I feel like that this job hunt isn't going anywhere! :(

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Hey guys,

I wasen't sure if I should write a journal about this, make a poem about

this or what, but I might do a poem in the journal, but also tell a story here,

so that way they're both similiar, alright?

Well, I'm still doing job search at Goodwill as usual. I did applied to 1

GameStop. I know that 1 of the Target called but they don't have any position

for daytime stocking, sight! I'm trying everything I can, I'm searching for all

kinds of places to apply cuz it's making me frustrated and a bit desperate too,

right? I wish there was someone OUT THERE to help me out, PLEASE!?

Sometime, I tend to get negative, bad thoughts about myself, like hating

myself, thinking mean, bad, evil things to myself. Cuz, I feel like that this is

the end of my life. I mean, it's like I'm stuck like this, continueing job

searching, having too much free times, stuck living here, not driving a car (I

do take buses and trains, but there are places where buses and/or trains are not

avaliable), right? I went to school all of my life, to acheive/gain my goal/my

dream what I really wanted to do, then reality shows it's ugly face to me! Sorry

for venting out and being all moody, it just that I had been feeling really

frustrated and desperate that even though that Randall took Liz/ place as

job developer, it's still the same ol' stuff.

Of course, my VR Counselor did say about a workshop I might do soon, like an

evulation/assessment test to see what I can do, can't do. Then, they will match

my skills to the right job for me. I might have to go work at some clothing

stores like Mervyns, Sears, stuff like that...but to tell you the truth, I think

those are boring jobs, I think they're for girls, ladies ya know. Yeah, until

Randall, Liz, , and all disagreed and told me that guys works in the

men department. I'm all like okay, maybe I'll try that next.

I'm still gonna try to apply to a few more GameStop and EBGames, gonna try

to do that darn online application for PetsMart and PetCo again (I know I done

it a thousand times, but I really want to work there badly. So, that's why I

keep pushing it ya know), and recently today at Goodwill, I learned how to use

the fax machine, and faxed my resume to this horse ranch store place. I'm also

looking into aquarium stores too! See how desperate and frustrated I am by doing

that?

I mean, I go to Mt Sac for 4 1/2 yrs and got a Pet Science Certificate, went

to Dog Grooming School and got several certificates, had a job at Doggy Time for

a year and 4 months, and is this it? Is this the end of my life? I mean, it's

like I got no where to go except continueing job searching. I hope that the

workshop will help me shed some new lights, and gonna try different places to

apply.

I know I thought about going back to school again, but there's 1 thing

bothing me/worrying me, my resume is gonna look so long with so many schools

and volunteering places, and not enough work experiences. I don't think anyone

is gonna hire me who goes to school for so many years, and have a bunch of

volunteering experiences, right? I'll be too old to get a job by then, and I

won't learn to live out on my own in the future either, sigh!

So, I don't know what to do now. I guess I have to wait for the workshop at

Goodwill, and see what will happened from there. I recently went back

volunteering at the Duarte Library, it's okay except 1 of the librarian who

seems to have bad hearing (even though she wears the small hearing aids like

me), can't even hear too well! She always though we said something else, it gets

very frustrating ya know. Even I get easily frustrated, cuz I don't think she

understand me too well. Anyway, that's all for now. I'm hoping and wishing for

a miracle, that someone out there, maybe even you guys, or hopefully if you know

someone to please help me out, alright? I can't do it all on my own, I need some

more help, more than Randall from Goodwill. Thanks!

Ol' Chipper >

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[Guest guest]

Chip,

I'm sorry to hear that you are frustrated; it certainly sounds like you are

really giving it a great effort. I can't imagine working that hard at

school for four years won't pay off for you. I hope you find the job of

your dreams soon. I hope that the evaluation gives you some better

direction on where your strengths lie.

Lots of love,

& Kennedy

www.chargesyndrome.info

>

> *Hey guys,*

> * I wasen't sure if I should write a journal about this, make a poem

> about this or what, but I might do a poem in the journal, but also tell a

> story here, so that way they're both similiar, alright? *

> * Well, I'm still doing job search at Goodwill as usual. I did applied to

> 1 GameStop. I know that 1 of the Target called but they don't have any

> position for daytime stocking, sight! I'm trying everything I can, I'm

> searching for all kinds of places to apply cuz it's making me frustrated and

> a bit desperate too, right? I wish there was someone OUT THERE to help me

> out, PLEASE!? *

> * Sometime, I tend to get negative, bad thoughts about myself, like

> hating myself, thinking mean, bad, evil things to myself. Cuz, I feel like

> that this is the end of my life. I mean, it's like I'm stuck like this,

> continueing job searching, having too much free times, stuck living here,

> not driving a car (I do take buses and trains, but there are places where

> buses and/or trains are not avaliable), right? I went to school all of my

> life, to acheive/gain my goal/my dream what I really wanted to do, then

> reality shows it's ugly face to me! Sorry for venting out and being all

> moody, it just that I had been feeling really frustrated and desperate that

> even though that Randall took Liz/ place as job developer, it's still

> the same ol' stuff. *

> * Of course, my VR Counselor did say about a workshop I might do soon,

> like an evulation/assessment test to see what I can do, can't do. Then, they

> will match my skills to the right job for me. I might have to go work at

> some clothing stores like Mervyns, Sears, stuff like that...but to tell you

> the truth, I think those are boring jobs, I think they're for girls, ladies

> ya know. Yeah, until Randall, Liz, , and all disagreed and told

> me that guys works in the men department. I'm all like okay, maybe I'll try

> that next. *

> * I'm still gonna try to apply to a few more GameStop and EBGames, gonna

> try to do that darn online application for PetsMart and PetCo again (I

> know I done it a thousand times, but I really want to work there badly. So,

> that's why I keep pushing it ya know), and recently today at Goodwill, I

> learned how to use the fax machine, and faxed my resume to this horse ranch

> store place. I'm also looking into aquarium stores too! See how

> desperate and frustrated I am by doing that? *

> * I mean, I go to Mt Sac for 4 1/2 yrs and got a Pet Science Certificate,

> went to Dog Grooming School and got several certificates, had a job at Doggy

> Time for a year and 4 months, and is this it? Is this the end of my life? I

> mean, it's like I got no where to go except continueing job searching. I

> hope that the workshop will help me shed some new lights, and gonna try

> different places to apply.*

> * I know I thought about going back to school again, but there's 1

> thing bothing me/worrying me, my resume is gonna look so long with so many

> schools and volunteering places, and not enough work experiences. I don't

> think anyone is gonna hire me who goes to school for so many years, and have

> a bunch of volunteering experiences, right? I'll be too old to get a job by

> then, and I won't learn to live out on my own in the future either, sigh!*

> * So, I don't know what to do now. I guess I have to wait for the

> workshop at Goodwill, and see what will happened from there. I recently

> went back volunteering at the Duarte Library, it's okay except 1 of the

> librarian who seems to have bad hearing (even though she wears the small

> hearing aids like me), can't even hear too well! She always though we said

> something else, it gets very frustrating ya know. Even I get easily

> frustrated, cuz I don't think she understand me too well. Anyway, that's

> all for now. I'm hoping and wishing for a miracle, that someone out there,

> maybe even you guys, or hopefully if you know someone to please help me out,

> alright? I can't do it all on my own, I need some more help, more than

> Randall from Goodwill. Thanks!*

> * Ol' Chipper >*

>

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