Re: /Lori

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>Lori

Stay and talk it out, it helps to write and put things in words. I

wish you lived near me (dont know whre you live actually), we could

meet for lunch... I am a huge " going to lunch fan " MY TREAT!!

I hear the sadness in your writing and you are right, the girls here

are fantasic! Cheers to the Moderator as well! Stay and talk it out.

Maybe pick a couple girls to email personally on a one on one level,

if you dont want to air everything in the group?

Wish I could hug you

heres the best I can do

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Char

Thanx kimmie, actually I am not too worried about losing weight, I

have only weighed as much as I do now when I was pregnant, so losing

weight would be a good thing right now. My mom has friends who keep

telling her that if this junk in my breast is cancer then I would

lose weight, I have lost my appetite, which has always been far too

healthy I would love to lose the left breast at this point, since

it is the problem child so to speak. I don't even like to go out in

public, it is so much larger than the other side, you can't help but

notice it. Believe it or not at the moment though I have other

problems that are taking precedence over the possibility of bc, and

the lack of medical treatment. I don't want to whine about them

though, or bother anyone else anymore. I am not sure if I will be in

this group much longer. I am thinking about leaving today, going

somewhere anywhere but here, where I live now, in the relationship I

am in now. So won't have access to a pc

> anymore. I don't know though I am waffling so to speak. I am

scared to leave but don't want to stay either. At any rate the women

in this group are fantastic, I have learned a lot about this crap

invading my body, the treatments and so on. Oh I better clarify why I

am scared to leave, I am scared because of my health problems, and I

am broke, beyond broke actually. I didn't want anyone to get the

wrong idea, the other half is a jerk, but not a physically abusive

jerk.

> take care

> Lori

> Re: Just some thoughts/update

>

> Hi,

> I am just now getting caught up on emails.

> I started to lose weight about 3 weeks into my dx. I atribute it

> all to stress. I have always been very thin and only weighed 94 lbs

> at dx 10/14/06. After my mastectomy 11/22/05 and starting on

> Tamoxifen 1/1/06, by mid january I was down to 87 lbs. I was

getting

> scared! My appt. with my onc. on 2/9/06, I told him that if the

side

> effects, nausea, diarhea, lack of appetite, did not subside, I

would

> have to change treatment. Shortly thereafter, they finally DID

> subside! Since then I have put on almost 30 pounds!!! I got up to

115

> but am down to 110 now. I have NEVER, in my whole life, EVER

weighed

> more than 102! I've had to buy new jeans and new tops (I always

wore

> belly shirts), because my belly and back are the places that I have

> gained the most inches. I have also put on weight in my ONE

> BREAST!!!! Geeze!!!! The other one hasn't gained an ounce since

there

> is no longer any fatty tissue! Talk about lop-sided!!

> Don't worry about the weight loss Lori, if you go on Tamoxifen, you

> will not have a problem..... except trying to STOP the weight

gain!!!

> Good Gawd, I always wanted a J-Lo butt but I never wanted a Rosie

> O'Donnel waist and back!! Sheesh

> peace....... .....kimmy

>

> >

> > Hi, all I ordered 2 copies of the dummies book, am going to give

> one

> > to the doctor that has been so helpful to me. on the soy stuff, I

> > noticed last night after I put bacon bits on my salad that the

> bacon

> > bits are a soy product:0 Thought I should pass on that baco's are

a

> > soy product for anyone avoiding soy. I guess I'll just have to

buy

> > regular bacon and make bacon bits that way for salads. I am still

> > waiting for a biopsy to be done The Breast Cancer Clinic won't

> > see me until my charity application is approved. My family is

very

> > concerned though, they keep saying they can see my health is

> > deteriorating. Has anyone else been very tired prior to

treatment?

> I

> > have no energy, no appetite, and am losing the strength in my

left

> > arm. My mom has been told by several friends of her's that Cancer

> > patients lose weight rapidly. Did anyone else lose weight? I'm

not

> at

> > this time but I have to make a concentrated effort to eat, I am

> just

> > not hungry. I can't get away from my dogs for a second, I go to

the

> > bathroom, they go to the bathroom, I go to bed, they go to bed.

> they

> > are constantly by my side, in my lap, or in my bed. kind of

cute

> > though. I know they love me for sure. My boyfriend on the other

> hand

> > is sometimes a real jerk. I don't think it has really hit home

for

> > him, he still exspects me to keep the house as clean as I always

> > have, which is exhausting these days. I wonder why my sister, my

> > parents, and my neice and nephew can see my health going

downhill,

> > but my boyfriend is so blind. Total strangers can see something

is

> > wrong too which is kind of alarming. Especially since I try very

> hard

> > not to look like anything is wrong. well, this is long enough,

not

> > much else to say except I am so glad I found this group.

> > Lori

> >

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