing now... my own cake, come up with my own way to spend the day.. last year a gal friend came over.. the year before I did a picnic by myself... One year... *looks to see if anyone is listening* I played out in the yard with the garden hose, if a car came down the side street, I'll point the hose like I was watering the bushes and not spraying it in the air.... hehehehe .. got soaked.. no one was around to see, I was acting like a grade schooler not someone in her forties.

You've heard of me talking of my book? That started as a Valentine's day present to myself. It as my first Valentines after my BF threw me out and I was on my own. No car, no money, no place to go and was out of meds. I could have sat here that day and cried all day, for criminey sakes that's how I started out that day.. but I decided that that sucked worse than being alone. So I sat down and started my book.

That fall, coming up on the anniversary of that great 'dump' I came up with the idea to start my own website.. that's how Topper's Place as born.. it's born of a determination not to let others poop all over me, see.. .I ran out of umbrellas!

If no one wants to play with us and have fun.. fine.. we can play all by ourselves.. lets see how good they can do that!

*grin*

Topper ()

On Sat, 12 May 2007 05:46:09 -0000 "Sami " writes:> Barb,> I'm sorry things are going downhill on your birthday. It's hard > when> we don't feel well and others don't understand. I just wanted to > let> you know your not alone. My birthday the last few years have > sucked> also. But this year I am vowing it's going to be different. Even > if> I have to run away and spend the day by myself doing things I want > to> do. Sometimes all we can do is try to make the best of it.> > Happy Birthday!> > Sami

[Guest guest]

I agree, life sucks sometimes.

So.. revamp your day. You know you are still a good person, always have been.. just have a body that can't keep up with you right now.

Make your own birthday. If he wants to be a poop.. let him enjoy his poop day and you go make your own.

Take a deep breath, a good look at how you feel today, physically, and decide what you can do that would be truly fun AND not cripple you up tomorrow..

Might be a run to the part, to sit in the shade of a tree and read a book.Might be a drive.Might be a movieMight be LONG soak in a bubble bath.Pull a picnic for two together... if he decides to mellow out and join you he can, if not you have lunch for yourself tomorrow!

If what the other person is doing is hurtful and ticks you off that is just gonna make you feel that much worse... you feel worse, things get worse.. it just snow balls.

This isn't in your head, the pain the fatigue the frustration... the sadness.. but you can take your had and turn it around just a wee bit and tell yourself that you are smart enough and strong enough to still make the best of it for yourself even if he wants to be a poop.

Maybe. just maybe he'll see that you can be upbeat and fun if you can do things that your body is able to do and you don't have to wade through his poop.. and if not... hey.. you still had a better day than you would have sitting on the couch feeling miserable waiting for him.

Oh... my the way

!!!!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

Want to hear of my bday last year? I have a poopy home life too. Long story there, I'll skip it. I get no presents, no dinner, nothing. So I made new rituals. I bake my own cake. A gal friend came over last year and we had a picnic out on the deck. She brought burgers and fries and such and we had cake. She even brought me a goodie bag, something I totally did not expect.. so it was WONDERFUL. it had a Sudoku puzzle book and a bunch of little baking ingredients (cinnamon, baking powder, cocoa, salt, baking soda.. that kinda stuff). While we were sitting out there my 'loving family' drove by to make sure that we were out on the deck and didn't go inside the house (long story there, too).

The nice thing to do would have been to join us for cake. To honor my day, did they? Nope... but so what... I had a great day, with a wonderful friend that showed up my poopy family!

So there.

So.. what ideas have you come up with for your day?????

Topper ()

On Sat, 12 May 2007 05:27:24 -0000 "Barb" writes:> Happy Birthday to me. Whoopie! I am having a bad day...well > yesterday the 11th was a bad one. My boyfriend wanted to go to this > huge flea market and was all down and out. I just couldn't walk it > because my chest hurt and I was too tired. He is not > understanding. Today is my birthday and I don't think it is going > to > go well. I feel a storm brewing here in my house between him and > I. It seems like the worse I feel or the bad days he is less there > for me. > > It is 1 a.m. in the morning and I am cleaning house. I am slamming > the washer door and dryer door and slamming dishes and vacumning, > because he was suppose to take me out of dinner and he slept from > 3:00p.m. to midnight and now will be awake all night and so he will > be all tired and cranky on my birthday. > > The thing of it is was we were suppose to have a nice day and a > special birthday together. He is boo-hooing that slowly more and > more. I have a couple places I wanted to go and then I wanted to go > out to eat, but not with someone so crabby.> I am sorry I don't feel good and sorry that I have to deal with this > thyroid problem. The doctors are insistent that I have a heart > catherization, but I decided not to do it. Besides who do I have > to come and sit for hours and wait for me. NO ONE! > > Anyway.......thyroid sucks..........my birthday sucks........my > health sucks. Sorry I am so negative!

[Guest guest]

Happy Birthday to you.. Happy birthday to you..

Hope you have a good one, regrdless if it sucks or not..

Kats3boys

[Guest guest]

I will Topper!

I still have a few months to plan what I'm doing this year. Have to

tell you I was surprised at how many of us have had sucky birthday's

the last few years.

Sami

>

> Sami, do it....

>

[Guest guest]

50, why you are just a young wippersnap, I am not a Bubbe for nothing. Best, gail************************************** See what's free at http://www.aol.com.

[Guest guest]

I'm already trying to pull some things together for mine.. it's in July,

nope, not saying when! hehehehe

It's gonna be the big 50 for me.. so have to make it as special as I can,

even if it's just in my own mind!

Topper ()

On Sun, 13 May 2007 04:57:36 -0000 " Sami " samkelly729@...>

writes:

> I will Topper!

> I still have a few months to plan what I'm doing this year. Have

> to tell you I was surprised at how many of us have had sucky

> birthday's the last few years.

>

> Sami

[Guest guest]

Made it quite a few years longer than I expected... I should have died 4 times already and I'm still kicking... wonder if I'm part cat?????

Topper ()

On Sun, 13 May 2007 08:40:03 EDT bhurstbrd@... writes:

50, why you are just a young wippersnap, I am not a Bubbe for nothing. Best, gail

[Guest guest]

Topper,

I have been here a few years. Hate to tell you, I think I know when

your birthday is. It's about six days before mine. LOL! You do need

to do something special for the big 50.

Sami

P.s. Happy Birthday !

>

> I'm already trying to pull some things together for mine.. it's in July,

> nope, not saying when! hehehehe

>

> It's gonna be the big 50 for me.. so have to make it as special as I

can,

> even if it's just in my own mind!

>

> Topper ()

[Guest guest]

Sami.. you're not supposed to remember it...

I already know what I want to make, if I can scrounge the bucks to buy

the ingredients, I've been thinking about it all day!

Huge drool factor here, grab a bib.

Okay.. I came up with this fresh strawberry pie recipe years ago.. to

make it bday special I want to put a chocolate shell inside the pie....

So it would be the home made pie shell.... coated with a chocolate shell

(bitter sweet of course) the filling of fresh berries and home made

glaze, topped with meringue that is toasted with golden peaks.....

..... hmmmmm need to add sprinkled shredded coconut to the meringue before

it's toasted. Served nice and cold since the day is usually hot.

yep.. that's my bday wish for my sweet treat of the day!

Big Grin!

Have I ever really said the day.? I thought I'd only hinted at the

week... don't answer that.. folks will go looking! hehehehe

Topper ()

On Sun, 13 May 2007 18:54:29 -0000 " Sami " samkelly729@...>

writes:

> Topper,

> I have been here a few years. Hate to tell you, I think I know

> when

> your birthday is. It's about six days before mine. LOL! You do

> need to do something special for the big 50.

> Sami

[Guest guest]

One year I decided I was going to be my own best friend so went to

Red Lobster and ordered a huge Lobster Tail and sat there at lunch

time (with no family to bother me) and calmly basked in my favorite

reading material and just had a marvelously peaceful time with my one

best friend for that one special day. Only thing missing was having

someone in Greek attire holding a perfectly shaped cluster of sweet

grapes over my head to pick from now and then. LOL I might not have

had the Margurita. Cannot recall if I had that too or not. I was

driving and that stuff does hit me a bit fast but with a meal of that

type (dipped in butter) most of us can avoid any reactions from just

the one.

I thought I was being so ingenious until I met a Red Lobster waitress

who was moonlighting at a gym that I was at. She and another were

talking about these women who save up their money and come in all by

themselves and order themselves that big lobster. LOL so I guess I

was not all that original that year. Other years I have broiled my

own lobster at home. I really do not even like to order lobster if my

dh takes me to dinner. I hate putting out that kind of money they ask

at dinnertime for Lobster Tail.

LEE

> >

> > I'm already trying to pull some things together for mine.. it's in

July,

> > nope, not saying when! hehehehe

> >

> > It's gonna be the big 50 for me.. so have to make it as special as I

> can,

> > even if it's just in my own mind!

> >

> > Topper ()

>

[Guest guest]

Topper,

It's because it's so close to mine that I remember it. I don't want

cake either and yes I usually have to make my own.....( I can make you

drool too!)

Sami

Mud Pie

3 Pie shells or

1 c. flour

1/2 - nuts

1 sq. margarine

Mix, put in dripper pan. Bake 15 minutes at 350 degrees. Then cool.

Next:

1 lg. cool whip

1 cream cheese (8 oz)

1 c. powder sugar

Mix put over the bottom or in pie shells.

1 pkgs.. instant pudding in 3 c. milk

(or follow instructions on box) put pudding layer on top of cream layer

then COOL WHIP ( on top of all that)

Sprinkle- toasted Coconut(on top-optional).

Refrigerate---

Hints:

I use Sugar free pudding Chocolate is the best. But can use any kind.

I've also topped with danish dessert w/strawberry or any flavor pie

filling

instead of the pudding. Peach is great.

I also only use about 1/3 c. powder sugar since my Dad's diabetic.

It makes this dessert low sugar.

>

> Sami.. you're not supposed to remember it...

>

> I already know what I want to make, if I can scrounge the bucks to buy

> the ingredients, I've been thinking about it all day!

>

> Huge drool factor here, grab a bib.

>

> Okay.. I came up with this fresh strawberry pie recipe years ago.. to

> make it bday special I want to put a chocolate shell inside the pie....

>

> So it would be the home made pie shell.... coated with a chocolate shell

> (bitter sweet of course) the filling of fresh berries and home made

> glaze, topped with meringue that is toasted with golden peaks.....

>

> .... hmmmmm need to add sprinkled shredded coconut to the meringue

before

> it's toasted. Served nice and cold since the day is usually hot.

>

> yep.. that's my bday wish for my sweet treat of the day!

>

> Big Grin!

>

> Have I ever really said the day.? I thought I'd only hinted at the

> week... don't answer that.. folks will go looking! hehehehe

>

> Topper ()

[Guest guest]

I haven't had breakfast yet, waiting for pill to dissolve (sublingual)..

this wasn't fair!!!!!

hehehehe

Topper ()

On Mon, 14 May 2007 04:37:40 -0000 " Sami " samkelly729@...>

writes:

> Topper,

> It's because it's so close to mine that I remember it. I don't

> want

> cake either and yes I usually have to make my own.....( I can make >

you drool too!)

>

> Sami

>

> Mud Pie

< snip >

[Guest guest]

Hi

You 50er's will make it through it just fine. I will be having the big 53er this yr. Also in July. Hugs,Bernetta

-- Re: Re: Just me again

I'm already trying to pull some things together for mine.. it's in July,

nope, not saying when! hehehehe

It's gonna be the big 50 for me.. so have to make it as special as I can,

even if it's just in my own mind!

Topper ()

On Sun, 13 May 2007 04:57:36 -0000 "Sami "

writes:

> I will Topper!

> I still have a few months to plan what I'm doing this year. Have

> to tell you I was surprised at how many of us have had sucky

> birthday's the last few years.

>

> Sami

[Guest guest]

We'll have to have a party in the CAFE!!!

Topper ()

On Mon, 14 May 2007 10:57:20 -0400 (Eastern Daylight Time) "Bernetta Elliott" writes:

Hi

You 50er's will make it through it just fine. I will be having the big 53er this yr. Also in July. Hugs,Bernetta

[Guest guest]

Hi

That will be great. I will look forward to it.

I wanted to tell you I am now starting to feel really tired again and can't remember anything. So I guess it is time to up my Armour again. Right??....I am taking 112.50 now should I go to 135 now or more? Thanks, Bernetta

-- Re: Re: Just me again

We'll have to have a party in the CAFE!!!

Topper ()

On Mon, 14 May 2007 10:57:20 -0400 (Eastern Daylight Time) "Bernetta Elliott" writes:

Hi

You 50er's will make it through it just fine. I will be having the big 53er this yr. Also in July. Hugs,Bernetta

[Guest guest]

Oh you ladies are just little babies. I'll be 56 in August!

Re: Re: Just me again

We'll have to have a party in the CAFE!!!

Topper ()

On Mon, 14 May 2007 10:57:20 -0400 (Eastern Daylight Time) "Bernetta Elliott" writes:

Hi

You 50er's will make it through it just fine. I will be having the big 53er this yr. Also in July. Hugs,Bernetta

[Guest guest]

How long have you been on the 112.5? You want to hold there for at least four weeks, better six. You may feel like doggy doo doo... but your body needs that amout of time to do all it's adjustments with conversion and such...

As far as how much of an increase... unless you are REALLY sensitive 25 mcg is usually a pretty good amount.

Topper ()

On Mon, 14 May 2007 14:01:46 -0400 (Eastern Daylight Time) "Bernetta Elliott" writes:

Hi

That will be great. I will look forward to it.

I wanted to tell you I am now starting to feel really tired again and can't remember anything. So I guess it is time to up my Armour again. Right??....I am taking 112.50 now should I go to 135 now or more? Thanks, Bernetta

[Guest guest]

Where are you, Barb? Sounds like you should have the cath, but NO ONE

should go for that alone. You definitely need moral support; but if

it involved having a stent or two, it could make you feel so much

better. Don't you have a friend, parent, or relative?

Peggy

> I am sorry I don't feel good and sorry that I have to deal with this

> thyroid problem. The doctors are insistent that I have a heart

> catherization, but I decided not to do it. Besides who do I have to

> come and sit for hours and wait for me. NO ONE!

>

> Anyway.......thyroid sucks..........my birthday sucks........my

> health sucks. Sorry I am so negative!

>