Towne in Ma Re: Re: Thoughts on A Day as a Senior at High School

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Oh Dear -

I didn't sense all the fullness of heart in the post of yours mto which I

replied .... bless you and bless us both - namaste in spades )

Yes to the babies who put aside talking while they walk - and yes to the mothers

who rejoice in the walking and worry about the decline in talking. We are there

and we always will be - )

At least we are together and have intimate awe of the spirit's desire to grow or

die, constantly re-create, expand towards fruition and nurture our divine

discontent.

I have had to learn to stay in my truth - hold it like a glow over the horizon

above the ocean and stay focused upon it. I am having to learn to do that with

my awareness of each of my children as well. To hold their truth and sense what

is true to their journey. To separate my pain from theirs, and to allow them

both (as if I had a choice ) )

.... and I don't really stay standing, I've just gotten adept at holding my truth

from a very crumpled position if I have to - Heaven knows I've had alot of

practice ;o)

with love-

Yuka

Re: Thoughts on A Day as a Senior at High School

Dear Yuka,

Oh thank you-you got the soccer, football stories out just in time-

I was about to lose the battle of the tears.

This pulls me so far out of the pink that my mind is frantically

churning out every positive affirmation I've ever heard or read in my

entire life, in an attempt to save me and save you and save us all

from the ugly beastie.(pain, regret, disappointment, etc. etc.)

Oh gosh, I admire your ability to look on it with an open heart, and

still stay standing.

Oh-I just read your post on analgesics! LOL! I'm good again!!!

Not for nothing, but Di's socialization, self-expression, confidence,

etc. has really picked up speed over the last few years.

It reminds me of the little kids, who are having to get the standing

down first, to then get on with the talking.

So, maybe it ain't over till its over. Although, of course I totally

agree with you that socialization should not be back-burnered in

favor of anything else, and must be incorporated into day-to-day

experience-so what if we have to help " the natural " along. Haven't we

always? lol.

Thank you for being you,

in Ma.

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> Your reply has brought back two bittersweet memories. When

was in AYSO at nine years of age, we worried to death about him

injuringhimself. We tried to have him placed into the special

division, but he would have no part of it. On the first day of

practice we were instantly relieved. It took him so long to process

where the ball was and he was so small and slow in running he was

always at least half a field away from the main action.

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> When in ninth grade mainstream PE and they began a unit on

football. My husband, a dear friend and I all said to at the

same time " You know what to do when you have the ball don't you?

Throw it away as fast and as far as you can!:

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> )

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> For our other two sons, PE in middle and high school is such a time

of bonding as they run/walk the mile (or two) - and wait for turns at

things, form teams and discuss the feelings shared by the less than

athletic..... never had that. He would still be running the

mile as the class moved on, and the teacher would be cheering his

determination......

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> love,

> yuka

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