Guest guest Posted February 23, 2007 Report Share Posted February 23, 2007 When I sat in doctors' offices for consultations over this lump in my left breast, I had to bite the inside of my mouth to keep from crying. I wanted to be so strong even though I was facing the distinct possibility that my lump was cancerous. Even through the surguries, chemos, radiation, and all the aftereffects, I kept upbeat, even though I was angry that I had BC. I was even angry when I read the reports that breast cancer had declined in those women who stopped taking hormones. I would even look at women who I thought were more likely than me to get this disease because maybe they were heavier than me, or less active or because they had a history of cancer in their family, where I was the first one. I thought it was so unfair. Now, I am wondering how weird am I getting? In a strange way, I now feel as if I am a part of a special group of women, those with BC or who have had BC. It's like being in a group that not all women can belong too. I am seeing more powerful ads on TV addressing BC and there are more people walking for us to find a cure, and here I sit, thinking, " How special I really am. " It is almost an " elitest " feeling. I have a pink band around my left wrist to remind me that I can't have my blood drawn or pressure taken. I have a port-a-cat that is visible and my hair is boyish short. People tell me how brave I am and if they had a similar diagnosis, they would have fallen apart. They are amazed that I am functioning like I did before. I tell them that I have alot of support and I had this bump in the road, but I am moving beyond that. But I can't get over thinking I am weird for feeling as if I am truly special. The only thing I can attribute this feeling too is you ladies, who make me feel special, who make me feel as if this IS a bump in the road, who make me feel as if I need to spend more time living instead of waiting for the next foot to drop. I thank you, Anita 2 cm, 99+ Estrogen/45+ Progesteren, HER 2 Positive, 1 out of 8 nodes with a microscopic indication of cancer ________________________________________________________________________________\ ____ TV dinner still cooling? Check out " Tonight's Picks " on Yahoo! TV. http://tv.yahoo.com/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 23, 2007 Report Share Posted February 23, 2007 Anita, No you are NOT wierd at all. This is a very special sisterhood. One that only someone that has " been there done that " can understand. Its just like the fire and police. They have a special bond. You are special and so are all the others in this group. Hugs nne Breast Cancer Patients Soul Mates for Life http://www.geocities.com/chucky5741/breastcancerpatients.html BreastCancerStories.com http://www.breastcancerstories.com/content/view/433/161/ Angel Feather Loomer www.angelfeatherloomer.blogspot.com Check out my other ornaments at www.geocities.com/chucky5741/bcornament.html Lots of info and gifts at: www.cancerclub.com Am I the only weird one? When I sat in doctors' offices for consultations over this lump in my left breast, I had to bite the inside of my mouth to keep from crying. I wanted to be so strong even though I was facing the distinct possibility that my lump was cancerous. Even through the surguries, chemos, radiation, and all the aftereffects, I kept upbeat, even though I was angry that I had BC. I was even angry when I read the reports that breast cancer had declined in those women who stopped taking hormones. I would even look at women who I thought were more likely than me to get this disease because maybe they were heavier than me, or less active or because they had a history of cancer in their family, where I was the first one. I thought it was so unfair. Now, I am wondering how weird am I getting? In a strange way, I now feel as if I am a part of a special group of women, those with BC or who have had BC. It's like being in a group that not all women can belong too. I am seeing more powerful ads on TV addressing BC and there are more people walking for us to find a cure, and here I sit, thinking, " How special I really am. " It is almost an " elitest " feeling. I have a pink band around my left wrist to remind me that I can't have my blood drawn or pressure taken. I have a port-a-cat that is visible and my hair is boyish short. People tell me how brave I am and if they had a similar diagnosis, they would have fallen apart. They are amazed that I am functioning like I did before. I tell them that I have alot of support and I had this bump in the road, but I am moving beyond that. But I can't get over thinking I am weird for feeling as if I am truly special. The only thing I can attribute this feeling too is you ladies, who make me feel special, who make me feel as if this IS a bump in the road, who make me feel as if I need to spend more time living instead of waiting for the next foot to drop. I thank you, Anita 2 cm, 99+ Estrogen/45+ Progesteren, HER 2 Positive, 1 out of 8 nodes with a microscopic indication of cancer __________________________________________________________ TV dinner still cooling? Check out " Tonight's Picks " on Yahoo! TV. http://tv.yahoo.com/ ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ No virus found in this incoming message. Checked by AVG Free Edition. Version: 7.1.412 / Virus Database: 268.18.2/692 - Release Date: 2/18/2007 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 23, 2007 Report Share Posted February 23, 2007 Well, Anita, you are special! And women who have or have had breast cancer are an elite group. It is a group of women and men who choose to deal with a difficult situation or " bump in the road " as you put it with strong and courageous attitudes. They know something about themselves that other people don't know ---- we can survive all the treatments, all the therapies, all the surgeries. We are knowledgable and intelligient about what happens to us and have become the best advocates for ourselves. So you see, you are special and the shift in attitude that you experienced, I would say, is a step in the healing process both physically and mentally and emotionally. And even though cancer is a nasty disease and changes one's life, it does give a different perspective to a person in many ways. That is the only positive that I see with cancer. Without it, we might never take a look at the some of things we have to. Sounds like to me you are on your way to more wholeness and health. Congratulations on the new you. Anita gedwed_2@...> wrote: When I sat in doctors' offices for consultations over this lump in my left breast, I had to bite the inside of my mouth to keep from crying. I wanted to be so strong even though I was facing the distinct possibility that my lump was cancerous. Even through the surguries, chemos, radiation, and all the aftereffects, I kept upbeat, even though I was angry that I had BC. I was even angry when I read the reports that breast cancer had declined in those women who stopped taking hormones. I would even look at women who I thought were more likely than me to get this disease because maybe they were heavier than me, or less active or because they had a history of cancer in their family, where I was the first one. I thought it was so unfair. Now, I am wondering how weird am I getting? In a strange way, I now feel as if I am a part of a special group of women, those with BC or who have had BC. It's like being in a group that not all women can belong too. I am seeing more powerful ads on TV addressing BC and there are more people walking for us to find a cure, and here I sit, thinking, " How special I really am. " It is almost an " elitest " feeling. I have a pink band around my left wrist to remind me that I can't have my blood drawn or pressure taken. I have a port-a-cat that is visible and my hair is boyish short. People tell me how brave I am and if they had a similar diagnosis, they would have fallen apart. They are amazed that I am functioning like I did before. I tell them that I have alot of support and I had this bump in the road, but I am moving beyond that. But I can't get over thinking I am weird for feeling as if I am truly special. The only thing I can attribute this feeling too is you ladies, who make me feel special, who make me feel as if this IS a bump in the road, who make me feel as if I need to spend more time living instead of waiting for the next foot to drop. I thank you, Anita 2 cm, 99+ Estrogen/45+ Progesteren, HER 2 Positive, 1 out of 8 nodes with a microscopic indication of cancer __________________________________________________________ TV dinner still cooling? Check out " Tonight's Picks " on Yahoo! TV. http://tv.yahoo.com/ Jan Koelsch --------------------------------- Don't be flakey. Get Yahoo! Mail for Mobile and always stay connected to friends. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 23, 2007 Report Share Posted February 23, 2007 Hi Anita, You're thinking clearly. It is a bump in the road, and that road does smooth out! Blessings to all. Angel (A.K.A. Mari) mfgershman@... Please click each day to help others, IT'S FREE! http://www.thebreastcancersite.com/cgi-bin/WebObjects/CTDSites Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 23, 2007 Report Share Posted February 23, 2007 Thank you Mari for your kind message --- Mari mfgershman@...> wrote: > Hi Anita, > > You're thinking clearly. It is a bump in the > road, and that road > does smooth out! Blessings to all. > > > > Angel (A.K.A. Mari) > mfgershman@... > > Please click each day to help others, IT'S FREE! > http://www.thebreastcancersite.com/cgi-bin/WebObjects/CTDSites > > ________________________________________________________________________________\ ____ Finding fabulous fares is fun. Let Yahoo! FareChase search your favorite travel sites to find flight and hotel bargains. http://farechase.yahoo.com/promo-generic-14795097 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 23, 2007 Report Share Posted February 23, 2007 Thank you Jan for your uplifting message, Anita --- Jan Koelsch jkoelsch1950@...> wrote: > Well, Anita, you are special! And women who have or > have had breast cancer are an elite group. > It is a group of women and men who choose to deal > with a difficult situation or " bump in the road " > as you put it with strong and courageous > attitudes. They know something about themselves > that > other people don't know ---- we can survive all > the treatments, all the therapies, all the > surgeries. > We are knowledgable and intelligient about what > happens to us and have become the best > advocates for ourselves. So you see, you are > special and the shift in attitude that you > experienced, > I would say, is a step in the healing process both > physically and mentally and emotionally. And even > though cancer is a nasty disease and changes one's > life, it does give a different perspective to a > person in many ways. That is the only positive that > I see with cancer. Without it, we might never take a > look at the some of things we have to. > > Sounds like to me you are on your way to more > wholeness and health. Congratulations on the new > you. > > > > Anita gedwed_2@...> wrote: > When I sat in doctors' offices for > consultations over > this lump in my left breast, I had to bite the > inside > of my mouth to keep from crying. I wanted to be so > strong even though I was facing the distinct > possibility that my lump was cancerous. Even through > the surguries, chemos, radiation, and all the > aftereffects, I kept upbeat, even though I was angry > that I had BC. I was even angry when I read the > reports that breast cancer had declined in those > women > who stopped taking hormones. I would even look at > women who I thought were more likely than me to get > this disease because maybe they were heavier than > me, > or less active or because they had a history of > cancer > in their family, where I was the first one. I > thought > it was so unfair. > > Now, I am wondering how weird am I getting? In a > strange way, I now feel as if I am a part of a > special > group of women, those with BC or who have had BC. > It's like being in a group that not all women can > belong too. I am seeing more powerful ads on TV > addressing BC and there are more people walking for > us > to find a cure, and here I sit, thinking, " How > special > I really am. " It is almost an " elitest " feeling. I > have a pink band around my left wrist to remind me > that I can't have my blood drawn or pressure taken. > I > have a port-a-cat that is visible and my hair is > boyish short. People tell me how brave I am and if > they had a similar diagnosis, they would have fallen > apart. They are amazed that I am functioning like I > did before. I tell them that I have alot of support > and I had this bump in the road, but I am moving > beyond that. > > But I can't get over thinking I am weird for feeling > as if I am truly special. The only thing I can > attribute this feeling too is you ladies, who make > me > feel special, who make me feel as if this IS a bump > in > the road, who make me feel as if I need to spend > more > time living instead of waiting for the next foot to > drop. > > I thank you, > Anita > 2 cm, 99+ Estrogen/45+ Progesteren, HER 2 Positive, > 1 > out of 8 nodes with a microscopic indication of > cancer > > __________________________________________________________ > TV dinner still cooling? > Check out " Tonight's Picks " on Yahoo! TV. > http://tv.yahoo.com/ > > > > > > Jan Koelsch > > --------------------------------- > Don't be flakey. Get Yahoo! Mail for Mobile and > always stay connected to friends. > > [Non-text portions of this message have been > removed] > > ________________________________________________________________________________\ ____ Expecting? Get great news right away with email Auto-Check. Try the Yahoo! Mail Beta. http://advision.webevents.yahoo.com/mailbeta/newmail_tools.html Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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